Here I Go Again!!

So tomorrow is the big day! I am going to a Weight Watchers meeting and tonight I start taking medication for my depression! My new way of life starts TONIGHT!! I am scared because of course 4th of July is around the corner and we ALWAYS have a big 4th of July Party, which consists of REALLY good food. I will do the best I can to curb some of that. Maybe I will cook all of it so I can make something a little different for myself. Have to think about that a little more. That is a lot of work! So I have only had 1 soda a day for the last week so that when I start this it would not even be a problem. I think I drop to half now, and then none. I cannot wait. Coke ruled my world for to long. I am done! I was looking at a lot of the blogs on here and was looking at the menus I have seen quite a few sound good recipes, I will need to try. I had know idea what Ricotta Creme was. Found a recipe after seeing it and it looks wonderful!! Definantly will try it!

GOOD LUCK AND BEST WISHES

Okay so lastnight I went to a T.O.P.S meeting. I sat down in a room with a bunch of strangers (which is not like me!) I looked around the room and I was the youngest one! When I talked myself into this I was excited to meet people that were like me. Overweight and wanting help but also my age I guess. I think I have come to a small conclusion that people my age don’t want help like that or they do and they are not ready to commit to different lifestyle. I guess I am too though. So I cannot say to much!! So back on my point I need a group that TEACHES me about eating habits and different things. I guess I was expecting something totally different!! I felt like I was in Kindergarten doing Arts and Crafts. I live in smaller city so I guess things are different in a big city. So I decided that I would not sign up for T.O.P.S but instead try Weight Watchers.  So I will try that. Good luck to everyone on their goals.

 Goal for June 27th- 1 Soda for the day! (So far so good.)

Okay, so I did not start my diet yesterday like I wanted too. I was sick..sick..sick. So I guess again I will start tomorrow. I am going to a TOPS meeting tomorrow to check it out. I hope I can get a little more motivated to do something with myself because right now I have none!! I have every reason in the world too but I can’t get “into” it. Hopefully TOPS will help. Good Luck Everyone.

So tommorow I go in to the doctor again and see if my blood pressure went down! I also get to find out if I can get help with pills or something. I have been drinking a lot more water. I have only had about a coke and a half a day. That is really good for me.

So I went into Wal-Mart lastnight! I actually went in there to buy me some workout shorts… do you know that you have to be tiny to buy WORKOUT SHORTS!! I went over to the plus sizes to find some and there was not even a workout section for bigger women!! A little ironic I thought. So I have to workout just to buy some workout shorts. A little frustrated; sorry.

 So I have made my menu for the week. I am kind of excited my husband is actually going to eat some of the things that I have planned with me. I have not come up with an exercise plan yet. I am trying to think of excercise that does not make me have to get out in the 103-105 degree West Texas days. I also need to invest in a MP3 player it is so boring exercising by myself and not having anything to listen to. So I found out I stop quicker. I hear my husband getting frustrated at the kids or the kids fighting between each other and I stop to go tend to them. It is a situation I had to deal with last time. Probably a great investment for me. I have not had a lot of money here lately to buy one so I should probably treat myself to it. Best of luck to myself and everyone else.

So today was my 1st time I ever went to a Dr. before I started a “new way of living” before. I decided that would do it right this time and find out what I needed to do. I really wanted to see if I could get some help maybe with Diet Pills. The safe ones this time. I weighed in today at 237! That is the largest I have ever been. My doctor said that my blood pressure is high and my family is at high risk for heart diease. I didn’t realize sitting there eating Fried Pickles would make me get so big. Or did I and just didn’t care. I never realized that when I married my husband 4 years ago only weighing 150 at the time we met which was only 1 year before we got married I would get so comfortable and climb to the top. So now it is time for a new beginning.   I just need some good people who understand to help me out!!