I am forever in awe of what exactly our minds can do to us without us really even being a willing participant. My almost 9 year old declared that she could not go back to school. This has been an ongoing saga for the past week and a half or so. It really is too long of a story to bother with the details here, so I will just sum it up by saying that she was a happy, good student who loved school. Then one day she puked. And now she has clicked into something I can’t really describe other than to say it is like a panic/anxiety attack. She is scared that she is going to get sick again. Her solution to this? Homeschool. I know it is anxiety because she is not logical. She is willing to give up everything she loves because she is overcome with this fear. Then, after we talk her down off the ledge…she is ok for hours. Then that look will come back across her face and she is clearly freaking out about it again. (We have covered all the bases and from what we can tell, nothing else happened to her thank goodness).
I don’t want to put my exercise issues on the same level as the issues that my daughter is having. It is nowhere in comparison, but the common thread that I see is how our minds can make us do crazy things. My mind has told me that I am still that pathetic PE class reject. The last kid picked for kick ball. Bigprof’s post about overcoming her psychological barriers came at just the right time. I don’t know about her, but my legs listen to my crazy brain and they buy into all it has to say. What is it that people used to say? Talking smack? Yeah. My brain talks some serious smack about my legs. AND MY LEGS LISTEN!
Speaking of my legs though, no pain today. I am looking forward to getting another week two behind me.
Speaking of C25k, when I was googling a website came up that linked to a store that sells shirts that have a logo that says “On My Way… From Couch to 5k” with a couch potato on it. I don’t think that anyone profits from it, I think some people basically made it so that they could have one themselves (it is a cafepress link). This is FYI only. Some people enjoy the shirt kind of thing…you know, been there done that bought the shirt. So anyway…
Kroger has had cherries on sale this week for $2.99 a pound. A nice healthy indulgence. Something in cherries does all kinds of great things for lab rats, you know. What more could I ask for? And a cup is 87 calories.
Dinner tonight was gnocchi with turkey ragù. It is from Cooking Light, so the link provides all the nutrition info. This is very kid friendly and also very quick and easy. If you are wondering what to do with your leftover wine and you aren’t a wine drinker, you can pour it into an ice cube tray and freeze it. This is approved by various tv personalities, but naturally it would make some foodies cringe. Personally, I freeze the stuff.
I am having a hard time getting a mental image of myself being thinner. I honestly don’t even remember the time that I spent in the 160’s. I guess it was about 10-11 years ago and apparently I puffed up through the 160’s in a complete rebellious denial because I have no recollection of it at all! I don’t know how to fight to get back there because I don’t even remember being there in the first place! So I feel like I have this goal, but yet I have a blindfold on and I have no idea where I am really going. I hope that pounds 160-169 are located in my BELLY. I need to get on it so that I can find out!
Edited Wednesday morning: my daughter is at school. Fingers crossed that she stays there. She was in very good spirits this morning, so maybe we are working past this (hoping, hoping, hoping). Hopefully, I am on my way to drop off the exchange student at her bus stop and head to the track.
