Hope, Strength, and Integrity

Yuck! First side effect…

I had an “accident” of a sort today due to the Alli. I was sitting at my co-worker’s chair and had to “toot”. So, I did and didn’t think anything of it. Then I had to go to the bathroom. When I finished going to the bathroom I saw that my poo was oily which is a side effect of the Alli. I shrugged it off and figured it’d go away soon (which they say in the booklet). Then I walked back to my co-worker’s chair only to see a dark oily spot on the chair. My “toot” apparently was oily as well. I am SO embarrassed! I told her that I spilled a bit of cleaning fluid on her chair. I also tried to wash it out. I am mortified! I just have to be more careful when I “toot”.

YUCK!

~ Hope

Tough weekend ahead

With this being a holiday weekend it’ll be interesting to see how well I hold up against temptations. I’ll do my best… that’s all I can say.

I weighed myself today and I’m still at 152.2lbs. I find this to be very relieving. After my detour I was afraid that I was back up to 154.2lbs.

No side effects have appeared with my use of Alli but I’ve been sticking to my healthy eating plan. I bet if I slip up I will experience some then. We’ll see.

F/E Log:

Breakfast - ham and swiss cheese omelet and 1 cup of sliced strawberries

Snack - apple slices and 2tbsp. hummus

Lunch - whole wheat pita with turkey, lettuce, onion, cheese, and 1tbsp. ranch dressing and 1 cup of cubed canteloupe

Snack -  a mozzerella string cheese stick

Exercise - Boot Camp Basic Training 50min. workout

Dinner - unknown

 ~ Hope

Keeping It Up

F/E Log:Breakfast – 1 cup of sliced strawberries (I was supposed to have a ham and Swiss cheese omelet but work go in the way of that)Snack – this was supposed to be ¾ cup cottage cheese, 1 cup cubed cantaloupe, and 1 tbsp slivered almonds but again work got in the wayLunch – grilled chicken salad and ½ cup peach slicesSnack – 1 sliced apple with 2 tbsp of hummusDinner – chicken Parmesan and a salad of mixed greens*I might eat another fruit or my cottage cheese snack since I skipped it. I want to make sure I have enough calories in for today. I’ll see what the weather is like. If it’s nice and I have time I’ll go for a 30min. walk. If I don’t I won’t be upset about it because according to my Boot Camp schedule this is a “rest” day. Good luck, to all!~ Hope

I’m back

Please excuse my small hiatus. Apparently, I had a small relapse and am now back. I wanted to get steady on my feet before returning and posting. It was a small battle I had to fight myself and sharing it could have caused me to take longer to bounce back. But here I am! I feel good and nervous at the same time but I’m eager to go forward and see where I go.

 

What I haven’t recorded on this blog was that I was on a weight loss regime about three years ago and was becoming healthy quite fast. I felt great and was doing great. I don’t remember the exact amount I lost at that time but I started to look great! After and even partly during my “stumble” I started to remember how it felt being that healthy. I’ve been thinking about that a lot lately. I decided to go back to the regime and see if I can start again and stick to it this time.

 

So, what I’m doing is the Billy Blanks Boot Camp workout series and am following his food plan and workout plan. I’ve also started taking Alli, which is a bit nerve wracking. I’m sure you’ve all heard about the possible side effects with Alli and quite frankly with all I’ve read it is quite concerning. I’ve taken some precautions to help if I do in fact end up experiencing them but nothing has happened so far. One step at a time I suppose.

 

Here is my F/E for today:

 

Breakfast: 2 eggbeater “eggs” scrambled with 1 cup of spinach, 3 mushrooms, and ¼ cup chopped onion (this was supposed to be an omelet but I just cooked it all together). ½ cup of sliced peaches

Snack: 1 stick of mozzarella string cheese and 1 cup of sliced cantaloupe

Lunch: Grilled chicken salad – spinach, lettuce, shredded cheese, cucumbers, mushrooms, chicken, and 2tbsp of ranch dressing

Exercise: 30min. walk

Snack: 1 apple and 1 tbsp of Peanut butter

Exercise: Basic Training Boot Camp Workout – 50mins. and a quick walk to the grocery store to pick up two small things so I’ll count that as a 20min. walk

Dinner: chicken parmesan: chicken, mozzarella cheese, sauce –baked and a mixed green salad with 1 tbsp of ranch dressing

 

I actually started this regime on Monday (with the exercise not so much the food) here is my F/E for Monday and Tuesday:

 

Monday

Breakfast – breakfast burrito

Snack - ?

Lunch – Lean cuisine chicken and noodle meal

Exercise: 30min. walk

Snack – rice cake delights

Exercise: Basic Training Boot Camp Workout – 50mins.

Dinner: rice, chicken, and string beans

Dessert: smart ones dessert

 

Tuesday

Breakfast: 1 cup of plain oatmeal and ½ cup of mixed berries with a dash of sugar

Snack: ¾ cup of cottage cheese with ¼ cup of chopped celery and cucumber

Lunch: Whole wheat pita, with turkey, avocado, onion, and lettuce (no more avocado, yick!) and 1 orange

Exercise: 30min. walk

Snack: 4oz. of chicken and 2tbsp of ranch dressing for dipping

Exercise: 30min. walk

Dinner: Turkey burger smothered in mushrooms and onions, 1 cup of green beans, and a small mixed green salad with 1tbsp of ranch dressing

 

Here’s to a new start with an old habit!
~ Hope

I don’t know how to fight it

**WARNING: This post will be blunt without the sugar coating words. Read with caution!****

Since I’ve reached my 20’s I’ve noticed that my PMS has gotten ten times worse. I tend to have at least a week of cravings and depression then in the second week I get the sore boobs and finally my period comes.  Then I’m stuck with those symptoms for the full six days of my period. I don’t know how to handle this. I miss the old days when I’d get back cramps and then it would come. That was it, none of this extra torture before it arrives.

Of course, since I feel so bad I end up comforting myself with food and the last thing I want to do is exercise. PLEASE HELP!!! How do YOU deal with this? I feel incredibly helpless when my period comes and feel horrible knowing that I’m putting all the weight that I lost right back on.

Any suggestions would be greatly welcomed!

Desperate for Help,

~ Hope

I think I figured it out

Remember how I said I was “blue” yesterday? Well, I got to thinking about how much I ate last weekend and my sudden depressed mood and it hit me. I think “Tom” is coming for a visit. At least that’s what I hope it is. I’ve been craving chocolate (I don’t eat a lot of chocolate, I don’t care for it much).  I’ve also had this weird craving for nachos, which I don’t normally have. Mix together self esteem issues and despression and it sounds like a date with “Tom”. We’ll see.

I wasn’t in the mood to stick to things yesterday so my F/E log was a bit revised:

Lunch: Left over hoagie

Exercise: walked for 30mins.

Dinner: Nachos, french fries, and chicken nuggets

Exercise: 20min. walk

Dessert: peanutbutter cup ice cream

I will do my best to make a better effort on food and exercises but I make no promises.

F/E Log for today should be:

Exercise: 25min. walk (done!)

Breakfast: cheerios and 1 cup of skim milk

Snack: 1 cup of grapes

Lunch: PB&J sandwich and lowfat vanilla yogurt

Exercise: 30min. walk

Dinner: unknown -it’s a hockey night! I’m going to my guy’s house for dinner and hockey.

Exercise: I’ll probably walk after work tonight while I’m waiting for my guy to come and pick me up.

I hope “Tom” gets here soon. I’m usually tortured with a long and drawn out Pre-”Tom”.

~ Hope

Bad food weekend and feeling blue

This weekend I didn’t do well at all with choosing healthy foods. Half of it was due to not eating for most of the day and then completely indulging when I was able to eat. The other part was due to stress. If I haven’t mentioned this already, I’m an emotional eater. I tried to seek help for this but was told that I, “don’t have a problem.” Apparently “emotional eater” is something society has made up but isn’t a real “problem”. Yeah, well, excuse me while I disagree.

This is me confessing all of the crap I ate this weekend:

Friday night for dinner I had chinese. LOTS of chinese! I ate vegetable lomein, a few bites of sesame chicken with white rice, and three sticks of chick teriyaki.

Saturday I started the day off with a breakfast burrito with sour cream and salsa. I had just one when I was offered two. I didn’t even want the one but I knew it would be quite a while before I was able to eat again that day. Which I was quite right about. I ate that burrito at 9:30am and didn’t eat again until 5:00pm. As one would guess I was starving so I ate a salad, a taco, spanish rice, nachos, and for dessert I had a chocolate chip cookie bar, some chocolate dish that I can’t explain, topped with some vanilla ice cream. Then later on that evening around 9ish I had more nachos.

On Sunday for lunch I had broccoli salad, popcorn chicken, red potatoes, tortallini salad, cheese cubes, a piece of chocolate peanut butter cake and a piece of cheese cake. Then for dinner I had a portion of italian hoagie, nachos, a piece of chocolate mother’s day cake, and a side of apple pie icecream.

It’s crazy all of the stuff I ate but there it is. I’m going to try my best to get back on track today. I did not walk this morning before work because it was raining and because I had a big bag full of food that was left overs from this weekend (Yikes!).

This is my F/E log for this week:

Breakfast: slim fast meal bar

Snack: 1 snack sized box of raisens

Lunch: lean cuisine

Exercise: walk on lunch break

Snack: rice cake

Exercise: I don’t know what but something

Dinner: More left over hoagie

Exercise: walk if it’s not raining

Needless to say, I won’t be looking for a loss this week.

I’m also feeling rather depressed today. I’m not sure why but I hope that this mood passes by soon.

~ Hope

Busy and much needed sleep…

I had my weigh in today and I stayed the same. I’m still at 152.2lbs. Slow and steady wins the race, right?

Yesterday I was so exhausted at work. I still went for a 40min. walk on my lunch break even though it was still raining a bit. However, I decided to cancel my 50min. workout at home in the evening. I had some last minute shopping to do for Mother’s day and I was so tired I couldn’t imagine trying to get everything done. But in place of my workout video I did walk for an hour while I was on the phone with my Dad. So, I wouldn’t call it a complete wash.

I just realized this morning that I still haven’t posted any of my goals. I will try to get something typed up today if not I’ll do it on Monday.

F/E Log for today:

Exercise: 30 minute walk before work

Breakfast: cheerios and 1 cup of skim milk

Snack: 1 cup of grapes

Lunch: PB&J sandwich with lowfat vanilla yogurt

Exercise: 40min. walk

Snack: 1 cheddar cheese activia stick

Exercise: 50min. Tae bo boot camp workout

Dinner: Unknown. It’s a hockey night in town tonight and my guy and I usually eat out or bring something home to eat while watching the game. I’ll be sure to let you know on Monday.

Have a great weekend!
~ Hope

Still hanging in there…

Yesterday I followed my F/E log perfectly. Today I’m off to a rocky start as far as exercise goes. I find that when it is cold or raining I do not want to be outside. So this means that my normal morning/before work walk did not happen. We’ll see what lunch brings us. According to the weather lady it should clear up around lunch time so I’m hoping.

Also, yesterday I had this for dinner: a lean cuisine steak flat bread sandwich and a side of black bean chili and let me say that I am in LOVE! LOL The flat bread sandwich was AMAZING and I’ve always liked the chili. Both of these together made for a filling and tasty dinner. I may repeat it tonight, lol. I also tried a cheese stick from Kraft. I bought these cubed cheese sticks because I love cheese and thought it’d be another good way to get my calcium in. I had one of these after my workout before dinner last night. It definitely hit the spot. I may even eat one of these before working out now just to calm my hunger pangs.

Food/Exercise log for today:

Exercise: none

Breakfast: cheerios and 1 cup of skim milk

Snack: 1 cup of grapes

Lunch: PB&J sandwich with lowfat vanilla yogurt (60 cals.)

Exercise: 40 min. walk (depends on weather)

Snack: 6 cucumber slices

Exercise: 50 min. tae bo boot camp workout

Dinner: possibly another lean cuisine flat bread sandwich and a side of black bean chili

I talk to my Dad every Thursday so I figured if it’s not raining that I’ll walk around the neighborhood while I talk to him.

Tomorrow’s the big weigh in day. I’m eager to find out how I did this week.

~ Hope

Doing good!

Last night I surprised myself by not only doing my 50 min. tae bo boot camp workout but also by walking for 30 minutes to and from the grocery store. YAY ME!

I didn’t realize how much of a small amount was left from dinner on Monday night so I added a smart ones quesadilla and had a smart ones ice cream dessert later.  Overall I’d say it was a successful day yesterday.

Food/exercise log for today:

Exercise: 33 minute walk before work

Breakfast: honey bunches of oats cereal and 1 cup of skim milk

Snack: 1 cup of grapes (YUM)

Lunch: PB&J sandwich and lowfat vanilla yogurt (60 cals.)

Exercise: 30 minute walk

Snack: 6 cucumber slices

Exercise: 50 minutes on my stationary bike

Dinner: smart ones meal

I’m eager for my weigh in day and keep thinking of cheating and weighing myself earlier. But no, I’ll wait for Friday. It’ll be that much better finding out then. The suspence is almost too much! LOL

~ Hope