I was digging into my fall/winter clothes for some jeans and pulled out a pair of size 14. Ok, usually if they are “mom jeans” (SNL fans know what I mean) that come up around the waist I have to have a bigger size than usual because of my huge hunking waist size. Then the rear ends up too big because the flatness of said rear is a cruel freak of nature. So anyway, point is that I reached into the pocket of these jeans and there was an old washed up store list. Which means that I had these jeans on in the spring. Which further confirms the fact that I HAVE MADE NO STINKING PROGRESS ALL SUMMER!!! I mean, yeah, a few pounds maybe. But nothing very measurable.
Progress was made in running, though. So it was not a total wash. I can just see that these last 10-15 pounds are going to be a B*TCH!!!
So we leave for the wedding today. My 83 year old uncle’s wedding. That one. Tonight we will eat at O’Charley’s and I have scoped out my options and will be having the California Chicken Salad. The weekend makes me nervous though because I get very Rainman about breakfast and lunch and I won’t have my normal breakfast and lunch until Monday. Yikes. If I can’t lose weight being as careful as I am at HOME, it sure isn’t going to happen over the weekend. 
I am getting really frustrated. I want to be DONE with having to lose weight. I want my only focus to have to be maintaining and working on my fitness. I am sick of the fat. I had to try to shop for a dress to wear to the wedding and it was just not good. For one thing, I friggin’ HATE dresses. Then I was stupid enough to try on a sweater dress. WTF!? What? Was I in the mood for a little self loathing or what? Sheesh.
The good news is that 90210 starts next week. There I said it. It is out. I do indeed plan on watching 90210. And I am quite excited that Kelly is back, as well as Brenda. I am very disappointed that there has been no mention of David, because he was getting pretty hot there at the end of old 90210.
Have a great long weekend, peeps.
