Gotta get it out!

my plan was to take saturday off, miraculously get better, and run on sunday. well, one out of three is gonna have to do. saturday i slept on and off, coughed up drainage (i know, eeewww) and ate comfort food (i know, baaadd). my friend helped me with lugging the laundry around and that’s about all i got accomplished. (my kitchen is currently a disaster area. getting to the coffee pot this a.m. took a few minutes.)

sunday, more of the same, but with less coughing up…(you know), and more comfort food. when my friend got to my house to work out (we’re doing this together in my self-made gym in the dining room), i wanted a hamburger. he was supposed to call when he was on his way and didn’t, so i didn’t get a hamburger. i was VERY upset. he told me that i would be disappointed in myself the next day if i had a hamburger and that i should eat something healthy out of my kitchen. (i have asked him several times to help patrol my eating habits since i can’t seem to say no to myself, so he starts while i’m sick…ARGGHHH!) so i had a baked potato with margarine, one low-fat cheese slice, and bacon bits. i made a mean, angry face the whole time i was eating it. he got a good workout and i felt like a loser (and for some reason angry at him) because i’m just not up to it at the moment.

so here it is, monday, and i called off work. i wasn’t sure i could be productive today. if it was like yesterday, i woke up feeling great but as the day progressed, i had the coughing, body aches and then a headache. my body still aches, but so far, all else seems fine. so tomorrow, back i go.

i like the running schedule i had set up. saturday, monday and wednesday. so i think i will stick with that schedule and do ‘easy’ stuff till saturday.

oh yeah, i got a new core workout ball. the one i bought last week was too big for me, so my friend it taking it. so i will work with my newer ‘toy’ and do resistance bands. i’m sick of being sick and not being able to move around without aches. (whining-) i wanna feel good again!

i have a sinus infection (for the 3rd time in 2 months). i guess this winter is a bad one for me. usually i might get the sniffles or a cough for a week or so. but every few years, i get hit and i guess it’s this year.

i really do want to exercise, because i know i usually feel better after, but i’m just exhausted and i can’t imagine even getting up. i’ve been napping on and off for 24 hours now. to get a shower this morning before i went to the doctor was a major activity. the hot shower was great, but once i was dressed, i was ready to nod off again. maybe i’ll feel like doing some squats or resistance bands later.

i hate being sick.

so tomorrow i’m supposed to run again. but i’m sick. i came home early form work today because i have sinus stuff going on and i can’t breath. i keep popping otc meds for it and it works, but i’m sooo tired and feel worn out. tonight i’m supposed to go out for a friend’s birthday and i really want to, but i don’t know if i can. i’m also worried that if i do, i’ll be worse tomorrow and not be able to run. but at this point, i may not be able to run anyway. aaarrrrggghhh!!! this sucks. i’m really into this and i don’t want anything possibly screwing it up.

i guess since it will be saturday, that i have all day to get it in and if not, there’s all day sunday to do it. i really hope i feel better tomorrow. it took me like an hour this morning to get a lot of the crap out of my head so i could breathe through my nose. when i woke up, my throat was raw and my mouth was dry because of it.

anyway, wish me luck…lol

yeah! i did my run this morning. the “i don’t wanna” monster almost got me, but i didn’t want to let anyone down, especially myself, if i didn’t do it. so i got my shoes on and hopped on the treadmill. did the whole thing this time, too! i am sooo looking forward to 2 days off from it. my legs are sore this morning. but i will work my arms and abs before my next run day. that’s all for now.

OK, (pant, gasp) i just did my day 2 of c-5k (pant, gasp). i didn’t finish the whole run (did 7 not 8 sets, gasp), but, that’s OK because i knew after the first run, that i would be doing 2 weeks of week 1. my right calf was screaming on the outside and a few times i had to stand on the treadmill’s sides to stretch it out-but then i got back on. i almost quit a couple of times and i almost cried once. but i kept on until i just couldn’t. THE GOOD NEWS IS…i got on and almost finished.

so i’m wondering if part of my problem today was that my affirmation of being a woman hit yesterday ([deadpan] yeah). it was one of the worst i’ve had in years, and i mean years. cramps from hell and i really couldn’t do much of anything yesterday. it really wiped me out.

i’m sure the other ‘problem’ is that i’m not used to this and it did it on saturday (the whole thing) without an issue really. my muscles are a bit sore and holding water (along with the rest of me…hahaha).

so, since i didn’t finish this morning or do anything yesterday…when i get home, i will use my resistance bands to work my arms and if the tummy is OK, work the abs. that will be cake compared to what i just did.

first of all….lodyangel, thank you so much for the positive reinforcement. i was beaming when i read it! so like you said, i’m telling it to the world…lol!

i’ve gotten on my treadmill to walk before, but only last about 5 minutes. there is no direction for me and it’s soooo boring. but after reading about couchto5k and finding a guy who put together music to go with it (he also tells you when to start and stop each part) I DID IT! i was on the there for 28 minutes, sweating my butt off and feeling great when i finished. nothing yesterday could depress me or take that away. i was so proud of myself!

i also went out and bought a workout ball and a better resistance band set to offset my treadmill/running days. i know that i have to work my muscles along with burning fat to keep a balance.

i’m also turning my dining room into a workout room. i have a small house and live alone, so i don’t use the dining room. i’ll have the treadmill on one side, my gazelle on the other (mom gave me this, maybe it works, maybe it doesn’t, dunno) and my yoga mat in the middle. then i’m putting my extra tv and vcr in there to use my yoga videos. so there will be NO excuse not to use these tools. YAH!

OK, i’m not going to post what i’m planning to do as far as working out, diet, etc. it’s ridiculous, but every time i post it, i don’t follow through. it’s like, as long as no one knows, what i’m doing, then i keep doing it. like a secret. i know, it’s stupid, but that’s the pattern. so i will just post what i have done already and that should work.

so, my friend and i worked out 3x this week so far. i’m surprised i’m not sore because of what i did and the duration each time. i’m very proud of what i’ve done so far-even if he is kicking my butt. he moves around all day at work while i sit all day at a computer, so he has a ‘head start’ in my opinion. but anyway….

i was feeling guilty for not posting because i didn’t follow through with my 30-day challenge. i think i will incorporate it into what we’re doing now, but it won’t be each day like it’s supposed to be. i can’t go balls to the wall like my friend, i have to ease into it. at least until i’m used to the changes.

ok, my emails are now on day 9, and i’m still stuck on day 2. jeez. lots of things have gotten in my way, whether i let them or not. so i guess i will do day 2 when i can, perhaps tomorrow…HA!

but anyway, the good news is… i’ve been counting my calories for 3 days now and have been aiming for 1350. haven’t nailed it yet (don’t think i’ve gone over 1500-1600 max), but considering i ate out almost every day and sometimes more, i’m sure i’m doing some serious cutting back. so i’m not going to sweat it. i’m going to be happy for myself for trying and sticking to SOMETHING.

i’ve kept a food diary with all my calories written down. the only thing i don’t know the numbers on is some left over gravy from breakfast this past weekend. i’m sure it’s not low, but it can’t be as high as the way i’ve ate in the past. so i’m not going to sweat it.

yah for me! here’s to not sweating it!

today i woke up an hour late, so i couldn’t exercise before work and once i got home, i was really too tired. CRAP!! sooooo, tomorrow will be day 2, i swear!!!

i have been doing the veggie thing for day 2 each day (yah!) and last night i did do some weights for my arms and i felt it in my shoulder today (can’t turn my head all the way to the right-yah).

anyway, just wanted to be accountable today.

so, yesterday was day 2 of my 30-day challenge. the only thing i accomplished was eating veggies with every meal. i didn’t get any exercise in, which bugs me, but there were circumstances that i couldn’t control.

my grandmother passed on sunday, so yesterday was doing phone calls, flowers, etc. for today’s funeral. obviously, there was no way of exercising because i didn’t know what i would be doing next.

so i will make today day 2. once i get home, it’s onto the treadmill and doing my weights, stretches etc. i will also do the veggie thing again. i wonder if the idea is to continue each day’s assignment through the 30 days, like the eating veggies with every meal. hhmmm…