Gotta get it out!

well, once again, it has been a while. i have a reason though, not an excuse. my mom has been in the hospital for 11 days at this point. she is diabetic with bad circulation and has gangrene starting on a toe. they put her last Wednesday Friday-did an angiogram but could not do angioplasty because of blockage in the knee. she had vascular bypass in her leg Tuesday and is recovering. we are waiting for them to send her home, hopefully tomorrow. (it’s just the tip of her toe-not down to the joint. they are hoping that the improved circulation will cause the dead skin on her toe to dry up and fall off-apparently, this is common.)

so i’ve been very busy and very tired. i was on vacation the week they admitted her, not much of a vacation-not her fault, just everything else went wrong that week also. her garage got flooded the night she went in. i couldn’t go to my girls camping trip, etc. i haven’t been to the grocery for over 2 weeks. i went Friday night and did very well. bought lots of fruit, chicken breast.i haven’t been able to exercise and i feel it. i’ve been eating out and i feel it. i’ve been stressing and i feel it. i’ve gained weight and i feel it.

i’m going to eat my healthy food and hope that i feel like exercising soon. hope that it gives me the energy i need. the energy that fast food does not. i know this, but when you have to be here and there at this and that time, fast food is the best option. i’ve tried to eat good fast food, but we all know how that goes. the gooey cheesey food tells you ‘i taste sooo good, and you are feeling sooo bad. i can make it all better.’ it lies….

i’m trying to get things under control for now. i will be back when things are closer to ‘normal’.