song of the road

Thanks so much to everyone of you for being so happy for me. I felt so warm reading one after another of your comments. I belong to a community of such gorgeous women. I love and cherish you.

I was way too busy last week. I was doing the freelancing training. The participants were bright and alert. I had fun with them. Not only teaching was fun but it was enjoyable other ways too. They are so eager to learn and also so funny. I now feel like I have known them forever. They are all going to Germany in a week or so. Anyway it all went good. But I had to get up at 5:00 am (which is VERY early for me) and prepare for the day - looking for more examples and looking up doubts. Then this place was a nightmare to commute due to the traffic. I spent 4 hours each day on travelling. Everyday we would spill over our allotted time and when I would be home around 10 pm, I could barely keep my eyes open.

This was good. It proved to me that I have not really lost my zeal for work. It is only this company and environment that I find sapping. Then we recorded all the training sessions. I was so surprised when we listened back. I sounded tinny and a bit whiny and definitely not very confident. Generally that’s not how it works. I have a good voice and always come across sexier on phone. Also leaving in South India for 8 years have modified my accent a lot. I need to be conscious about these and become better again. Specially I want my voice to be full of laughter, confidence and that sexy huskiness. I remember I once asked my first boyfriend about how my voice sounds. He said, “it sounds best when I am silent”. I am still grinning.

Well, this is supposed to be my last week here. But it might get extended a bit. Last week there was some acrimony and some threats came from my boss. It’s my fault that I wasn’t cleanly doing my work because of my depression. But then I had been upfront with them throughout and tried my best to be fair. Anyway it is all going to end soon, give or take one week.

I am to go to Bombay for a few days next month. I am going to be there when we sign the rental agreement for our new house there. By the way, we have been considerably lucky there and got a 3 bedroom house for a lot cheaper than the normal market rate. The landlord liked my brother. I hope that is the only reason.

I am missing the kids I was training. They were so bright and fun. I guess I get attached too easily. There was this one guy who was so sweet. He would not only help out all the time but also anticipate problems and help. Quite a few times, I didn’t even notice the inconvenience and he changed a few things to make me more comfortable. I was surprised and very touched. Generally who would expect guys to be that sensitive? Later over lunch, I found out that his mom is not very well and his dad is physically challenged. He is making many arrangements for them to be comfortable while he is going to be in Germany. A really sweet guy.

I don’t think I would be able to catch up with all of you right now. I would be back later in the evening and do so. Everybody have a great week and take care.

PS On the weight loss front, my eating this week was BAD. I am not sure I would be doing any better this week. I am planning to get back on track from next Monday.