Well i got sick. my sister got a cough, which developed into a rather nasty cold. I got a cough a couple of days ago and you can guess what happened after that. Particularly nasty is the cough which hampers your breathing but wont actually let you cough anything up. Grr. So i went to work out on thursday, managed to do a fast walk for 20 mins and an easy cycle for 10 mins and then i gave up. I thought it was just because i had a lot on my mind and couldnt settle down and focus on the work out at hand, but apparently the cold was gradually developing and on friday i felt awful. I feel better today, and tomorrow i will try going without drugs and see how i feel. I fully intend to get back into it on monday. My calorie intake this week has been a little lower than usual, around 1400 rather than 1500, so hopefully this will mean i have still lost weight this week, and not mean that i have scared my metabolism into storing every little thing as fat.

Tomorrow and monday are my weigh in days, so not long to wait until i find out what the damage is this week. Why do i have 2? Well, its because i used to only weigh myself on mondays. I would get cold feet the day before though and weigh myself to prepare myself mentally should it be likely to be a gain “officially” on monday. But i always tended to weigh less on sundays than i did on mondays for some reason. I think its because i do weights once a week only on saturdays or something. Anyway, so now i weigh myself on mondays and sundays and take the lower of the two as my official weight. I know some might consider this “cheating” but really, its not. I mean, i DID weigh the least amount at that time. And the sometimes slight loss is more motivating to keep going than a slight gain is. And anyway, i didnt ask anyone what they thought about whether it was cheating or not :P Im not sure what i will do for the 3FC biggest loser challenge though. I think i will just use my sunday weigh ins, since they tend to be lower. It probably doesnt matter as long as i am consistent

Anyway, onto more exciting things! I had a non scale victory today, the first of its kind for me. Sure, ive had increases in speed, strength, endurance, and a loss of inches as measured by the tape, but nothing more…superficial i guess. Anyway, today i was panicking because i had no jeans to wear. Well, none that had no holes, had been taken up, werent worn away at the bottoms, werent hugely too big, etc. Then i remembered I had a pair of black jeans in my wardrobe

A pair of black, nonstretch denim jeans

A pair of jeans that hadnt fit for quite a while (maybe…a year?)

A pair of jeans that are a size 12

I was dubious. I thought i might just be able to get them over my thighs but there was no way i was going to be able to do them up. But, out of desperation and ok, a bit of curiosity, i pulled them on. They slid over my thighs like full fat cookies and cream ice cream used to slide over my tongue. I pulled them up and they became snug. I did up the zipper and the button

The jeans. They fit. Oh my god. Its actually happening. I have this awful deep down belief that my weight loss so far is just fluctuation. I fluctuate a lot. I can fluctuate about 2kg up or down in a day (about 4.4 pounds). I know that it seems logically impossible that i could fluctuate 7kg though, but i still fear that. And now that belief is finally begining to be broken down