Well I am back at work after having a couple days off to lick my wounds and heal my heart.  Unfortunately I also used the time to eat myself sick and fight with my hubby about nothing and everything.

MY SON IS COMING.  He and is family will arrive on the 18th, so of course being the anal, control freak, OCD that I am, I want the house finished or close to it and clean.  My DH on the other hand wants to sit and watch TV for 6 hours a night.

I painted, did laundry, cooked, went to town x 2 for meetings on my days off.  Groomed both the dogs, scrubbed both bathrooms etc.  And he put in an a/c in the living room and called it a day…………….grrr!  And I get mad, cause I see all that needs to be done, and I hear him saying he will not have time to finish this or finish that, and then he SITS!

But to give him credit, today he did put the a/c in my new office, and is finishing the wainscoting in the living room and dining room, so all there really is to finish is mostly cosmetic now.  And of course I have to give him credit for being able to put up with me :)  I just wish he had more motivation and a better work ethic.  But that will never change, he will always be content to be second best or less. 

I am taking 10 days off when the kids are here and I am so excited.  Instead of just talking to my grand daughter on the web cam, I will be able to smell her baby smell :)  Ruby Jean you can relate!  I can hardly wait to hold her.

My diet is gone to hell and back.  Being an emotional eater does not help and when I get bored, sad, scared or angry, I want FOOD, and lots of it.  Why does it take days to lose a pound but hours to put on 5?  Why can I not just push the sweets away and say no thank you?  Why do I have to eat 3 Fat Boys in one night?????  Why am I sitting here eating M & Ms?

I have such a fookin headache it feels like I am going to explode. 

Why can I not hate food, or at least have disdain for it?  Not need it?  Not want it?  Why am I always stuffing my pie hole?

FAT, FAT FAT FAT……………FAT BITCH!  That’s me :(