I seem to be hiding from my diet/exercise thing. Last Friday, I opted for the pizza and declared that I would be back on track the next day. But in reality, I have found myself getting sucked into old bad habits like taking bites of stuff here and there and not counting stuff and slacking on exercise. I haven’t done a normal morning weigh, but I weighed mid day today and it was 150! So I have probably gained at least two pounds. And that really has been a wake up call too. It is hard to face the cold hard fact that maintaining my weight will most likely require that I am always on a diet because I suppose I STILL don’t have the self control that I need to just eat the right amount without all of this stupid counting.
This whole cold weather thing has a huge impact. I don’t want to go run. I want to cozy up in a blanket and eat soup. I don’t want to drink enough water because I am not wild about lukewarm water, and cold water makes me just that much colder. So it is obvious that transitioning into winter is not just a given. It is going to take some work to keep myself on track. I don’t really have a plan of attack yet. I know that one thing I need to do is get the right running clothes. I need one of those headbands to keep my ears warm. I need gloves. And I need full length running pants.
I have booked a cruise for my sister, my mom and I for January. I would love to get on that boat feeling really fit and healthy. I can’t let winter derail me and end up getting on that ship having eaten 20 pounds back onto my body. I already plan on gaining weight the week we are on the cruise. So I need to be 140 when I step on board and I need to be ready to make the sacrifices once I get back to undo the damage. Of course, if it is anything like when I went 13 years ago, I will be puking my guts out every time the ship is in motion. 
Breakfast was steel cut oats (1 cup) with 2t brown sugar and some cinnamon. Had a promise activ after that. Lunch was a toasted waffle, 1T peanut butter, 1/2 ff cottage cheese and 1.2 cups of kale with vinegar. Dinner will be Wild Rice and Mushroom Soup with Chicken. This was in this month’s Cooking Light, so this is a new one. With it, we will have that salad with the strawberries/mandarin oranges/cranberries and sugared pecans and balsamic vinaigrette. And some multigrain bread. Calories will be 1,309. Fiber: 25. Saturated fat: 4.6
Haven’t run today, of course. It is 44° and bound to be colder by the time hubby gets home. Thing is, I KNOW I am fine once I get out there. It is just that first step out the door that is such a shock to my system. I am such a wuss these days.
