Confessions of a Bulk Eater

What a day, ladies. I’ll start from the beginning. I woke up to go to the gym this morning, went downstairs and….. MY HUSBAND’S CAR WAS GONE! So I ran upstairs to wake him up! He called the cops, called OnStar (which if you have that capability on your car, pay for the minimal service, it definitely helps out). We realized they went through my car as well and that’s how they got the KEY to his car. While we were downstairs waiting for the cops, 2 ladies from the complex were coming to walk with my downstairs neighbor. One of them said as she was walking out the door to come down our way, a guy ran out of her laundry room!! SCARY!! Anyway, the cops came, reports were filed, and I made pancakes for everyone. I didn’t eat any though. I walked our son to school since I had to wait for the cops to fingerprint my car. It was a 2 mile walk that I got, which is good since i didn’t get to the gym today. The found the car intact a little bit later (thank you OnStar) but ALL my husband’s scuba gear was missing out of the trunk. He had taken it downstairs last night since he had a class tonight. He has all the serial numbers, so he gave those to the cops in case the perps plan on pawning them. It looks like our renter’s insurance will cover that though. So I had an unplanned day off of work.

Now, guess what I did last night. I went run/walking for about an hour! I walked my son down to church for youth and then stayed down at the lake just going back and forth. I ran one whole length, then walked and ran whenever I felt like. Yes, Periwinkle i did try some speed work. Actually, the whole walk to church was speed work because my son and I “raced” each other. We’d run at full speed and then walk when he stopped. But I did a little by myself as well. I felt foolish, but I could feel the difference. Of course, I tried the speed work when I was super tired, but I could still feel the difference.. and I sure didn’t run for a minute at a time. And you know what, I could see the muscles in my quads when my legs were out in front of me. Anyway, I was super tired when I was done and then to have to walk home.. UGH!!! But I did it and carried my son part of the way because he fell and scraped up his leg and elbow. So I really didn’t WANT to walk him to school today, but oh well.

It’s been sort of a nightmare today with so much to do. And it couldn’t have come at the worse time since we are trying to focus on this house. Inspection was yesterday and there is some stuff that needs to be done. Blah…..

UPDATED TONIGHT: Today has been weird (besides all of the above). I have been SO hungry! I don’t know if it’s because I was out of routine by being at home or what. I went over my calories today. 1596k today… YIPES!! And I didn’t even get to the gym today. Although I walked 2 miles this morning, so I guess that counts for something, right? Right?

In other news, the weather is GREAT!! It’s so nice out (which is why I ended up running for an hour last night) Soccer practice was nice today because of it. I hope it stays like this but I’m not going to hold my breath. It’s a teaser. Cross your fingers that the cars stay put tonight!!!

I survived the dentist! It was a tough battle, but I did it. My son did just fine as well. They let him come in and watch what they did to me. I have one cavity and he had 2. So we go back in October. The dentist told me she would give him Nitrous Oxide because of his age. I asked if I could get it too because I can’t even think about a needle coming near my mouth. She said my cavity is so small that she can use it as well for me. Insurance doesn’t pay for it, but I don’t care!!

Periwinkle, I too have dreams about my teeth falling out. I haven’t had one in awhile, but I have had them. I remember the last time I went to the dentist, many many moons ago, they had a questionaire and that was one of the questions. It’s supposed to mean something, but I don’t remember what. Too funny!!

No gym for me this morning. Hubby is working from home so I had to take daughter to daycare since I work close by. I’ll have to find something to do today for exercise. Perhaps I’ll go run around the lake when I take my son to church tonight.

Calories were good yesterday. 1374 total. It’s within my range but I still feel it too high. I’m trying this though to see if it works… actually getting enough calories to lose the weight. Open mind. Today will be a struggle though. Remember how I said I would miss out on lunch because of the dentist? Yeah, they waited until today to go b/c it’s another person’s birthday today. Ugh. I’m going to try to find out where we are going and see if the nutritional info is online. If not, I guess I’ll just get a salad. Did you hear me stomach? I’M ONLY GOING TO GET A SALAD!!!
Okay, okay I didn’t really just get a salad. BUT, I did better than normal. We went to chili’s and they had some REALLY good crispy buffalo chicken tacos that looked REALLY REALLY GOOD - BUT, I opted for the Chicken Ceasar Pita with…. STEAMED VEGGIES! No fries for me today. That is a step in the right direction. The pita is only 650 calores (well, I guess that’s a lot, but not as much as some things there) so I feel good about it. Of course, I still feel hungry, but I don’t feel that sick full feeling. I may be a little higher today on calories, but I don’t think I’ll go over the alloted 1550.

Today is a bad day, ladies. I have a dentist appointment this afternoon. Do you know how long it’s been since I’ve been to the dentist? I hate the dentist (which is why it’s been so long since I’ve gone). The last time I went, they told me I had holes in the enamal of my teeth (from soda, I’m sure) and they would have to fill them. I didn’t go back. That was 12 years ago!! AGUHHH!!! I’m sure I’ll hear the same thing today PLUS that I need to get my wisdom teeth pulled. Oh I am not looking forward to this. My son has his first ever dentist appointment today as well at the same time (convenient). We’ll see how that goes.

Went to the gym this morning. Did 15 minutes on the bike and then my training session. We did legs. Now I’m at work eating my oat bran and blueberries. I did well on my calories yesterday. Total of 1374 for the day.

It’s probably a good thing I have a dentist appt. It’s my friend’s birthday today and I made her a cake last night (what a FIASCO!!!) Since I am leaving work at 11, I won’t have to go out to lunch with the group, nor partake in the cake.

I dragged myself out of bed at 4:40 to get to the gym. I really didn’t want too. I mean I REALLY didn’t want too, but I knew that I had too. This is it. I can feel it. I am going to do it this time. I am going to actually meet a goal. I did some soul searching while sitting in the airport this weekend (the reason why I bought my cool journal) and realized some of the ways I sabatoge myself and what i need to do to stop. One is I set totally unrealistic goals. Then when I don’t make them, I get self-destructive. I have to realize I won’t be to my goal weight in 3 months. It could take 3, 6, 9, maybe a year. I think it’s finally sinking in.

So anyway, I got to the gym and did an hour on the stationary bike as my tranier reccommended I try. I figure I’ll give this a try for a few weeks. See what happens. I’ll still have my strength training sessions with her. I can also get some other exercise in the evenings or something. Calories are going to be kept between 1200-1550 (that’s according to Spark People).

I can do this. I just need to remember it’s not a competition or a race. It’s life.

Updated: I went for a run walk at lunch. There is a park near my work that has a little fitness loop. It is about a 1/4 mile around. I probably ran half a mile and walked the rest. My legs are pooped!! I guess the bike wore them out this morning. It was mutiny - they jus wouldn’t let me run anymore. I was a little disappointed because in my mind I would do better. It’s something I want to start doing - gym in the morning, somethign at lunch. Even though it would be alienating my friends at work. And perhaps it doesn’t give my muscles a long enough time to recover. Maybe going at night would be better. Hmmmm.. lots to think about. But I still went!

I feel as though I snacked all day. But I had to get in my calories. Stupid sparkpeople won’t let me sign in on this computer for some reason, so I can’t figure out what I had yet, but I think I’m at about 1250-1300. Not bad. Oh and I guess I shouldn’t worry about getting more exercise in the evening since I was on my feet all FREAKING evening long!! From the moment I got home until about 8:30, I was on my feet doing something. One of those evenings. I really want to snack because it was just a tad stressful, but I will not. NO SNACKING!

My trip was GREAT!! I will have gotten rid of my “Rochester Fog” before work tomorrow, so that’s good. The Rochester Fog is what I call my hangover/brain fog I have when I leave and get home. The hangover doesn’t last that long of course, but the fog does.

Anyway, I picked up a cool journal while I was sitting at Washington/Dulles airport and I am going to do this!! I am going to track calories (1200-1400) a day. I am going to work my ASS off!! I have to figure out a way to get some extra exercise in per day. I think I may walk during lunch, although I may have to wait until it cools down.

Anyway, it will take me awhile to catch up on everyone I’m sure.

So I actually got my butt out of bed and to the gym for the first time this week. I feel like such a lazy bum, but in my defense, I have run twice this week. Anyway, I started to run a little on the treadmill and then WOAH!!!! Knee pain out of no where!! Both knees. So I decided to slow down and went to a 10% incline instead. Walked about a mile that way.

Did arms with the trainer. Can I tell you that I saw some muscles working that I usually don’t see. Like I could SEE them. That made me feel like progress is being made SOMEWHERE. Anyway, I was talking to her about my weight b/c I do this weight assisted chin up thing (which I hate) and you have to put the weights near your weight. She asked if I had come down, and I said yeah, but I seem to be stuck at one number. I go either 2lbs +/- 208. So she tried to think of some things that might be causing that. Here’s what we came up with…
***before I begin, I must say that I KNOW my overeating causes it some weeks, but what frustrates me are the weeks that I am at the gym EVERY DAY and really good on my calories. This is what we are trying to figure out***

1. Perhaps I’m not getting enough calories. I knew that. It seems so backwards though. But Spark People says (and my trainer confirmed) that I should be getting 1200-1450 calories a day. She said I should try to average about 1300 a day during a week (some days might be lower, some higher). When I’ve tracked, I’ve been around 1000 or so. I know this, but it seems so backwards!! It’s something I must work on.

2. She told me that instead of running/speed walking, I may get better results by doing the stationary bike for an hour. She thinks my heart rate may be getting too fast and I’m not really losing weight that way either. Hmmm… interesting concept. She basically told me whatever I do, slow down. Slow down to the point I want to shoot myself in the head!! So I will try that for a few weeks and see
what happens. I’ll still do my training of course because that helps build muscle. I guess I’ll start taking books to the gym and perhaps looking into books on CD or downloading off itunes. I will be so bored.

So I need to really think about the things I do. I know I need to up my calorie burnage (not a word, I know) I’ve been trying to think about what I can do to do that. I have a few ideas that I need to chew on and really hammer some things out. Rest of the week is a bust since I won’t be here, but I’m actually looking forward to putting these things into practice next week and see what happens.

That is huge for me. I had taken my son to the kids thing at this church we’ve been going to the past 2 weeks. The church is around the corner from us and on the lake that the walking trail is on. Since hubby was home and I could leave the baby with him, I decided to walk down to the lake, run around and then back to where the church is and be there in time to pick my son up. The church is about halfway around the lake. So I walked briskly all the way down to the lake then started running as soon as I got there. I ran all the way to the turnaround spot (can’t go all the way around yet, but they are working on that) and then back to where the church is. Crossed the street and ran around through the parking lot to give me a little extra distance. Of course, my run outside is not that fast. I can run much faster on the treadmill, but when I run outside I feel like I’m in mud. Probably because the treadmill is doing the work for me. Anyway, I am happy I ran that far without stopping. They looked a little concerned when I walked in to get him. They probably thought I was going to pass out since i was dripping with sweat. No, hello.. this is how all runner’s look!! We walked back home, although we had to run a little because my son wanted to run. That lasted MAYBE 5 minutes before I put the kibosh on it. I was tired and my knees were hurting by that time. I have training session at the gym tomorrow. Ugh… I haven’t been up early at all this week. It’s going to kill me.

Oh yes, the whole week. After the two packages of double stuff oreos I ate over the course of the weekend, I am calling it a bust. I haven’t been to the gym, my eating plan hasn’t been great (well, the PLAN was good but the execution of the plan has not been), and frankly, I really don’t care this week because I know that no matter what I would have done, it would all be for naught come Friday night when I will consume my weight in alcohol (well, not THAT much, but enough to derail all efforts)

Oh yeah… I’m talking 7 HOURS of my guys up in New York. And the best part is they don’t know that I’m coming!! They know I’m coming up in October for Halloween, but we have kept this trip a secret from them. My friend and I can’t wait to see the looks on their faces when I walk in.

I did try to go for a run last night. Remember, I ran a 5k on Saturday. I went to run last night (outside in the fresh air - NOT on the treadmill in the gym) and after 10 steps I was in pain. WTF!! I kept going though. Stopped to get a drink at the water fountain, then kept on running to the turn around point and then may a quarter of the way back. That was as far as I could go. I walked the rest of the way. I was planning on going around again, but decided against it. I had a side cramp and was just over it. I think I was dehydrated b/c I didn’t do well on my water yesterday. That’s what I like about the gym. I always have a bottle of water with me so I can rehydrate myself. Oh well.

First: my awesome shirt from the 5k run. No, tiny2b, it does not beat your Sausage Fest shirt (really, I snicker everytime I say that), but it is nonetheless cool and totally me:

Next: some pictures of the house
Front of the house (with my family, the realtor and her son)
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Backyard
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The palm in the courtyard. These are hot commodities around these parts so no matter what we do, this will stay
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And just for fun, a picture of my son after his first soccer game the other night
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Periwinkle has been on my case all morning to post pictures of my awesome t-shirt and the house. I even brought my camera to work today. Alas, my stupid computer keeps shutting down when I try to resize the pics on photobucket so they aren’t HUGE on here. I’ll have to do it at home tonight.