I have so many different emotions in my head right now, so I am going to try and separate them if I can.

Overwhelmed with the responses to my blog thanking me for what I do……..wow!  Talk about humbling.  People I don’t know taking the time to write and say thank you.  Wow…….let me thank you for thanking me.  Sounds corny but I mean it.

Excited, only 8 more sleeps and my beautiful family will be here.  My son, daughter in law and my grand daughter.  Oh to be able to hold her and smell her and love her, and not on a web cam.   I am so excited I can hardly stand it! 

Disgust with my DH, I worked so hard yesterday on my day off, and he did fuck all.  I was up at 1:30am - yup the damn insomnia-went on line, read etc and then at 7:30 I started to paint.  I painted the wainscoting, all of it, the window ledges, the door frames and doors.  The french doors.  I touched up all the painting on the walls that I did a while ago.  I washed all the windows and screens.  I worked non stop until 6pm.  I didn’t even stop to eat, I just worked.  I want the house finished before my kids get here, and DH knows that. He asked me to make him a list so I did, which he has not even looked at.  At 6PM, I moved all the furniture in the living room and dining room out and scrubbed the hell outta the place.  Then I moved it all back, cleaning it as I did, so the place is spotless.  I felt so proud.  What was DH doing during all this?  Sitting in his office watching TV!   He did nothing on the list, nothing………..what a fuck wad!  I am so pissed at him.  Sometimes I think I hate him, that he is useless. And then to make matters worse, I was suppose to work a 16 hour shift today, and they call me and ask if I will come in an hour and a half early because they want me to recert one of the ER nurse’s CPR or they will be suspended and not allow to work tonight…………….shit!  So here it is 11:46pm, I have been here since 1:30pm and I will be here until 7:30am.  I am tired and crabby so it is probably better for me to be here, or I would be fighting with the lazy DH.   And my butt cheeks are so sore from painting, and so are my poor little tooties…..I have no idea why my feet are sore :)

But I am sticking to the diet!   And the excitment is over powering the anger.  I am soooooooooo excited.    Only 8 more sleeps.  And my house will be ready even if I have to do it all by myself.  I don’t want all the renovations done, that is impossible, but I want the stuff that can be done, done and out of the way so the house will be fairly clean and livable.  I don’t believe in “I can’t”  I only believe in “I won’t”  My DH is an I won’t :( 

8 more sleeps………