What a wonderful day it is so far today! There is this famous little writing about a person talking to God saying how it is a perfect day, they have not sinned, not made any mistakes, and have done great. Then they say “I am getting out of bed now Lord.” (laughing) I want to start having a more positive outlook on my days. I have been complaining far too much as of late and i feel the urge to do it again! deeeeeeeeeep breath!
let it out
ahhhhh
better!
I am still at 216.4. However I expected this. I figure my pattern is to loose a few pounds then stay at the same weight for a week . Then the process starts all over again. I kind of like that. I know what to expect.
Well off to see Mr. Treadmill toodles!
Posted on July 25th, 2008 by findingjoy
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RubyJean wrote me this wonderful little note and she put a great idea into my head. I would LOVE to hear ideas from all you chicklets on how you feed your family in a healthy way but here is the clincher as cheaply as you can. I would love some ideas. Ruby posted hers on a comment and it is a great idea. I would LOVE to see some more. I will even post one here. In autum/winter I like to make chili. I make it with one small package of lean ground turkey, one large onion, one green pepper, one large can diced tomaotes, one can Rotel, 4 cans chili beans, 2 cans any other bean, oh and generic grated cheese -which stretches for other meals as well . I serve the chili over pasta or rice or with homeade cornbread. I make a double batch so I cook once and we eat twice. Beans are cheap. (My one sone is allergic to them so I use the pasta or rice with the meal and I mix in some meat and tomatoes NO beans and thats his dinner-he loves this)
I was reading this cookbook written by none other than Jerry Seinfelds (sp?) wife. It is geared towards families with children who eat normal aka (picky eaters). She had some GREAT ideas. She makes fruit and vegtable puree and freezes them to sneak into foods. I have tried this idea with spagetti sauce (sguash puree, with monced carrots). ~~~~~I have tried it with meatloaf (apple puree, sweet potatoe puree , I also mince in onion, carrots, and add flax seed powder), ~~~~~brownies (prune puree in place of one egg-they have no idea!).~~~~~ I have done this with cassaroles, cookies, and cakes as well. ~~~~~Spiced carrot cake (add carrots, raisens, sweet potatoe puree, squash puree, apple puree, and a few tablespoons of flax seed. I also sub one cup of wheat flour for white flour. ) My kids do NOT know the difference and they are PICKY!
Oops I forgot to say I just use generic JAR BABY FOOD instead of making my own puree (am I spelling this wrong?). It is way easier and way cheaper!
What are your ideas for cheap, healthy meals?
toodles!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1:20 p.m
Man alive I am pooped!
I did my 40 minute workout. I will not lift weights until I can buy gloves to protect my skin (C.D). I did a tad of housework, did Math & English with DS (9). I also did some flashcards (sign) with DS (2). I was able to start a packing list and the menu for when we go on vacation. Making a list for 3 kids and myself is quite a feat. DH can do his own! 
Now I am finished and tired! I still have to eat as of yet today. DH has been reminding me to eat for my diabetes. (I get busy and skip breakfast a lot, which could be dangerous ) I really have to try better. Thats all for now.
Toodles
Posted on July 24th, 2008 by findingjoy
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Well I weighed myself this morning and I gained 4 ounces. Gasp! LOL Just kidding. Small changes like this just do not bother me. It is life. I realized that I am NOT going to make number goals anymore. I am going to stick with things eating healthy , eating proper portions, the treadmill, weights etc…… I will loose what I loose! I am just along for the ride. I will get to my destination when I am supposed to. I suddenly realized that I was saying this was a journey however I was not really living it. This is for the rest of my life not just to loose a few pounds. As long as I am sticking with things it WILL come off all in its own good time. Lets face it chicklets we did not put the weight on by a schedule right?????
Toodles
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 12:30
You are right Sistah Patty. I am in the drivers seat.
I guess it used to be all about the pound loss for me. It has changed into something much more. It is about my health, a longer life, taking control back over food, feeling good and looking good. I have spent so many years stuffing down feelings, fears, anger, loneliness, and boredom with food that I forgot what it is like to really FEEL. Now that I have stopped eating to muffle these emotions I am really feeling them for the first time in years. It is kind of scary but it is real and I have to learn to DEAL with it and not run anymore. It was so much easier to deal with feeling like a fat failure than facing all of my emotional baggage crap from my life and my past. Now here it is right in my face and I say “bring it on! Nothing will surprise me from my own life! I can handle this, deal with it, and move on and heal”. (After all with GOD all things are possible) Okay enough with the deep, deep stuff.
My C.D is almost gone. I am so thrilled to not feel like one big allergic reaction! LOL I am so happy about this. I got my teaching finished for the day (DS 9 yr. old), I got flashcard time with my toddler finished, I fed the kids, got DS -toddler down for a nap, ran the sweeper, finished 2 loads of wash. Wooohooo I am done done done done! Happy girl here! Plus it is PAYDAY! woohoo! To top it all off it is 76* F and it feels so nice tbe comfy for once in temp. It is a good day, no it is a GREAT day!
Toodles!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:50 p.m.
It never ceases to amaze me how much money we drop on paydays. We filled up the tank on our van ($70). Hubby still has to fill up the tank on his suv.
sigh
:(
We bought food and diapers ($200)!!!!! This is for two weeks and we always have to get more soy milk, cows milk, and bread. OMgoodness! These prices have to stop going up! Lean pork loin was on sale so I did pick up one of those. I am looking forward to making it (I have a bourbon apple recipe for it. YUMMO) I should just be grateful that DH has a good job, we have a roof over our heads, and we have enough money to buy food and pay our bills. There I am grateful again
toodles!
Posted on July 23rd, 2008 by findingjoy
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I am not sure if I am the only one this happens to or not. I every once in a while will have these ‘food ‘ dreams. In the dream it could be anywhere, anytime, anyone being in the dream is not significant. I go off my healthy eating plan BIG time in the dreams. Then I wake up later and I am in a panic until “I realize it was only a dream.” Does this happen to any of you since you have been trying to loose weight?
I have to admit I am petrified to have a bad meal lest it turn into a bad day~bad week~bad month~ I am right where I started. I know that I have to work through this in a HEALTHY manner. I know deep inside that if I eat off plan for one meal I wont wake up and have gained it ALL back. I have to work on having a healthier perspective about food. I would like to be able to look at it as a form of fuel for my body and that is it. However for me culterally (as most of us are) I was raised with food being a the main focus in most times of life.
Your sick, have some chicken soup
Your birthday- cake and ice cream
Christmas- BIG time cookie, cake, pie , candy frenzy with big meals thrown in
Thanksgiving- no need for explanation
Easter- eggs, candy, ham etc…..
etc…………..
Do you see what I mean? If I was misbehaving as a child I got punished go to bed without dinner/dessert etc…… (it was that day and age). I am trying to undo a lifetime of conditioning. It is NOT my parents fault. Afterall they were just living the same way as most people in this day and age. My mom’s mom was from the depression and so my mom was raised that you eat what your given and be thankful for it period. Food was a way to express love in my mom’s childhood days and she in turn did that for us. Again , NOW I realize this was just the way she knew how to express her feelings (through food) because that is how she was conditioned. I am trying to change that for me, for my kids……. I want to show them I love them with words, actions, and my devotion to them as their mom. I dont want to confuse them by making them think food is love (or for that matter toys, games, more , more, more is love) It is NOT it is only stuff.
I am reading this really good book that my dear sister in the Lord/friend/aunt sent to me a few weeks ago. I am only in the begining however this book is GREAT! It is written by John Rosemond and it is called Parenting by THE BOOK. It is a parenting book to beat all parenting books. He is a psychologist! However he is (with a small group of other doctors) realizing that the so called DOCTORS have ruined a few generations of children. It shows an approach to raising your children that is back to basics, the way parenting used to be before people used therapy, and phsyco babble to raise their kids. It is simple, basic, common sense and it happens to be biblical. The author was not raised to be a christian and was lost himself in all of the lies of his very own profession until he had a epiphany an something clicked, I wont go on anymore. IT IS GOOD! (((((Just wanted to add this disclaimer in here. I know that there are a few children out there whom truly need therapy for issues of real mental illness. I also know that there are a few children {not the hundreds of thousands overdiagnosed} with ADHD or ADD. For these very few the author see’s a true need and value for help.))))))
I am down to 216 flat!!!!!! I am so thrilled. I know that I will hit a long flatland soon of no weight loss but that is okay and to be expected. I think Sistah Pat has the right idea. I should not really set any firm weekly goal but more longterm ones that are forgiving to ups and downs to weight loss. My goal should be to stick with it 99% (I am human and not perfect), exercise and just go for the ride. I will get to my destination . I will enjoy the ride more if I do NOT focus on reaching weight destinations every week. Like a long trip just enjoy the ride!
Toodles!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~10:00 a.m.
Well I am done with feeding kids breakfast, dishes, changing toddler (boy will I be glad when he is POTTY trained!), ran the sweeper, did a load of wash, did flash cards with toddler, worked on sign lang. with toddler, did some English and math with DS. I have got to hop over to the web and see what I can find to help him GET the concept of division. Maybe I can find some manipulative ideas for this….. sorry I digress. i am going to search while I can.
Toodles
Posted on July 22nd, 2008 by findingjoy
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These are some fun foods you can make at home for kids parties, company, or just if you are in the mood for carnival food yet waist friendly.
~J
Chicken Philly (4 servings at 6 points each)
Ingredients
- 1 Tbsp vegetable oil
- 1 medium onion(s), thinly sliced
- 1 pound uncooked boneless, skinless chicken breast, pounded, cut into strips
- 1/2 medium sweet red pepper(s), thinly sliced
- 1/2 tsp table salt
- 1/8 tsp black pepper
- 4 roll reduced-calorie hot dog bun(s)
- 4 slice Borden 2% Singles Reduced-Fat Pasteurized American Cheese Food, or other brand
Instructions
- In a medium nonstick skillet, heat oil over medium-high heat. Saute onion until browned and very soft, about 10 minutes. Add chicken and pepper and saute until chicken is golden brown and cooked through, about to 5 to 8 minutes; season to taste with salt and pepper.
- Toast buns; spoon chicken mixture down center of each one. Place a slice of cheese in each bun and and close bun to help cheese melt slightly. Yields 1 cheese steak per serving.
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Banana chocolate chip waffle treat (serves 4 at 5 points each with high fiber waffle/6 points w/ reggular waffle)
Ingredients
- 1 cup part-skim ricotta cheese
- 2 Tbsp sugar
- 1/4 tsp vanilla extract
- 2 small banana(s), peeled and diced
- 2 Tbsp mini chocolate chips
- 4 medium low-fat frozen waffle(s)
Instructions
- Stir together ricotta, sugar, vanilla, bananas and chocolate chips in a medium bowl; set aside. (Note: The filling can be prepared in advance, refrigerated and then stuffed into the cones right before serving.)
- Toast waffles. Immediately spoon 3/4 cup of cheese mixture over each waffle. Roll into a cone shape and serve immediately. (Note: The cones will stay together when held in your hand or you can place them in dessert cups.) Yields 1 filled waffle per serving.
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Cheesy fries ( serves 4 at 6 points each)
Ingredients
- 1 sprays olive oil cooking spray
- 2 large potato(es), Idaho, peeled and cut into 1/2-inch-thick strips
- 1/8 tsp table salt, or to taste
- 1/8 tsp black pepper, or to taste
- 2 oz low-fat cheddar or colby cheese, about 1/2 cup
Instructions
- Preheat oven to 400ºF. Coat a large baking sheet with cooking spray.
- Arrange potatoes on prepared baking sheet and season to taste with salt and pepper. Bake 20 minutes and then flip fries and cook for an additional 20 minutes untl golden brown and fork tender. Cluster potatoes together on baking sheet and sprinkle with cheese. Bake until cheese melts, about 5 minutes more.
Chef Tips
- We renovated Cheese Fries by:
- Baking instead of deep frying potatoes.
- Using reduced-fat cheese instead of the full-fat variety.
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Nacho’s Grande (4 servings at 6 points each if you use low fat refried beans)
- 4 oz baked low-fat tortilla chips
- 9 oz fat-free canned refried beans
- 1 cup shredded reduced-fat Mexican-style cheese
- 1 cup salsa
- 1/2 cup guacamole
Instructions
- Preheat oven to 350°F.
- Place chips closely together on a nonstick baking sheet. Top with beans, cheese and salsa.
- Heat until cheese melts, about 10 minutes. Serve with dollops of guacamole. Yields about 12 chips per serving.
Chef Tips
- We renovated Nachos Grande by:
- Swapping low-fat tortilla chips for full-fat tortilla chips.
- Replacing stir-fried ground beef with fat-free and fiber-rich refried beans.
- Using reduced-fat Mexican Cheese instead of Monterey Jack cheese.
- Reducing the amount of guacamole and omitting the sour cream.
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Corn Dogs ( 8 servings at 5 points each)
Ingredients
- 1 sprays cooking spray
- 11 1/2 oz Pillsbury Cornbread Twist(s), or other brand
- 8 tsp mustard, spicy, brown
- 8 average fat-free beef and pork hot dog(s)
- 2 large egg white(s), whisked
- 1/3 cup seasoned bread crumbs
Instructions
- Preheat oven to 375ºF. Coat a large baking sheet with cooking spray.
- Unroll cornbread twists and separate into 8 equal pieces using dough perforations as a guide (each of the 8 pieces will contain 2 cornbread twists). Pinch together the existing perforations between twists to make 8 solid pieces. Roll each piece into a 4- X 5-inch rectangle.
- Spread 1 teaspoon of mustard on each rectangle. Place hot dogs on rectangles, roll up and pinch the ends in to seal.
- Place egg whites and bread crumbs in separate shallow dishes. Roll corn dogs first in egg whites, then in bread crumbs, turning to coat. Transfer corn dogs to prepared baking sheet. Bake until golden brown, about 25 minutes.
Chef Tips
- We Renovated Corn Dogs by:
- Coating the corn dogs with egg whites and bread crumbs for a POINTS-friendly crisp texture.
- Using fat-free hot dogs instead of the regular variety.
- Baking instead of deep frying.
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Pretzels (serves 2 at 2 points each)
Ingredients
- 1 oz caramel candies, soft, about 4 squares
- 2 items pretzel rods
- 1 Tbsp sprinkles, chocolate
Instructions
- Put caramel squares in a glass bowl and microwave on high for 10 seconds. Remove and stir. Repeat until caramel is melted. Or melt caramel squares in a saucepan over very low heat, stirring constantly.
- Dip 1/3 of each pretzel rod into caramel, then roll in sprinkles. Place on wax paper and allow to harden for 5 minutes before eating.
Posted on July 21st, 2008 by findingjoy
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Well good morning all. I am so glad today is a brand new day for yesterday was the mother of all horrid days. 
I have much higher hopes for today.
I am hoping that when I weigh myself (after cycle is done) that I show a pretty good loss. I ate waaaaaaay under my points yesterday.
My C.D (contact Derm.) is much , much, much better this morning. I have some tell tale signs on my arms and legs, as well as some left on my feet and hands but other than that I am doing much better.
Well I have a meeting with the Mr. today. mr.Treadmill that is. So I shall return later to tell you about the day. Let us hope it is much better than Sunday.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 8 a.m.
You know Mr. Murphey? Not the oil soap guy but the one who created MURPHEY’S LAW? Well I would like to bop him right in the nose for making that law (it would be a MAN who created that law!) I am determined that Mr. Murphey can stuff that law right up his nose! I had to get off of the treadmill 3 times to tend to my toddler who woke up with pain in his mouth again. When is the heck is a child finished with teething??? he is TWO! I know it is NOT his fault. I am not really mad at him only Mr. Murphey especially after the third stinking time I had to get off. I finally gave up. took a shower and weighed myself. You would think i would not be stupid enough to do that on Mr. Murpheys day. Well Mr. Murphey you can stuff it because i am down to 216.6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy dance!!!!
Better mood!
Bye bye Mr. Murphey!!!!!!
Talk to ya’all later chicklets!
(Oh and if Mr.Murphey comes a knocking at your door , give him the boot right away!)
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 5 p.m.
I had such a great day! DH took the boys to see “Journey to the Center of the Earth”. They loved it. I went into a joint theatre and say “Hancock”. Not exactly what I pictured, not my type of film, it was okay. However I was OVERJOYED to be ALONE AGAIN! No DK, no DH, alllllllllll alone. It was GREAT! The theatres of course have nothing that is good for a person who has diabetes or is trying to loose weight. So what do I do? I sneak in my food. As far as i know I am not breaking any laws (only theatre policy) and if they want me to buy their VERY expensive food they need to serve what I can eat! I snuck in a subway turkey on wheat, a small bag of bbq baked lays and I bought theatre sugar free ice tea. LOL What is funny is I am not the only person who did this. You could here crinkles from bags that are distinct in their sound and you know it was brought from home. Maybe they should not charge so ding dang much. I mean you can make a jumbo popcorn (with butter) for maybe 75 cents for a jumbo size and they charge eight freaking dollars!!!!! People just cannot affors this on top of ticket prices! There am I justified now?? Laughing hard!!! LOL I mentioned to DH that we should do this more often.
On the way home we went to the library for our weekly book run. That just brings back such good childhood memories of summertime reading for me.
Well chicklets (again I stold this from Sistah Pat) goodnight!
toodles!
Posted on July 21st, 2008 by findingjoy
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Well I am a happy girl! Most of my polka dotted body is healed or at least faded to such a degree where I do not look like a freak. I do have a new spot on the bottom of my stinking foot of all places. That is where this all started waaaay back in the gensis of this whole C.D. I am barefoot a few hours each morning (in the home) and it is making me wonder if this is the source on my feet? I will soon see. Enough of that.
I did not weigh myself. I know better than to do that while I am on my T.O.M. I will wait till I cycle out and then hope I have lost even more weight. I think it has helped that I have switched desserts for a while. I was eating weight watchers single serve ice cream stuff but that costs sooooo much. So I went and got sugar free jello and a tub of Cool Whip Free (no fat). I am sure the calories are lower even with my eating two (20 calories total) Jello’s. I know as I weight less I have to eat less and make what I eat count.
Well I am off to bake some muffins for the church dinner (after church). I will talk to all of you chicklets (I stold this) later! Toodles!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6 p.m.
Well I am here. Today has been one horrible day. One I just want to put behind me and forget all about it. I am closing the door on this day. SLAM!
I ate well, or rather I should say I did not eat until 5 p.m. today. I had two turkey burgers (light 3 oz.) on a split english muffin. I had a bunch of pickles and carrots and a diet Dr. Pepper. I had two bites of bagel this morning so i could take my pill.
Well I am off for now. The sooner I can go to bed is the sooner I can put today behind me.
toodles
ps Patty I think you might have something there about the floor cleaners. I think I might be allergic to all regualr cleaners. I am going to look into nautral non-toxic stuff. Thanks
Posted on July 20th, 2008 by findingjoy
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Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I started my cycle yesterday which would explain A LOT!!!! This hormonal dance along with the contact Dermatitus is NOT an excuse for my being a royal BITC_. However it does explain a LOT! I am so grateful fo the cycle. Each one I have is one closer to my NOT having to have a peice of my uterus cut out for a biopsy with no pain killers what-so-ever! Thank you so much God!
Now for my second peice of good news. I am down to 217.4!!!! ON MY PERIOD!!!!!!! Wooooooooohooooooooo! Do I sound happy? I am, I am, I am! I am only 17.4 pounds away from being out of the two’s forever! My goal was to be 215 by our vacation to the island in late August. I am so happy that I can set a new goal! Oh I am so grateful and thankful. I know that 215 is a good way into my battle. I know I have a long way to go. However I am breaking it into smaller more tolerable goals. I cannot believe that I am this far in my journey. I have to say that I am so grateful that I could not have “the operation” if I wanted to (because of my history as a bulimic). I put it on and I need to work hard to take it off. This includes
1) facing my bulimia and compulsive eating problems.
2) facing my eating out of lonliness, being bored, anger, fear etc…..
3) eating for my health
4) getting my lazy as_ up and on the treadmill etc…..
Speaking of getting off my tush I am going to see Mr. Treadmill again today. I hope for another 40 minutes. I am not lifting weights until I buy some gloves to wear in case the latex that is coated on the weights is one of my C.D causes.
My C.D is much better today. About 70% of the dots have vanished. The welts are smaller, the blisters are all peeling. Which by the way is REALLY gross looking. I am getting better and that is all that matters. It is funny how i kind of have to be careful about cleaning (I am a complete neat freak and cleaning freak -I so have issues here LOL). The doctor also said that it could be the stinking house itself making me like this (as my 9 year old) is also having problems with eczema since we moved here (for that matter so has my toddler!!!) The place we live in is two old farmhouses put together. The origonal home is over 100 years old and then other they do not even know because it was moved (by horse and cart in 190o something. he said it could also be the pollen from all of the crops around us. There is no way to know without real extensive testing. I DO NOT THINK SO! I do not need 100 scratch tests and umpteen viles of blood taken thank you. Hmmmm will it make me looose more weight??? LOL just kidding.
Today is cleaning day. I HAVE to wear gloves for everything! I am NOT taking any chances of getting the C.D back ever again of i can help it. BLECH!!!! So I will be back. For now Toodles!
Oh and y’all have a simply wonderful day!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1:37 p.m.
I have been in one of “THOSE” moods. The one where I feel the need to get rid of all the old fat clothes, which led to get rid of a ton of stuff for charity to de-clutter my home. My children all HATE these moods I get in. All of their torn, outgrown, stained clothes BYE BYE. All of their really badly broken toys BYE BYE! I always feel lighter on the inside when I do this. Plus it all goes to a good charity.
I am finished with this, and cleaning, and making lunch for the kids, dishes, almost done with laundry, my bible study, baby is down for a nap. then I am done, finished yahoooooo! I am sooooo looking forward to church, rest, relaxing allllll Sunday. (BIG BIG BIG SMILE)
Toodles
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 5:00 p.m.
Good Lord! I was just seeing how I went on and on today. Nothing like heavy doses of antihistamines to make me Miss Chatty Cathy! LOL Sorry ladies, I will keep it a tad less wordy from now on. LOL
toodles (there that is short and sweet)
Posted on July 19th, 2008 by findingjoy
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Well I am more than happy to say that the 30 or so welts on my legs are about all gone. The 20 or so on each arm are about a distant memory. My hands are to the point where I can bend my fingers again. My feet feel like the blisters have gone down more than half of what they were. I think I might try and have a little meeting with mr. Treadmill this morning. I think Ms. Scale has taken pity on me because of the C.D. I am showing another 4 ounce loss and am down to 218.4. This is on superman stregth steroid creme.
Last night we made baked chicken and all of the chicken came out nice excpet the breast (my breast). Let me tell you what , I acted like a BIG toddler with the tantrum I threw. I dumped the chicken and said “I get so little that tastes good and i am not eating the chicken jerkey crap! I am so not wasting my points on food that is less than standard anymore! So I ended up having 1/2 turkey sammy on whole wheat, a small clemintine, 1/2 serving almonds, 1 serving baked chips, and a diet Dr, Pepper. It was good! I am so glad that I had that instead of chicken jerky. Then later I go to the freezer to see 1/2 gallon reg. ice cream and I am all out of my diet ice cream. So I hemmed and hawed once again. sigh (I know real childish). So instead of eating junk I had diet jello with diet cool whip (I forgot I had)
I have been such a major crab since I have had this stupid C.D and have been on these steroids and anti=histamines. I guess this is something I need to work on. You know being a woman who handles things with grace and the dignity of a lady. I need A great deal of work here. LOL
Toodles!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 12:50 p.m.
Well I was able to get on the treadmill for 40 minutes without my feet exploding! LOL It felt so good to burn some energy and some calories.
I have had a few things as of late make me feel REAL good.
1. I sat in a seat in a movie theatre for the first time in over a decade and I ‘fit’ in the seat with ease and lots of room to boot!
2. I am wearing a pair of chino’s that I could barley pull up over my hips three months ago.
3. My 9 year old noticed that I look thinner! LOL that is saying alot.
On a slightly different subject. How many have had this happen? I have had more than one person (all females) tell me when they found out I have lost weight that “they could see it in my face” WHAT????? I did not lose over 40something pounds from my face I am not THAT fat!!!!!!! LOL okay it doesnt really tick me off that much. however the cattyness does just a tiny tad! LOL Toodles!
Posted on July 18th, 2008 by findingjoy
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Wow, this must be why I could not get on last night. They added all kinds of new stuff to our tool bar. This is great!
It even has alpha and Omega (greek letters ) I like those greek signs it has great significance to me as a christian but also as a person who is on a what is to become a lifelong journey to better health, longer life (I hope), putting my disease in remission, getting fit, and let me be honest looking much better. That is the ALPHA of my journey. What is the OMEGA? When I can fit into a size 10? When I can run a marathon? When I can look at chocolate in the Godiva store without drooling all over the mall floor? No, I think that the journey will not end as long as we live. That would put most people off. Not me. I got to this place from a lifetime of pre-set conditioning as a child, a lifetime of using food to cure boredom, stress, illness, anger, fear etc……. That kind of conditioning does not go away overnight. I do not mind as much as I thought I would that this will be with me for the rest of my life. I am starting to like some parts of this journey and the changes within me that it is creating. OKAY enough of this deep stuff!!!!
I went to see “Journey to the Center of the Earth” yesterday. ALL BY MYSELF!!!! NO DH, NO DK. Just me alone, relaxing, not being ON. It was soooooooooooo wonderful! The movie was okay but it seemed just wonderful because I was relaxing for the first time in a looooong time.
The blisters on my feet are just too bad to even consider going on the treadmill for a few more days. I cannot risk busting them open and getting an infection. That would keep me off the treadmill for months. So I see it as wiser to take this week off and be patient and look on the bright side. I get to be on here longer and bore you all to tears.
I am down to 218.8!!!!!!!!!!!!! Even though I have not been on the treadmill for a few days. I am so grateful and thankful. That makes about 44 pounds now. Thank you dear wonderful Lord!
I am still having the itchies from the contact derm. It is much better though on my legs and arms. It is a tad better on my hands and feet. This can be frustrating because these are what I need most. I just need to make the best of this I can. learn from this what I need to learn. trust God for healing and growth (in soul not weight LOL) in all of this and be patient. At first it KILLED me that I could not get on the treadmill. Now I just see it as a short blink of time (a week) and then I will be back on it. You know patience is NOT my strongest suit. LOL
Toodles for now!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 12:45 p.m.
:)
Good afternoon!
I am reading this really good book. It is called Nickel and Dimed by Batbara Ehrenreich. It was on the New York Times Bestseller List. It is about Barb who goes into undercover reporting mode. Except in VERY long terms. She is highly educated having earned a degree from a ivy league school. The premise of the book is can she make it (pay for a place to live, food etc…) on the earnings from a blue collar job (waitress, maid, sales person etc….) All I can say is I am not usually into this kind of book but she really makes you feel like you are ‘there’. It is that good.
I am also getting ready to start my new fiction read for the summer. “The Other Boleyn Girl” it is written by Phillipa Gregory. I saw the movie and was impressed with the story of the mother and Aunt to the famous “Queen Elizabeth” (Kate Blanchet movie one). It is a pretty long book but I hope it is twice as good as the movie (which was really good). Well enough of my book reviews for the day. LOL I need more to do I am going stir crazy with my limitations from the C.D.
Toodles!
Posted on July 17th, 2008 by findingjoy
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