Not giving up on me
OK so once again I will be going through a funky week — no real direction no desire to be fabulously good. I will admit though that I just can’t eat like I used to. I should have input my calories for the day but I did have quite a few licorise allsorts (dangerous goodies those are) and I was unable to eat a decent dinner. All I had was my salad. Again I will look backward and remember when I could polish off the entire container of allsorts in one sitting and still be able to eat a full dinner. So far its taken me three days to eat the allsorts and I still have some left — so that is a positive in the way that I am eating. I am listening to my stomach more - -things I would have never done in the past. I used to be able to just push past the discomfort and find “one more” treat to stuff in my mouth. Geesh I think back on how when my late husband would leave town with our son and I would head to the market and purchase the makings for nachos — with the works. I would eat two huge plates of that by myself and then have a couple of dove bars for dessert. That was just one of my discretions - I could list them forever - -actually I should start writing them down when I think of them - I was bad bad bad and of course that is why I hit 250 pounds — heck I think at my most I was 280 - I never saw more than 275 on the scales but I was so fearful of the scales for so long.
Enough looking back — look forward Joanne look forward.
Filed under: General on May 13th, 2008
Isn’t it interesting to look back on the things that we used to eat and now wouldn’t even think of it?! I am the same way. I remember in high school I would hit 2 or 3 fast food resteraunts and get MEALS from each of them and eat them. NO WONDER I am in the boat I am now!! And that’s just one example. Even when I have my bad moments now, they never compare to the way I used to eat.
Yes, I TOLD you that you were doing well, my dear girl. I’m so glad that you’ve finally come to recognize it, and to be a little kinder to yourself.
Love,
Z
Looks like things are improving for you. Keep up the good work.
Shari