I just had the most perfect of weekends. :)  I had the house to myself for three wonderful days.  DH is still in NM, I was off for a long weekend and had a totally do nothing weekend at home with the fur babies.  It was great.  I watched a couple thrillers, a couple horror movies.  Had complete and total control of the remote, slept in, went to bed when I wanted to, stayed in my jammies all one day, ate when I wanted to and didn’t when I didn’t want to, didn’t even brush my hair on my jammies day :)  It was great!  I could even fart out loud and belch like the big boys…awww!

I feel wonderful, totally revived and was completely ready to return to work.  DH is still in NM for another week and I am lovin it.  He called and I think he is freaked that I am not missin him at all and neither are the kids (fur babes)  I told him, “how can I miss you, you don’t give me a chance, you call 60 fookin times a day”  Thank gawd for caller ID :)  pretty bad when you screen out your own DH’s phone calls…..my bad!   

Have to or I would spend my entire day on the phone with him.  I have never met a man that loves to talk on the phone like he does.  No kidding, he can and does spend hours on the phone.  My cell phone minutes a month are less than 200, I hate the phone, say what you have to say and be done and hang up, unless it is long distance and you haven’t talk to them for a while and you like them :)   He on the other hand talks all the time, his cell phone minutes are over 3000 a month!!!!!  How can one human being talk that much?  And that is only to three people!  His friend Adam (who I think he is in love with) and his mom and dad.   3000 minutes!   I cannot talk that much in person.  So I screen my calls from him cause I can only listen to “you know” or “I’ll be”  so many time before I will tear out my hair.     And NOTHING was going to ruin my perfect do nothing weekend.   And it was…..perfect…sigh!   It will carry me for days :)

Thanks to everyone who responded in my quest to find a diet that may work for me.   After a lot of research and your help, I have decided to give WW a try.  I like the idea of real food, not fake food.  The point system seems like a no brainer, which is good for me.  My boss really likes it and finds it easy to follow.  Points gone, no more to eat that day.  DUH!   I figure I can do that.    Our local safeway carries a lot of the WW foods which is good.  My DH is big on frozen dinners when I am working, so I think that the frozen WW will work well for me when I am working as well.  Specially on the shifts when I am working 16s and 12s cause all I want to do is sleep and work then.

I have also decided after I finish off this six pack of diet pepsi that I am going to quit drinking diet soda.  Actually I am going to quit drinking soda.  I read that diet soda can make you GAIN weight, and I don’t want all the sugar with regular soda so I have decided no soda.  I am not sure what I will drink now besides water.  I will have to think of something, maybe tea sweetened with splenda.   Is splenda okay?  I know all the bad hype is with aspartame, but don’t really know about splenda.    But no more soda…..

Okay there are some changes, WW and no more soda.  Also got the results back on my thyroid test….normal.  My doctor said that he thinks I am just stressed to the max and that will mimic the same symptoms as a thyroids that is out of whack.  So that is good news.   I am healthy but nuts :)

So my third change….try TRY to eliminate some stress in my life, or at least try TRY to handle it better.  I am going to look into yoga, or some meditation type thingie and see if that will help.   Start exercising again, watching what I stuff in my face, detoxing from the sugar and getting some rest.   Doc gave me a script for some Ambien CR and if I continue to have such trouble sleeping, I will give them a try….althou I will admit I slept good on my do nothing perfect weekend :)  I am also going to try and not let life’s little challenges and troubles PISS ME OFF SO MUCH, I am really going to TRY TRY TRY to do all these things and find some balance in my life . 

Just a little balance, that is not asking for much :)