so ive been charging a lot to my creditcard. hot yoga is getting expensive. i had the unlimited pass for 120..(having 20 days left)..but there was a 3 month summer special for 220..so i did that..n rolled over my remaining 20 days for sept..i splurge at lulu..got a new mat, a sweater, towel..gym bag..water bottle (which broke..ugh)..n randomness at old navy. ahh the bills are adding up..but i figured..i used to spend all this cash on going on and at restaurants..so if spending on hot yoga will make me wrk out and get lean then its worth it..speaking of which..at the of the month..ill be going to LA for 10-11 days..meaning no gym..bad eatin habits n no yoga. omg so worried that ill gain whatever it is that ive lost my bro’s bday was yesterday..my dad bought home an ice cream cake..ahh the temptations. im going planning on going out this wkend..sat..but alcohol wise.. i think ill just have volka and water..(65-70 calories for a shot of volka)..wont have too much because on sun i need to wrk out and do two sessions of yoga..and i hope i dont binge this wkend. ive been binging every wkend!! 

so ysterday i went to watch sex  n the city..had a whole box of poutine alone. cheesecake ice cream w smarties n gummy bears in a waffle bowl..a whole tub of popcorn (combo number 1) w extra butter and 3 packs of seasoning, a whole pack of mint crips m&ms..n a whole pack of gummy bears.lol. o gawd.3500+ calories..n this is alll after my scheduled breakfast, lunch n dinner.today imma be really goood. not even going to weigh myself today. i dont want to get depressed. going to do 2 sessions of yoga..and planning on burning 1500 calories on cardio today. this is the plan. ill write back tonite and let u know if i stuck to my plan. sigh. 

jus ate another 3000 calories. after dinner. o jeezy. a whole box of poutine n ice cream. 

i think i have an addictive personality. when i fall off the wagon..i jus mindless eat even more. today after  a whole tub of cashews (1000+ calories) n i decided to blow my diet on ice cream..n yesterday after another tub of cashews ..i chowed down 2 chocolate chip granola bars right before bed. i wasnt even hungry. sigh. 

my diet was going well. then last nite..real late. i ate a whole bag of cashews. the whole bag. n then 2 granola bars. i wasnt evem hungry. sigh. thats at least 500 calories over.

so i did hot yoga n the gym again today. tired. i want to do this everyday..but on thursdays n fridays i dont get off wrk till 630…so to do both..i need to hit the gym..do half my wrk out..go to yoga..n go bk to the gym..because the gym closes at 12..n hot yoga starts 830 (i have to leave by 8)..and i need 2 and half hrs to do my cardio at the gym. this wrk out plan of mine has jus started…i hope i can keep it up..ah i still hafta think whether or not to do this tmr.i find that hot yoga reduces my craving for bad foods. but my week pass to yoga has xpired..ill hafta purchase a month’s pass..for 112..pricy. but then again i used to spend that type of money on food..and going out.so yea wrking out is all mental. just hafta decide if im really up for it.. 

the more i wrk out the more i eat..i wonder if its starting to counter my goal.:(i dont get this weight loss system. so frustrating! 

im sweating buckets at hot yoga. tmr i have wrk at 9am. but theres a hot yoga class at 7am-8am..meaning if i do want to go..ul hafta wake up at 6, leave the house by 625. grr. still debating if i should go. but the sessions r so relaxing  n they do wonders for toning the body!

i love days that i have off wrk. i get to hit the gym. walk the dogs n do hot yoga. its the best feeling over.going to leave to hot yoga in 20 mins. altho its challenging and i cant do some of the poses..like everyone else..and i lose my balance..i still love it..because i feel great after. ah. i think im addicted to source desserts, theyre so amazingly goood! 

weighed myself this morning. gained another pound, thats almost 2 pounds in 2 days. i hope its muscle mass n not my hrrible eating on friday (2 slices of pizza and cheesecake ice cream w smarties n gummy bears in a waffle bowl)sigh. but i woke up this morning at 9ish, went to the gym n burnt 1300 calories.gonna leave to hot yoga in 10mins.