Sunday
My blog I can say what I want. I admit to feeling blue about a group today. For the past few weeks there has been someone on a thread that I love posting and I don’t like them. I am sad about feeling like I am losing a close friendship with several people and that one person can ruin that - but I guess that’s the way it goes in life. These people can just do what they want — claim they are good people and make no never mind what they are doing to other good people. I just hope that I don’t lose touch with the ones I really care about.
I am dealing with a few other issues right now — some personal and some health problems and all the yuckys are giving me a pain in the back. I started my lifestyle scale last week and from my first good day on Wed I have been scoring about a 2 - 5 since. Very little exercise - calories haven’t been great and most days I feel not much better than blah. Today didn’t help matters I am struggling to put my feelings out on the site for everyone to see — should I just PM the person that is causing me angst or should I just quietly slip away and let them win — sighs sighs sighs - I am too old for this crap. Been through too much in my life and now I feel like what with this stuff and something else I am struggling with personally I am back in high school dealing with cliques and ruined friendships — ACKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!! Ok there was my primal scream I hope to look back on this blog and laugh - soon!!!
Filed under: General on August 12th, 2007
Hey friend, don’t let this get to you. I feel badly, too, but have to conclude that “so be it” and all that. Those of us who WANT to stay in touch and WANT to keep on posting will. I did today. I am not going to acknowledge this person, and I don’t think you should waste any more anguish over it. Primal screams are good…healthy….better than letting some sleazy scoundrel know that they have created the havoc that they SO enjoy creating, eh? Personal stuff, too? Ah, sh*t, Girl…sometimes I just have to wonder if we EVER get too old for all this emotional bullcrap. Well, you know where to find me if you want to vent, and if you want my phone number, you can have that, too.
Big HUG from Zed
Oh my dear friend you know it — and I will not let anyone chase me away but some posts will be “scrolled”. I guess we never get too old but one thing is for sure I know you are and will remain in my life for a long long long time to come. I know how to reach you and reach you I will for sure.
The whole group drama thing… ugh… I know exactly how that goes! Try your best to not let it get to you and just stay close with those that matter.
I will Lori — thanks for dropping by and propping me up.
J