Never too late to become what you could’ve been

Wow just wow… I feel like I owe my body a serious apology for all these years of eating carbs.
I snuck (yet another) peak at the scale this afternoon. Since cutting out the evil carbs about 6 days ago I have dropped about 9.5 lbs. How freakin unbelievable is that? It took me like 3 and a half weeks of serious calorie counting to lose that same amount earlier this summer.
I am still in a state of disbelief. I’m holding out to see what I clock in at tomorrow morning.
I was worried about achieving my Halloween goal, but I am no longer sweating it.
I know that everyone’s body processes things differently. Guess mine is not such a big fan of the breadbasket….

Not really a question, more like a ponderance I don’t really expect to find an answer to. I know that I lose the most weight when I stick to lean proteins and veggies. On my brief stint on Atkins earlier this year I lost 16 pounds in a matter of a few weeks.
I am currently doing my own modified version of the program. I try to stick to the induction rules except I allow myself more veggies, cream cheese and nuts- so I guess it’s more along the lines of OWL. I have already lost 5 of the measly pounds I regained from the beginning of summer (this is only 4 days in). Before jumping back on the carb counting bandwagon i tried calorie counting for a few weeks. I found two things- firstly the temptation to over indulge was too great and second despite the healthy food I wasn’t losing like I should.
There’s nothing more motivating than seeing the pounds just fly back. Plus with all this protein my appetite is controlled to almost nonexsistent most days. I know that I just need to be careful with my hydration levels- cause this diet totally dried me out last time.
In the back of my mind I do question the longevity of the program- but the way I see it right now I am getting my weight and appetite and cravings back under control with this system. When I get closer to goal, in theory my stomach should be smaller and I should have better self control so I should be able to add some fruits and whole grains back in my diet.
We’ll just play it by ear for now…
In the meantime I am flying towards my first goal

I wish I could say that I have been wonderfully good this week. But then I’d be lying to you lovely ladies. I have been sitting on a fence of uncertainty and giving in to cravings. Hope, however, is not lost. I have been dieting for less than a month and have lost 9 pounds. That’s something to brag about I think.

So I dreaded getting on the scale this morning (just for a midweek check in) but I knew I’d keep spiraling if I didn’t. As it turns out, I am still down for the week and still happily in the 220’s. The past two days- one being a horrible day at work and the other being 4th of July festivities- caused a lot of reckless eating. I am happy to report that I am back on track and none the worse for wear. At this rate I’ll be through the 220’s by summer’s end- slow progress, I know, but steady and I am not yo yoing- so I am one happy camper.
So I guess my scale dread this morning was for naught, let’s just hope that my work dread is also unfounded. I get to work with my least favorite person at the office for 5 hours- just the two of us. Oh goody! I guess she is as good a reason as any to buckle up and start focusing on getting promoted so that I can transfer. I have never had so much trouble getting along with a co-worker- and what really sucks is that I don’t even have a manager to turn to about it right now. Bah!!! Oh well time to kick some ass and start getting it right at the office so i can leave her in the dust (hopefully with her mouth hanging open).

So I am down half a pound since last week. This is actually a huge feat. My bf’s birthday was this past weekend- so there was much drinking and fatty appetizers and cake, there was also baking the cake which meant taste testing and then left over cake and then his mother came and took us to dinner at Olive Garden the day after the party (monday). I managed to just eat slivers of the divine (and sinful) cake and despite my craving for seafood and noodles I just got soup and salad at OG. So all in all I can’t complain about progress this week. I am still in the 220’s and I am not going to sit here and bitch and moan about how it’s going to take me forever to get out of them. Complaining gets you nowhere and ultimately makes you feel like a complete failure.
End of June/ beginning of July are tough times around here. There’s the boyfriends birthday at the end of June, then 4th of July partying, then exactly one week later is my own birthday. It all amounts to about three weeks of eating and drinking heavily. I am sort of looking forward to it all being over. I can see light at the end of tunnel and I am going to get to it unscathed this time.

So I am flexing this morning. I am a woman who enjoys leisurely mornings. I like puttering around, relaxing on the patio and enjoying my mulitple cups of coffee. It just puts me in a better state of mind for the rest of the day.
Of course I didn’t nearly accomplish the multitude of things I should have, but it was my morning and I was going to milk it for all its worth. I have been running around like a madwoman lately- between my demanding job and trying to plan for my boyfriends birthday this upcoming weekend, it’s the big 3-0.
Anyhow I am still plugging away on the diet front. This morning I decided to weigh myself. And for the first time in what felt like eternity I saw the 220’s. Which mean’s I have lost 7 pounds in the last week and a half! I have never been so happy to see that second 2 on the scale. And it felt like new this time around- 230’s felt like such a burden- it felt like this time around was the first time. I don’t know what the change is- I have lost and regained the same 15 pounds all year long. But this time I am not “back” in the 220’s- I am “in” the 220’s and happy to be there.

So I got my flex yesterday. It was unfortunately ruined by the fact that I had a work meeting at 630 that lasted longer than it was supposed to. Not only that, but as one of the newer employees it felt toally pointless for me to be there.
Anyhow, I got to eat my delicious sandwhich. Although I must admit something about dieting- it certainly turns you into “that person” in line. The one who can’t just order straight off the menu, but has to tweak whatever they order. I just keep telling myself that I am worth the hassle. But anywho- I am still here, still plugging away. Today I feel is going to bring with it challenges…. For one I am absolutely craving something savory this morning. But I find myself with no eggs, no nothing… So I am scouring my calorie count book for a reasonable fast food breakfast that will quell my craving without killing my diet. I figure I’ll pick something up and just have to carefully plan my day to allow for it. Just another day in the life of a dieter I suppose….

Well hello ladies…
It is another morning and the start of another day. Let me just say I am not in the mood. Not in dieting terms mind you, just work mostly. I didn’t drink water yesterday and I think thats hurting me this morning. I also have a huge cloud of uncertainty looming over my head which just makes things difficult. I am praying to the gods that I only have to work a half day today. But my flex day this week is unclear- all I can say is keep your finger crossed for me. My head feels like its on the verge of headache which is always unpleasant and I definately need to find something to eat this morning. Anyhow I guess the best I can do for the time being is to plan ahead. I’ll whip up a turkey wrap in case I have to stay all day and if not then I get to eat a delicous sandwhich with my girlfriend from the greatest sandwhich place in the world. I, of course am hoping for the latter……

So I was away from my desk for most of the day today. This spelled bad news for me- I was away from my stash of almonds and pumpkin flax seed bars. So by the time it was 4 oclock I was ravenous. I have learned from this experience- 1- I should keep something like a granola bar in my purse and 2- toast with peanutbutter is not a filling breakfast at all (at least for me). I was also starving by lunch (busy morning) and had to force myself to slow down eating and enjoy my food, which when I actually did I found it was delicious ( I made a wrap of turkey, lettuce and cheese). Unfortunately I couldn’t manage the same thing when I got home- I scarfed my dinner down. I guess the victory for this meal was resisting the urge to swing by and grab fast food on the way home as I was starving and stuck in traffic. I came home and made a dinner filled with lots of veggies instead.
Despite the hunger I feel good about today. Another day of positive steps.

So I am here once again. I’d like to think I’ve learned a lot from this past year in dieting adventures, but I am not 100% sure that I have….
Anyhow, here we are- back at day one. I am not saddened or disappointed in having to start all over again, nor do I have the new diet excitement. It’s just me plodding along. But that’s real life isn’t, that’s sustainable. I have eaten breakfast- a light yogurt and too much coffee, my lunch is packed away in the fridge ( a turkey salad and baggy of cherries) and I am ready for the day. I bought some frozen grilled fish for dinner, it’s definately something I dont get to eat too often because the boy hates seafood. I hope it doesnt taste or smell too bad when I cook it. I also have half a bag of stirfy veggies I think I’ll cook up with a little soy sauce. Now I just need to figure out a couple of snacks, because that’s not bearly enough calories for the day….
So there ya go. One day planned for. One day taking steps forward. One day making the right choices. One day less keeping me overweight.