Yeah, got my Linda Spangle books yesterday. Started on this rescource book and decided what better place to keep me accountable then here

10 Reasons to Lose Weight

1 I will sleep better

2 I will go bushwalking with Beloved (we fell in love on a bushwalk)

3 All those nice clothes I’m going to be wearing

4 I’ll feel cooler in the summer

5 I won’t be shy when the cameras come out

6 I’ll feel fitter

7 I’ll be able to spend more time on the treadmill and running (which I do enjoy)

8 I’ll get some relief from those haemmhorroids (gar! Why doesn’t the spell checker work for me?)

9 I will actually be okay with seeing my own reflection

10 cinema seats will fee so much roomier

11 mmmmm…slim thighs. The feel of baggy legs on my pants

12 Fitting comfortable into my work uniform

13 My feet won’t hurt

Yeah, I know I said 10.

Day 1

I used to be that way…

I used to just give up and eat whatever I felt like because other people could but now I really notice everything I put into my mouth.

I used to think I needed food to keep me company but now I know that food is just a part of life.

I used to eat in order to avoid feeling lonely and stressed at parties but now I know that people value my company and I like talking to them, too.

I used to succumb to the afternoon munchies but now I have a cup of tea or drink of water instead.

I love this picture. Jim, the cat and Shai, the dog, have both gone to the big, comfy spot in front of the fire in the sky now, but I sent this one to stuffonmycat.com months ago and it just turned up on their board a couple of days ago. Funnily, I’d dreamed of Jim that night, then got up and seen the photo.

Anyway, I just wanted to say that it really was a bit of a challenge to admit to myself that people really do value my company. I would be at a party or gathering and be obsessively thinking about the food. About what I have to eat, what I need to eat, some of everything. Lots of everything. More, and I need it now so that I don’t miss out, and people would be standing between me and the food and talking to me. Talking instead of eating. What was with that???

Wow. Maybe they were talking to me because they like me. Because they want to share something of themselves with me. Because they want to know how things are with me.

Hey, RubyJean, here’s the “other” kind of Nigella for you. You could grow some in your garden and put them in a vase in your kitchen as inspiration and to keep Nigella Lawson in mind.