Its not the jeans that make me look fat — its the FAT!!!

Had a good weekend — took my bike out for my first ride (has to be the first time since about 1993 I was on a bike that wasn’t bolted to a gym floor.  Big thanks to my definition instructor all the lunges that she has made me do over the last few months helped alleviate any butt problems after bike riding - YAY!!! Thanks Candace!!!!

 Indulged in an individual pizza on Saturday night — saved up my calories for the 900 calorie treat but forgot that my tummy just won’t take that sort of food intake in one sitting any more.  Good lesson well learned.  I had to make a trip to buy some Tums — necessary because we were off to enjoy an evening of comedy stylings with George Carlin — even at 69 the man is a genious!!!

Sunday was back to normal — well as normal as things can by when you have a “discussion” with your mother.  I am 51 and still looking for approval — sigh.  I have held a lot of things in and her dislike for my partner was dragging me down.  I have wanted to say something but the timing was never right.  Well it came out loud and clear yesterday.  At least she admitted that she is happy for me — she can see that my sweetie is the kindest most generous man and treats me like a queen and that I am happy — extremely happy.  I didn’t think that was enough for her.  I guess I wanted her to care for my sweetie as much as she cared for my late husband — but that is fairytale thinking.  Maybe one day but just not now.  I have to settle for her admitting she is happy for me.

Filed under: General on May 7th, 2007