Its not the jeans that make me look fat — its the FAT!!!

And my oh my are my thighs hurting LOL.  I did weigh myself on Wednesday of course I figured with eating the correct calories and exercising my fool head off there is this expectation that I will see a huge loss.  Quite honestly (LOL I am talking to myself here) I was thrilled to see me down from 235 to 232.  Deep down inside I was secretly hoping to see 229 or less but this is really tough right now.  I wonder if my body is holding on to this weight right now and if I can just break through I might find it easier — who knows.  Someone said elsewhere if they had to work this hard to lose weight they would just give up.  I can’t - I won’t  - I need to keep pushing myself each and every day to eat right and move.  I am almost halfway through my bootcamp — not sure if its mind over matter but I feel smaller.  The scale (oh the damn scale) doesn’t register the smaller size but I can feel it in my waist — when I look at myself naked in the mirror I am still fat just not as fat.  My hips are getting more defined and when I turn sideways (something I usually try to avoid) I have the large tummy but not morbidly large. Dr Oz’s Omentum is still there in front of my tummy but I am determined to shrink it down.  I just posted my problem of where to shop now.  Its been coming as I shrink more and more that my clothes are getting too loose.  For someone that wore horrible baggy clothes (to hide the fat — ya right) I prefer more fitted clothes now (thanks to Stacy and Clint — What not to Wear).  Problem is I am getting too small for plus size but not many “regular” clothing stores cater to large people and the size 16’s are too small and 18 is hard to find.  I know I should just concentrate of getting smaller and maybe I can blast through this stage with some carefully purchased summer dresses.

Filed under: General on May 11th, 2007