Only a week left until I fly to Canada to see my grand daughter…woohoo!  I so excited.  I talked to her on the phone yesterday, or I should say she talked…..I understood about 1/8 of what she said, but my she is just babbling away now.  Hard to believe she will be two years old already.

I am still running, and still loving it.  I am trying to get in two runs a day now instead of one.  I only run on my days off and it has been the best thing I ever did.  The only exercise I actually look forward to…..I must admit there are days I have to force myself to do it cause i can come up with a million excuses, but once I get out there and run, I feel so good and so proud of myself.

Diet wise I still suck, so have decided to try something different.  I saw a coworker the other day and she has lost over 50 pounds in 4 months and looks fantastic.  I asked her how she did it and she said high protein.  I am not a big fan of Atkins so asked her if that was what she did, and no……what she does is has two liquid meals.  She uses muscle milk which is high protein.  Then for her meal she has a huge salad with either shrimp or chicken for the protein.  She also has one fruit a day, fresh not canned.  She looks great, feels great and said it was so easy.

So I decided to give it a try.  She is going to help me and be my inspiration.  I also signed up on the web site, “myfooddiary.com”  to keep track of my exercise, food intake etc.  It is $9 month but so worth it.  It will tell you if you are eating too much or too little, to much salt, too many calories, too much fat in your diet etc.  It is by far the best on line food diary I have found.  I find myself religiously recording everything cause I want a green smiley face……yes I am a sucker for instant gratification….hate those red frowny faces…

On the home front, things are looking up with DH and I.  We seem to be finding ourselves again.  His working away from home has really been a bonus.  He is feeling more confident and proud, and I am actually looking forward to his weekend at home.  We are talking more, laughing more, and for the first time in over 3 years, we are getting physical…….I won’t go into detail, but I will say there are definate benefits to having him work away from home. :)

Work wise, I am continuing to work my butt off.  We have had a rash of horrid MVA lately, and I am so tired of the carnage.  We have also seen a rash of suicides and suicide attempts.  Maybe the downfall of the economy is adding to that.  I don’t know but I hate suicides, families never recover from them.  There is never any closure, and the quilt of the survivors is relentless….I wish that people that killed themselves had to hang around in a kind of limbo to watch the sorrow and grief they cause, and they would have to feel it as well….   When I was a senior in high school my bf shot himself, no warning, no classic signs, just went home after a party and took his dad’s gun and shot himself in the head.  No note, no nothing, just gone……..I still grieve….his family totally fell apart after that.  His sister turned to drugs and alchohol, his dad died shortly after and his mom was never right again.  It was over for him, but his family is still suffering.  How cruel can you be?

Oh well, I shall not dwell on the past…..I am going to just x off the days until I leave to see my son and grand daughter….

ciao…..