Well here I am sitting at work, feeling sorry for myself.  I was suppose to have today off, so I was up til 2:30am working on my kitchen.  Then at 5:30am my phone rings and the day supervisor’s husband was in the ER, and could I work for her???

And of course I cannot say NO…..I never learned to say no.  That is a foreign language for me………….NO NO NO NO!

But I say yes of course, I will be right there.  So I shower and jump in the car adn drive for 45 mins and now here I am, five hours into a 12 hour shift and I am tired, and I am cranky and my kitchen is not getting done and I don’t want to be here.   All I wanted was a FOOKIN DAY OFF!

But the day supervisor is a good person, and I would want to be with my husband if he was sick, so here I am and I will never tell her I resent being here, cause it is not her fault that I am here.  But it suxs big time cause I have to work 16 hours tomorrow and I just want a day at home………..waaaah!

So what did I do to comfort myself.  I ate bacon, and a chocolate bar!  Good combination!  Junk food, comfort food………..know what?  It did not work, I am not comforted, but I feel awful cause I ate it and I feel really awful cause I want more :(    No wonder I waddle instead of glide, no one I don’t have buns of steel but instead have buns of balloons……..because I eat bacon and chocolate bars.  Of course I wash it down with diet pepsi, that must eliminate the calories…right???

I so feel like I could just sit here and cry.  I am so selfish cause I dont’ want to be here.