Confessions of a Bulk Eater

So, as i was riding along on my horomonal roller coaster yesterday (have I mentioned how much I LOVE being a woman?) I consumed almost 200 calories more than my max allotment for the day should be. Considering my gorge fest at breakfast and the 2 snacks I inhaled between getting home from work and taking my son to soccer practice, I felt okay about that. Not good, but I knew it could have been a lot worse. It has been worse in the past.

So we get home from soccer and my husband tells me he has to go meet the A/C people at the new house in the morning (today) to give them a check (sellers are paying for the replacement, we are paying for some sort of upgrade to make it more energy efficient) and he won’t be able to take the baby to daycare. Did I mind? Hmmm… I didn’t get to the gym yesterday morning and I really didn’t want to miss 2 days. So I told him no, as long as he didn’t mind me going last night once the kids were to bed (nothign on TV anyway except the debate) He said no so once I got my son to bed, I hit the gym.

I wanted to run, but it had been almost a week since I had run and knew it would be difficult. I decided to jump into week 5 of C25k to get some structure and motivation. And it worked. I ran the three 5 minute intervals without any problems. I also ran once the whole thing was over. I had put the treadmill to go fo 45 minutes, I just wanted to see how far I would get. I finished a 5k in a little over 40 minutes so I used the remaning time to slow my heart rate down. I ran a few times at over 6mph too!! Not for very long, but just to see. I think I might continue with the program to see what happens. See if I can increase my endurance. Plus, the music was MUCH MUCH better on week 5 and that was my whole hangup with week 4.

So I burned up 450 calories on the tready plus I did a circuit of arm weights so I’m sure I burned more off there. See, redemption. I did not let the horomones beat me yesterday. Yesterday was a lunch from Tijuana Flats sort of day and I did not let it become that. Progress.

Okay, so now a rant. I hate this: I’m at the gym last night. It’s 9:30pm so the gym is pretty empty. There is a WHOLE ROW of EMPTY treadmills just waiting to be used. What does this one guy do? He gets on the one next to me and starts running away at like 8 mph. Really? Why the one right next to me? Number one, there were plenty of other ones to be had. Number two, he really was not that good looking and I may have been able to excuse it just a tad if he was. Number 3, I felt as if he were suffocating me (I have personal space issues as you can see) Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

And now I leave you with some insight as to why I go to NY as often as I do. You would too if this is what you were going to be looking at on stage:

I really should look into therapy

That is huge for me. I had taken my son to the kids thing at this church we’ve been going to the past 2 weeks. The church is around the corner from us and on the lake that the walking trail is on. Since hubby was home and I could leave the baby with him, I decided to walk down to the lake, run around and then back to where the church is and be there in time to pick my son up. The church is about halfway around the lake. So I walked briskly all the way down to the lake then started running as soon as I got there. I ran all the way to the turnaround spot (can’t go all the way around yet, but they are working on that) and then back to where the church is. Crossed the street and ran around through the parking lot to give me a little extra distance. Of course, my run outside is not that fast. I can run much faster on the treadmill, but when I run outside I feel like I’m in mud. Probably because the treadmill is doing the work for me. Anyway, I am happy I ran that far without stopping. They looked a little concerned when I walked in to get him. They probably thought I was going to pass out since i was dripping with sweat. No, hello.. this is how all runner’s look!! We walked back home, although we had to run a little because my son wanted to run. That lasted MAYBE 5 minutes before I put the kibosh on it. I was tired and my knees were hurting by that time. I have training session at the gym tomorrow. Ugh… I haven’t been up early at all this week. It’s going to kill me.

Oh yes, the whole week. After the two packages of double stuff oreos I ate over the course of the weekend, I am calling it a bust. I haven’t been to the gym, my eating plan hasn’t been great (well, the PLAN was good but the execution of the plan has not been), and frankly, I really don’t care this week because I know that no matter what I would have done, it would all be for naught come Friday night when I will consume my weight in alcohol (well, not THAT much, but enough to derail all efforts)

Oh yeah… I’m talking 7 HOURS of my guys up in New York. And the best part is they don’t know that I’m coming!! They know I’m coming up in October for Halloween, but we have kept this trip a secret from them. My friend and I can’t wait to see the looks on their faces when I walk in.

I did try to go for a run last night. Remember, I ran a 5k on Saturday. I went to run last night (outside in the fresh air - NOT on the treadmill in the gym) and after 10 steps I was in pain. WTF!! I kept going though. Stopped to get a drink at the water fountain, then kept on running to the turn around point and then may a quarter of the way back. That was as far as I could go. I walked the rest of the way. I was planning on going around again, but decided against it. I had a side cramp and was just over it. I think I was dehydrated b/c I didn’t do well on my water yesterday. That’s what I like about the gym. I always have a bottle of water with me so I can rehydrate myself. Oh well.

So I’m going to sign up for a 5k tomorrow… just for the t-shirt. A friend of mine at work is signed up and wore her shirt to work today. It’s totally cool, totally me and I WANT ONE!! So I am going to go sign up on my lunch break and prepare to run tomorrow. My friend and her friend have been running for awhile, so I’m sure they’ll be faster than me, but it will be interesting to see what my time will be!! I’m excited!! So I guess it’s off to the races for me and bigprof who is running her own 5k tomorrow.

I SHAVED THREE MINUTES OFF MY 5K TIME!! WOO HOO!!! I did it in 39:40 and usually I’m somewhere between 42-43 minutes. PLUS… my ipod died in the middle of it so I had to listen to the ridiculous, non-motivating gym music. But I kept going. AND>.. I ran consecutively for 1 mile. That has NEVER happened before! I switched between a 5.3 mph and a 4.7 mph when I got tired. I really wanted to push myself since i’d been slacking all last week.

YAY!! GO ME!!

Okay, so I walked and ran, but I finished it 38:15!! YAY!!! That is the fastest I have ever done it. I’ve done it at the gym a few times lately and I’ve finshed just under 45 minutes!!

GO ME!!!

As for the leaving for Dallas part… hubby’s grandmother died last night so we are headed out tonight and back on Thursday.

Okay, so today was gym day. I decided to try the treadmill once again. I know I said the other day that I was done with the treadmill for running but I’m already at the gym and it’s HOT outside. I figured I’d try it once again. I took my little towel and TOTALLY covered the display so I couldn’t see anything that was going on. And I totally kicked ass!!!! I had put it on the 5k loop setting so I would at least have a semblance of distance. Anyway, I put my ipod on took off. Since I wasn’t watching time or distance, I will have to tell you by how many songs: I walked 2 songs and then ran (are you ready for this?!!) 6 SONGS!! That’s like 20 minutes or so. I ran 20 minutes straight!!! Then I walked 2 songs, ran 1.5 songs, walked 1.5 songs, and then ran 3 songs or so and that was my 5k! I upped the speed for the last song. By that time I had taken the towel off the display because i knew it was close to being done. So for the last song, I upped my speed a little.
WOOOO!!!! I was proud of myself!! Then I did some weights. I was whipped by the time I left.

Food:

Breakfast - shredded wheat, fat free milk, splenda

Lunch - salad: lettuce, pinto beans, tomatoes, salsa, cilantro; Roasted corn soup

Snack - cherries

Dinner after the gym - w/w vanilla smoothie with strawberries and 1/2 banana; Roasted Corn soup; watermelon and cantalope

I did have a small peice of cake at work. Oops.

So I had my weight loss group tonight. There was no loss. I weighed myself on Tuesday on the scale at the gym, which is where I saw 3 lb weight loss. The scale at my weight loss group is an “official” weight watchers scale (that is in quotes because it’s not really at weight watchers, but my group leader is a weight watchers leader and she has to have it calibrated correctly b/c she has to stay at a certain weight range) Anyway, the scale today showed a 5lb weight gain from Tuesday night, but a 2lb weight gain from the last time I weighed myself at her house. YIPES!!!! I know that I didn’t realy stick to plan, but I worked out everyday but yesterday so that weight gain really surprised me. But I knew if I did really gain it, I did it to myself. Bummer

So after weight loss group, I was going to go to the gym. It was a nice evening though (we had a storm blow through this afternoon) so I decided to walk down to the lake and run. I just couldn’t get excited about going to the gym and hopping on a treadmill. So I put on my shoes, turned on my ipod and headed out. From my front door and back it is 2.35 miles. I decided to run whenever I felt like it. I tried to keep track of how many songs I ran and walked, but it was tough. Instead, I used www.mapmyrun.com to tell you how far I actually ran. And the answer is **drumroll please**: 1.92 MILES!!! Of course that was not consecutive miles, but it was total. But still - ALMOST 2 MILES!!! That is amazing for me. And let me tell you, I KNOW I was not running as fast as I do on the treadmill. BUT THAT’S OKAY!! I couldn’t tell how fast I was running, I couldn’t tell how fast other people were running. I know I was running faster than one person b/c we passed each other and then I caught up and passed him on my way back (I was secretly pleased).

So here’s what I came up with: the treadmill, although great when it is 1000 degrees outside, is actually a hindrance for me. Like I said the other day, I started running to get ME TIME. I don’t get ME TIME in the gym. Don’t get me wrong, I love the gym and will probably continue to use it for weight training and cardio, but am going to do my running OUTSIDE!! I don’t know how I am going to pull that off, but I am going to try. I don’t want to give this up and I think I’ve found the answer to my block.

Oh, and when I got back to my house, I went to my leader’s house (she lives in the same apt complex) and reweighed myself. Down .5. So up from 2 weeks ago, but down from earlier tonight. I will weigh myself at the gym tomorrow and see where it stands.

Thanks for everyone’s words of encouragement over the past few days. You guys are the best!!!

This lady is inspiring! At 61, she is completing the last leg of her run - which was AROUND THE WORLD!! She started when she was 57, after her husband died of cancer. Now, THAT is an inspiration. The lady with the sextuplets - well, I wanted to take a nap for her. This lady shows that it truly isn’t the rabbit that wins the race. Slow and steady. 4 YEARS it’s taken her to do this!! It doesn’t really inspire me to try to run around the world, but gives me more of a determination I guess.

Did you guys see this?! THIS LADY is a mother of SEXTUPLETS and ran a MARATHON right after their first birthday!

Okay, this is what would normally push me over the edge on so many levels, but I am trying to remember NOT to compare myself. Perhaps she was already a marathon runner before she became pregnant. Props to her, but what I would want to do if I had 6 kids is TAKE A NAP!!! I want to do that with the two I have, I can’t even imagine. That would send me teetering over the brink that I am trying so desparately to hold on to.