I don’t think I have ever NOT wanted to run as badly as I did this morning. Oh my gosh. I delayed on every little detail. Put my shoes on. Sat. Tied them. Sat. Filled up water bottle. Stood in the kitchen and stared. Grumbling to myself the whole time. Then I drove up there and sat in the van, ready to just turn around and go back home. It was a battle of the wills between my “you need this” self and my slacker self. Finally, after I got started, I was able to beat down my slacker self and run my four miles. Then I walked a mile. Considering how slow I was today, though, you would think that I took a little nap somewhere along the way. 
My son’s birthday is tomorrow. I asked him what he wanted for lunch and he wants hot dogs. I really like hot dogs a lot, but I can’t eat that. It would go way over my lunch calories that I normally eat. So I will have my normal lunch, saving my fruit for when everyone else is eating the ice cream cake. I am just not at a place right now where I can give in. I messed up too much earlier this week for that.
I have made myself another ten days page. I am fighting a huge appetite these days as well as some “effitt-itude”, so I am hoping that having that summary to look at will help me stay on track.
Breakfast and lunch were the norm. Fruit of the day, pineapple. Dinner will be fish tacos, ff refried beans, baked tortilla chips and 2T of some sort of processed nacho cheese stuff. Calories will be 1,218 and saturated fat is well below my limit. Salt is going over by 500 mg, though.
Oh, and the creepy food companies— I have NEVER heard of that! That is outrageous!
