I had this little goal in mind. I wanted to keep shaving a few seconds off of my 5k time. Figured that a few seconds each time was realistic and it would eventually over time add up to some nice improvement. Well, so much for that. My time was 36:03 today. Oh well. That is what over eating and under sleeping will do to a person, apparently. I need back on track with my food NOW. Today. No more dillydallying around.
I know what one of my problems is. If I am eating less than 1,400 calories a day and I am exercising and I STILL don’t lose weight even over the course of a week or more then I get ticked off. I figure that there is no point in depriving myself if it isn’t going to do any good anyway. I may as well enjoy it. So I eat. And I eat more. Then some more. I had a toasted cheese and tomato sandwich with mayonnaise last night at like 10:30. That used to be a summertime tradition for me. It is a comfort food. And it was real comforting for the couple minutes that it lasted. But after that I visualized the moment. There is a moment shortly after I wake up every morning before I even get out of bed when I automatically think about whether I did well the day before or not. I knew last night that my moment this morning was not going to start my day off well. I need to focus on that for tomorrow. It has been days since I have been able to wake up to good thoughts about how I am doing with my eating. I want tomorrow to be different. Tomorrow, I want to wake up knowing that I have one day of being good behind me and know that I have the chance to make it two.
Breakfast was the norm. Lunch will be the norm and the fruit of the day will be blueberries or maybe a kiwi if they are ripe enough yet. Dinner will be Herbed Chicken Breasts with Tomatillo Salsa and Queso Fresco. This is really good. I always use my electric griddle for cooking the chicken because I cook for six. Makes it so much easier because it is a nice even heat over a big surface. I may use panko for the breading because I don’t have white bread. THERE WILL BE NO EATING AFTER DINNER TONIGHT. There it is. It is out there. Now I just have to figure out what to do to make sure that I don’t slip into the same old traps.
One little highlight of my day - I was bent over digging through a laundry basket this morning while getting the kids ready for school and my daughter said with a big grin “I can see your muscles in the back of your legs”. She thinks that is pretty cool and I think it is pretty cool that she thinks that is pretty cool. 
***Today is about the third or fourth day of replacing my lunch time Diet Dr. Pepper with water. Since I have two glasses a day, that is cutting my DDP consumption in half. Not sure if I can ever cut it out totally. I love me some DDP with dinner.
Ok. 6:00 pm. Still promising myself that I WILL wake up tomorrow feeling good about today. I am going light on calories since I went way over yesterday (way over). Calories are 1,012 and I feel pretty determined for them to stay that way. By this time yesterday, I was already getting the munchies.
