Ohhh, I feel it coming. It is almost 7:30. The kids will be in bed before too long. Exchange student is out with friends. Husband is at a conference. It is shaping up to be a binge kind of evening. Yikes. I have some room in my calories for some more food, but the couple of times that I have messed up I have gone straight for the high fat foods that I make myself avoid at all other times such as cheese and ritz crackers, pringles or pepperoni.
I am trying to figure out how to get past this frame of mind without giving in. I have tried to think of things that might remind me how important it is that I don’t slip up. I have considered my appointment next week, how I really am having to work to get through the 170’s, how I am always always just one bad binge away from turning back to my old lifestyle. But none of that seems to have a strong enough effect when I get like this. I just need to watch a movie and go to bed. That is the best way to work through this danger zone of 8-10 o’clock.
I really wish I had a treadmill. I really want to work up to being able to jog/run for longer than I can now. I would like to work up to the first week of C25k and I feel like working on that would keep me from getting bored…the boredom that is leading to the temptation to eat 500 calories worth of fat right before bed time.
The kids and I tried a new trail/path today. I really liked it. The people I encountered were friendly, the scenery was beautiful and I also had a “duh” moment. Not being a round track, there is plenty of opportunity to attempt to run without an audience. I know that realistically, people at tracks are not exactly taking note of jogging/walking ratios of fellow track goers. But I still get intimidated. This was the perfect environment to work on longer periods of jogging which I did a little today. It is a very inviting place - it is in a natural area that goes through fields and woods and down the side of a pond and stream. Sort of like a metrosexual version of nature. The nature is there, but it is very well groomed and planned out with a man made pond and bird houses and carefully placed trees planted in addition to the natural woods and stream.
So anyway, thinking back to that place and the idea of going back there to work on running *could* help me get through this binge danger zone. Maybe I should look for a good pair of shoes to wear up there. Maybe seeing those and all of the fit, healthy looking people on those websites will help.
