Gotta get it out!

it’s sunday and i haven’t done well this week. this is the first time this week i’ve been able to breathe, much less log in. i went into work for 5.5 hours yesterday giving me a total of 12.5 hours of OT at work this week and i’m exhausted because of it. next week will be the same and probably the next 3 weeks. i’m training 2 new people and when my work load is overloaded as it is, it’s hard to train new employees. the whole time i’m thinking about what’s not getting done and how i’ll have to stay after to do it and what’s coming ‘down the pike’ for the next week and how to handle the work while so-and-so is on vacation or so-and-so is our for 3 days at a conference and….UGH!

this does not include my mother pulling at me to come over and do this and that and take her here and there and my aunt’s upcoming surgery. (mom on the speaker phone right now and she’s talking her head off while i’m trying to have some peace-she calls me at least twice a day.) i need some down time to relax and regroup but it’s not going to happen. i’m going to the grocery once my laundry is done and put away. then i have to take my mom to best buy. oh joy…

last night i went to a friend’s house. we did nothing except watch their baby coo and giggle and sleep-all the normal baby stuff. it was wonderful! i didn’t have to be anywhere, i didn’t have to do anything for anyone. it was quiet-no brain overload. i even napped on the sofa for about an hour. then we played bowling on the WII for a little bit. I NEED MORE OF THAT! LOL!

so exercise…HAHAHAHA! (ahem)…exercise, hhmmm. well, i’ve done what i can here and there, but nothing that’s worth writing about. i’m too tired once i get home to do more than flip the remote and snooze sitting upright until i drag my butt to bed 1-2 hours earlier than my usual. my eating has been 50/50 on the health and portion scale.

like i said, i’m headed to the grocery so i’m gonna stock up on veggies, etc. but it costs sooo much. i swear, you gotta be rich to eat healthy and especially for one. i’m sick of micro-meals. and they have preservatives and other crap in them so how healthy are they really? it is so hard to cook for one without wasting food. once i’ve ate something 2-3 times in a row, i’m done. i’m not good at freezing stuff, cause i’m funny about that. i’m not real crazy about leftovers in general. i think i’m going to make my own subway sandwiches but in a wrap instead. we’ll see how long that lasts…lol!

anyway, sorry for the long rant, but like my blog says…Gotta Get It Out! (here’s to a new week, may it be a little better than the last!)

i just did 30 minutes of cardio again. yah! it kicked my butt a little more than yesterday, which sucks.

it’s partly because the left side of my back has been hurting for days. it feels like i got punched and it is very tender. i suspect it’s either from the arm exercises i did with my bands or the way i sleep. i didn’t do my strength training last night because of it. so i’m not sure if i should try to do some tonight or not. common sense says no, let the muscles rest and recover. fat girl who wants to be skinny and is on a high of 5 lb weight loss sense says, suck it up and do it!

yes, i have lost 5 lbs in the past 2 weeks. yah! i’ve found a new way to be inspired. when i want to eat something bad, especially something high in sodium, i think about how tight my clothes will fit the next day at work and how miserable i will be and have been in the past. i’m sick of being uncomfortable at work.

ok, time to take a shower and pop some ibuprofen. my back is really killing me.

yesterday when i left work, i was soooo tired and needed a beer. so i went to Margarita’s to have a beer and see my friend who works there. i hadn’t ate much for the day (yogurt, LF cheese stick, LF micro-meal) so the beer hit me quick. this is why i decided to eat there. i had a gringo-burger and fries.  it wasn’t as bad as eating the mexican food would have been and they make killer burgers and fries. so that was my dinner. i went home before the bad ice struck and watched tv. i knew there was no way i was going to exercise, i was too tired from my workday.

today, i had my usual 2-3 cups of coffee, several cigs and decided to get off my butt and exercise. i did 30 minutes of cardio. yah! that’s the most i’ve done at one time. i pop a movie in to keep me going once i start. (i’ve watched 3:10 to Yuma each time and i think i’m gonna buy it. great movie to get lost in and forget about the time.) then i did a couple loads of laundry, made breakfast (egg sandwich-2 scrambled eggs, 2 LF cheese slices, 2 slices fiber/wheat toast) and now i’m taking my mom to the grocery with me. i just have to make sure it’s not an all day event. she can spend 4 or more hours wondering around in a store. drives me nuts! i like to get in, get my stuff and get out. i also have to make sure i don’t let her drive me to eat eat eat! mothers have a way of doing that, especially mine.

anyway, i plan to do some strength training later with the bands and whatnot. i’m proud of myself for picking myself back up and following through after a week of nothing. : )

wow! i wanted to talk about my exercise from last night and just realized the last time i worked out was valentine’s day. sheesh, going through my ‘cycle’ has made an impact on my lately. the past few times all i have wanted to do is eat and sleep. i did some of that this time. sunday, my lower back was killing me from cleaning on saturday combined with my cycle on sunday. we had monday off and i didn’t take advantage of it-shame on me!

so anyway, i exercised last night and my lower back is hurting again. that’s what happens when you slack off and i know this. my back should loosen up during the day and tonight i will exercise again. i’ll just take it a little easy-but i will break a sweat…LOL!

keep up the good work ladies and ta ta for now!

today is all about cleaning my house. i have let it go for too long. that will be my exercise, and trust me, it WILL be exercise. i have to do it all. laundry will be today or tomorrow since we are off work. i have a ‘date’ with a co-worker later this evening to throw darts, so i may have to wash something. guess i should go look in my closet to see if i have anything clean. well, i know i have clean clothes, it’s just if i want to wear them…lol!

yesterday i worked out my arms and abs and that’s it. i was too tired to do anything else. i also didn’t wait a day between working the same muscles and i felt it. so like i said, today is kind of a day off by cleaning instead.

so, i guess that’s it for now. buh bye!

is anyone else getting the same spam that i’m getting? whenever i write, the next day there will be a ‘comment’ from some random ‘website’ linking back to my comments or a ‘comment’ from from a gobboldy goop name.

i’m sick of having to go in and delete them. anyway….GGGRR!

so i just finished my exercise for the night. i did squats till my thighs screamed (which by most people’s standards wasn’t much), used my bands to work my arms and wow… i felt it! i did crunches till it felt like needles going through me and then did my stepping and sweating.

i am tired!

i exercised tonight. instead of doing my arms, abs, legs, etc., i did legs and cardio. i stepped up and down till my calves couldn’t take it any more. they weren’t screaming, but they hurt. and i did it longer than i did last night. and i was sweating. so i would say it counts.

thing is, now i’m exhausted, really. so i will take tonight and not complain about what i did not do. i will be happy for what i did.

: )

OK, it’s been a over a week since i’ve written. mainly because i haven’t done any exercise and have been disappointed in myself. the only thing i did this past weekend was my laundry. seriously, my laundry. i washed, dried, folded and put it in a basket. i didn’t hang it up until this morning before i went to work.

you may ask yourself…..why didn’t she do anything?!?!? and i tell you…because i soooooo needed it. after being sick and doing stuff for my mom for the past few weekends and stressing over work (this coming month is gonna suck!), i decided to be a lazy. i allowed myself to do absolutely nothing and not worry about it.

saturday, at about 11am, i decided to take a nap. oh my gosh! that was sooo awesome! so sunday, i did it again at around 3pm. that, too, was awesome. a mini-vacation (at least that’s what i think vacation is supposed to be).

so tonight, i worked out. i worked everything. so much that as i type this, i feel my abs moving and twisting (it’s actually kinda creepy).

i ate decent today. (oh yeah, did i mention that i ate whatever i wanted over the weekend also?) i have a LF yogurt with fiber one when i got to work. then i had raw veggies with watered down, LF blue cheese to dip in. for lunch a LF fettucine alfredo w/broccoli (now the bad part - w/a snack size bag of cheetos. aargh! i know…). when i got home, dinner was a LF micro meal of salisbury steak w/mac and cheese.

now if you look at it in calories, i did great. if you look at it in terms of fat, not so bad. as to servings of fruits, veggies, fiber-the perfect diet-could have been better. and if you look at for carbs, whoa nellie! get a hold on the reigns…sheesh! so depending on your view….i ate decent today.

i’m rationalizing this huh? i guess i have to coax myself to get back into the game, because vacation is over.

tonight i take my last antibiotic pill..yah! trouble is, i’m still coughing up yucky stuff and don’t feel so hot. 

saturday, i got on the treadmill to run. i got to the 3rd running part, and my right calf felt ‘dead’ for lack of a better word. first, i couldn’t feel anything from the knee down, felt like my leg was flopping around. then, the outside of the calf started ’screaming’ and i had to stop.

according to the schedule, i should have run today. but i guess i was afraid of the pain and chose not to. i did, however, do the step up and down thing a little while ago. again, my calf started screaming.

in lieu of just quitting the running plan, i’m going to hold off for another week or two so i can totally get over being sick and work my calves so i can accomplish what i set out to do.

i can’t help but feeling like i’ve screwed up. i just keep telling myself that as long as i make plans, follow through at least half the time (lol), then i’m doing better than i have been and eventually i will do it more and more so that it is a regular part of my life.

great plan….eehhhh?

my plan was to take saturday off, miraculously get better, and run on sunday. well, one out of three is gonna have to do. saturday i slept on and off, coughed up drainage (i know, eeewww) and ate comfort food (i know, baaadd). my friend helped me with lugging the laundry around and that’s about all i got accomplished. (my kitchen is currently a disaster area. getting to the coffee pot this a.m. took a few minutes.)

sunday, more of the same, but with less coughing up…(you know), and more comfort food. when my friend got to my house to work out (we’re doing this together in my self-made gym in the dining room), i wanted a hamburger. he was supposed to call when he was on his way and didn’t, so i didn’t get a hamburger. i was VERY upset. he told me that i would be disappointed in myself the next day if i had a hamburger and that i should eat something healthy out of my kitchen. (i have asked him several times to help patrol my eating habits since i can’t seem to say no to myself, so he starts while i’m sick…ARGGHHH!) so i had a baked potato with margarine, one low-fat cheese slice, and bacon bits. i made a mean, angry face the whole time i was eating it. he got a good workout and i felt like a loser (and for some reason angry at him) because i’m just not up to it at the moment.

so here it is, monday, and i called off work. i wasn’t sure i could be productive today. if it was like yesterday, i woke up feeling great but as the day progressed, i had the coughing, body aches and then a headache. my body still aches, but so far, all else seems fine. so tomorrow, back i go.

i like the running schedule i had set up. saturday, monday and wednesday. so i think i will stick with that schedule and do ‘easy’ stuff till saturday.

oh yeah, i got a new core workout ball. the one i bought last week was too big for me, so my friend it taking it. so i will work with my newer ‘toy’ and do resistance bands. i’m sick of being sick and not being able to move around without aches. (whining-) i wanna feel good again!