I lost 2 pounds this week, and that despite having butter on my popcorn.  So that made me feel real good.

I find that the WW fruities are a God send.  I love them, and anytime I crave a sweet or want something to eat when I am not hungry I just open a pack of them and chew them up.  The whole pack is only 1 point and they are nummy.

Well me and this menopause thing are not doing well at all.  I am hot flashing every 5 mins.  Wake up  soak and freezing and then sweating and boiling.  It is also embarrassing at work when I am trying to talk to a doctor or a patient, and all of a sudden my face is bright red and sweat is pouring off of me.  I fuckin hate it!!!!!   Today I had to teach Heartcode at 8am and I am sure my students thought I needed CPR.  I was so sweaty and miserable.   I finally just said WTF and called my doctor and said, “if you dont’ want a suicide on your hands, put me back on the HRT.”    Why was I so stupid to think I should just go off and be fine?  I just wanted to be off all my medications, and being on HRT has never hurt me and it was not even part of the mess from when I was sick.   So he phoned me in a script, said he didn’t know why I stopped taking it anyway.  DUH!   and just kidding about the suicide thing.  Course with the mood swings, I only have two moods now, homicidal and suicidal.  Not to mention I was going to smother my DH in his sleep last night for snoring :)

So I admit, I am a coward, a wuss.  I cannot do this menopause-hot flash thing.  It bested me, it beat me.  I am done.  I want to sleep and not cry when I watch a TV commerical, so I give up, gimme my HRT.

So what if it makes me hang on to every pound like I was hanging on to my DH as he was dangling over a very tall cliff……hmmmm???