song of the road

I am not doing so well.. exercise wise, food wise, life wise. There is tooo much to do and I am freaking out and falling apart a bit. I just have to complete the things on my to-do list soon.

I went for a lovely day’s outing on Sunday. I felt so good while I was out there. But after coming back, even after being so tired, I woke worried about work. I think Ruby Jean is correct. Something is wrong with my health. But where would I schedule in my doctor’s appointment? Anyway, must make time some time next week.

Update on weight - I came back to 70.2 last Tuesday and since then moving around 69.9 to 70.5 kg.

Things will be okay. I can handle this. I won’t fall apart. I will stay Positive.

Thank you everybody for leaving your lovely comments. I will soon be back blogging regularly and replying.

Oh by the way, I managed to have a hair cut and have now chopped off my waist length hair to a more manageable shoulder length. Really like my hair cut. Feeling light and breezy and younger, instead of dull and stodgy.

I weighed full 1 kg extra at 71.2 kg. So much for trying to be out of the 70s by this week. I need to pick myself and go on. I know I will lose all this extra weight eventually. But feeling a bit scared. Hope I can hang on till I succeed.

Another worrying thing happened today. After I finished my warm up exercises in the gym, I was doing my leg curls. Then suddenly I had a tremendously pounding headache. It was terrible and I sweated buckets. S made me sit still for a while and the intensity reduced. I was really scared and wanted to stop my work out session. S didn’t say much and kept changing exercises, so I could finish the workout and even could do some cardio at the end. Not feeling so bad any more. I don’t know what I would do without S.

I am still worrying a bit about why that happened. This weekend I did eat lots. I was very out of sorts somehow. I guess that has messed up my blood sugar or something. Let’s wait and watch for a few more days or I must go to the doctor. Hope for the best.

Need to work hard on maintaining an upbeat mood.

Well…. back from work and getting ready for bed. Had a sort of ok day today. faltered twice - one sweet and one dosa. sometimes I feel more I am trying to check what i eat, more I am falling off. Anyway I will lose this weight. I know.

Still feeling restless, unhappy, irritated. Don’t know what to do…

May go out shopping for shoes in the evning. Hope that will make me feel a little better.

No exercise yesterday and today. Not doing particularly good food-wise either. Need to pick my self up tomorrow.

Absolutely sure, I am not going below 70 this week either.. however can’t blame anyone but me… Read the rest of this entry »

Well.. it doesn’t look like I will be able to blog everyday. I would love to though. It’s been such a busy week. Hopefully I will be able to nail my routine soon and make time every night for blogging.

I wonder… I am not married, I am not responsible for kids.. why am I so short of time still? I mean I get up by 6 am, drive to gym by 6:45 am; work out till about 9; reach home by 9:30 (too much traffic on my way back); then start for work by 10:15 am and back from work around 9:30 pm. It’s not that I am spending inordinately more time at work too. It’s the bad traffic again. I actually work from 11 to 8 or 8:30. that’s not at all much. anyway back home, eat dinner by 10. there’s a good sitcom on tv around that time, so mostly watch that. try to pack in 15-30 mins of blogging then and in bed by 10:30 pm. so if i am off anywhere by as less as 15 mins, my whole schedule starts screwing up. grrrr….

Somedays I would feel down and hopeless… I would have to read something before bed.. and of course I would end up snacking a bit.. though the good thing is that for some reason I feel lot less hungry and lot more full most of the time :)… anyway the reading makes me sleep late.. next day I would be tired and irritable in gym… feel sleepy throughout the day at work… have to do most things twice to do correctly… start panicking with the work load… but just reading a book for a couple of hours should not have such dire impact now, should it?… shouldn’t my routine be more flexible… i mean i am doing NOTHING at all… and my days are gone… one after another after another….

Read the rest of this entry »

Heard a nice simile on sense of humor.

 Javed Akhtar was saying - sense of humor is needed more in difficult time of life than when you are happy. It is like the shock absorbers in a car. when the road is smooth, you don’t need them. But on a bumpy road….. a humorless person’s life in difficult times is going to be .. khut khut khut

Back after the weekend. Just could not write in the last few days. Even now I need to finish fast and run to bed.

Today’s weight - 70.1 kg!!!! Amazing after the long weekend of good food (read fried and spicy)!!!

Today’s workout - 15 mins warmup, 60 mins of weights (intersperesed with laughter and conversation with S), 30 mins of cardio

I whined today about my not being able to fall from the 70s for so long now. S changed the workout a bit. I feel I will be out of 70s by this week. Keeping my fingers crossed. S and I discussed diet. He feels I am doing ok there. S said I should have a salad for evening snacks which should have carrots, cucumber, lettuce, some grass and some leaves :) I visualized myself tearing a few big green leaves from the tree near my 6th floor window in my office and chewing them, with a big toothy goat smile… Couldn’t stop giggling for long.. S is fun!

Food wise today - Had half glass milk, a glass orange juice, two slices of bread, sprout salad - all of that by breakfast. then 3 chapatis, a bowl of curry, a bowl of daal (lentils) and a bowl of curd for lunch. half a pear for snacks. 4 parathas and a bowl of curry for dinner. plus 3 spoons of ice cream. - not very bad!

work was bad today. though I got a lot done. one of my colleagues screwed my happiness a bit.. however i was quite calm - proud of that. anyway it was a bit of my fault too. i would try to do better so as to give her less chance to repeat this feat.. had fun chatting with another overseas colleague and his daughter Jordan - what a sweet name… with a name like she has to be a princess.

well.. thats all for today. will try to do better at exercising, watching what I eat, work and blogging tomorrow… hope for the best

I weighed 200g more than yesterday. I think this is because my periods started yesterday.

Again managed to have sprouts for brekkie today. Though had less sprouts and had a chapati too. I just couldn’t do without any carbs, before facing the whole day.

Exercise was mixed today. It was my day to do cardio which I do without supervision from S.

Did my warmup exercise per new plan. The stepper exercises were good and got me sweating. Also managed to do slow squats and hold of 25 and 10 respectively for 2 sets each of narrow and wide squats. Will start doing pushups using a stepper from tomorrow. S wants me to do the squats with dumbbells. I think tomorrow’s workout is going to be tough.

Cardio was going good when the power went off for a minute and I lost the concentration. Picked it up again but wasn’t so good any more. S has put quite high intensity for cardio in my exercise card - don’t know if I would be able to do all that. But I must try very hard. Abs was okay afterwards.

I am stuck in the 70s for so long. I just want to get in the 60s and stay there for a while. After brother leaves, would talk to S and do some extra hard work to fall below 70.

Today’s weight - 70.4 kg

Today’s exercise - 20 min warmup, 45 min cardio, 10 min abs

I did have sprouts for breakfast. I found them okay to eat, but felt queasy afterwards. Maybe it is something else which was bothering me.

 S (my trainer) changed my workout routine today. Had a tough time learning the new stuff. I had tons of trouble keeping the postures. Mostly could not. S is really patient.

Isn’t it so very fortunate for me to have him in my life now? Remembered a zen proverb -

When the pupil is ready to learn, a teacher will appear!

Was rather tired after the workout. Maybe my stamina is down due to the remnants of my cold. S was talking about me taking protein supplements. Don’t know though if he was joking. Anyway, I feel it would make losing weight still more difficult.

I had a glass of milk before going to gym. Breakfast was good with sprouts and orange juice. Had a tiny portion of nuts and raisins afterwards. Lunch again was 3 chapatis and a bowl of curry - complex carbohydrates but carbs nevertheless. Snacks - BAD again - masala dosa - rice pancake with potato filling. Dinner - 3 chapatis, a bowl of mixed veg curry (good) and a small piece of cake. No after dinner snacking. However did not eat my apple again today. I had 3 litres of water.

I think I will try to eat more salad and I notice there is almost no protein. Also need to make the evening snacks more healthy. But that’s the time, my whole team eats together everyday. It’s tough to say no and I feel like letting go that once. I hate fruits so much. I should slowly work on it.

Today’s point - need to concentrate on being able to do more squats and hold, in a slow speed. need to eat more salads and protein.

Today’s weight 70.2 kg. Total workout - 60+ mins.

Well… I was not feeling so well today morning. Felt feverish because of the cold I have. Still coughing intermittently.

Skipped going to gym today. Also I was supposed to have my monthly measurements today. I have skipped this twice in a row now. Must try to have it done tomorrow or day after. I know I haven’t made a good progress losing weight this month. Need to see how many inches I have lost. But I feel great and most of my trousers have become loose. Got a few compliments from my co-workers too.

I had a pack of instant noodles for breakfast. Not a very healthy choice. But loved the extra pepper I added to it. It did wonders for my sore throat. Had a glass of musambi juice afterwards. Lunch - 3 chapatis, 1 bowl of okra curry, half bowl of curd. Had 2 samosas for evening snacks - that is BAD. Dinner - 3 chapatis and 1 bowl of okra curry. No after dinner snacks today. Took one apple to office but could have only half. Oh and also had a teaspoon of flaxseed powder in the morning. That’s a regular. I managed to drink my 3 litres of water today.

Not a great day nutrition wise. But did not eat too much. Planning to start eating sprouts for breakfast from tomorrow. Also will try to add lentils to my lunch box. Most definitely need to stop snacking after dinner. Tomorrow is my day to work out with weights.

Brother is coming down this Thursday. Healthy eating will go for a toss for few days. I will try to eat smaller portions and remember to drink lots of water.

There is this Oriya food festival next week. That would be a buffet dinner. Maybe I should give that a skip.

Hello there everybody! I am so excited to be here.

I am currently at 70 kgs (155 lb approx.). I have lost around 10 lbs in last four months. I am trying out a combination of exercising and healthy eating. I need to lose at least another 15 lbs.

I work out at a nearby gym with my fabulous personal trainer. I generally work out 6 days a week. 3 days I do cardio and ab exercises. the other 3, I do weights and ab exercises with my trainer, with maybe 15 minutes of cardio thrown in at the end. Fortunately I am in love with my exercise routine and manage not to miss many sessions.

I am hardly doing a quarter as well on the eating front. I am trying to avoid junk food as much as possible, but not doing so well there. My three main meals are healthy and I do rememebr to drink lots of water if I am in office. But I do very poorly on both food and water front on weekends.

 However that’s all from me today. Planning to post my progress regularly.