Confessions of a Bulk Eater

If I make my own bread is it healthier than the bread I can buy from the store? The recipes I’m looking at have almost twice as many calories as store-bought bread per slice, but on the other hand you aren’t getting the high fructose corn syrup and other stuff that goes into store bought bread.

Hmmmm…. this whole economy thing has me thinking and I think it’s time I start flexing my cooking wings and making some of these things myself. I have to admit I am a decent cook (I just don’t like the mess that comes with cooking) but bread baking seems to elude me. It may be the humidity here, but it NEVER turns out.

I think it’s time to start trying again. I don’t eat alot of sandwhiches anyway (GROSS) but my husband and son do and I can go through almost 2 store-bought loves a week.

Anyone have any tips for me?

So I’ve decided to do it. This weekend I am going to get my haircut. It needs to be done. It is so dead on the ends… I have horrible split ends, it’s dry, it’s brittle, it’s time for it to go. So I’m going to have to cut quite a bit off to get it healthy again — which means SHORT!! It’s been 2 years since I’ve cut my hair off (right before I had my baby) and it has now grown to the middle of my back.

So…. here’s a few ideas I’ve found so far. Don’t be swayed by the color. I haven’t decided what I’m going to do in that department yet. Probably won’t decide until I am in the chair.

Yes, I know most of these look the same. I have a magazine to go through as well. I showed hubby and he told me to keep looking. You know what though, never once in the 12 years we’ve been married has he EVER liked my hair cut. No matter what I do, he doesn’t like it. So phooey on him. Number 2 — IT’S JUST HAIR!! It will grow back.

I knew it on Saturday when I was trying to make a grocery list. See, I plan out my whole menu for the entire week. I know what I’m going to eat for breakfast, lunch, dinner every day. I know the amount of calories of each and that way I can plan snacks accordingly. I knew it wasn’t going to be a good week when I just couldn’t find anything to cook. I half-heartedly found things that I didn’t really want to make, but they sort of looked good on paper (Monday’s dinner looked good on paper but was horrible for real). I knew it wouldn’t be good. And it hasn’t been. My Aunt Flo is partly to blame. I hate her… she makes me hormonal, moody (I’ve been feeling on the verge of tears for the past 3 days and that is NOT like me) hungry and so freaking tired. Besides her, I’m just blah. I think the house thing has me under more stress than I realize.

So yesterday was not a good day. We ended up going out to eat for dinner because hubby had to go to the bank and it’s WAY on the other side of Orlando from us and I was laying in bed in my pajama’s when he got home from work. He knew I was in no mood to cook so he took me out. Blah… This morning, he’s sick so I had to take both kids to school so I stopped at Chick-fil-a and got a chicken biscuit.

As a side note– why are men such BABIES when they get sick? When I get sick, I go to work, I cook, I clean, I take care of the kids… there is no time to rest. What does he do? Calls in sick to work. Really? He has a headache and a sore throat. Wahhh.. In about 2 months I’ll have my annual sore throat that persists from around Christmas to sometime in March.

I’m going to try to keep exercising this week if only to keep that on track because I already know my eating won’t be. If the weather clears up, I’ll go running tonight around the lake after I take my son to church. The weather has been PERFECT for running outdoors here lately and I love it.

Keep on keeping on, Sisterchicks.

It’s one of those days….

I’ll be better tomorrow.

I didn’t set out to have a lousy workout this morning. I had a training session scheduled so that at least got me out of bed. I got to the gym late because I have been so tired lately and it’s been hard to get up. I walked on the treadmill for about 5 minutes but noticed my trainer wasn’t there yet. So I went and stretched — still no trainer. It’s now after 5:30. So I figured I might as well hop on the treadmill again and at least break some sort of sweat. I walked for 20 minutes. I ran for a few of those and walked at a 10.5% incline for about 10 minutes. Then I did a few weight machines. By then it was 6 and I noticed my trainer coming in. I asked if she forgot about me. She asked if I had gotten her text messages. Uh, no. She had texted me last night and this morning saying she wasn’t going to make it. I guess they didn’t come through because I always check my phone in the morning in case my friend has texted me. She felt really bad, but I told her not to worry. I still exercised. Sure enough, when I got to my locker and checked my phone.. there they were. Oh well. I’m not upset. I cancelled on her last Thursday so no biggie.

BUT…. I did weigh myself again today and I dropped 1 lb. So I am at 201.something!! I am getting closer to the 190’s and it’s exciting.

Here’s a question though… I’ve dropped about 20lbs if not more since Thanksgiving last year. Why are my 18’s still fitting fine(just a little loose) and i have only 1 pair of 16’s I can get into?! WTF is up with that?!

My nemisis. The weekends always find a way to derail me. It’s not really the weekend’s fault obviously. It’s my own fault. I’m working on it though. I think if I could beat the weekends it would help tremendously in my efforts.

Yesterday was good… I haven’t tracked all my calories yet, but I should be good. Despite the chicken sandwhich (lunchmeat) I ate between getting home and my son’s soccer game. I had the worst cramps and needed to eat so I could take some super-strength ibruprofin. But we didn’t go out to eat after the game like we usually do. That killed two birds with one stone. I knew the amount of calories I was eating AND we saved some money.

Today some friends are coming over for dinner. One couple is our normal “over for dinner on Saturday” friends. The other couple are good friends of ours as well, but they have been in Kenya for the past year and are finally back in the states. It will be good to be able to spend some time with them. I have fajitas cooking in the crock-pot right now. They are starting to smell so good. I’m going to try to limit my calories today so I can enjoy. Although, I won’t eat the meat (it’s steak). I’m going to saute some veggies and make some rice and maybe black beans to have with mine. YUM!!!

My son is going to a “Scary Sleepover” tonight for his cousin’s birthday. We’ll see how that goes. I have a feeling I’ll be having to drive to go get him at like 2am to pick him up. I’m hoping not. My mom is going to keep the baby so we’ll be able to actually enjoy the time with our friends uninterrupted.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

So, as i was riding along on my horomonal roller coaster yesterday (have I mentioned how much I LOVE being a woman?) I consumed almost 200 calories more than my max allotment for the day should be. Considering my gorge fest at breakfast and the 2 snacks I inhaled between getting home from work and taking my son to soccer practice, I felt okay about that. Not good, but I knew it could have been a lot worse. It has been worse in the past.

So we get home from soccer and my husband tells me he has to go meet the A/C people at the new house in the morning (today) to give them a check (sellers are paying for the replacement, we are paying for some sort of upgrade to make it more energy efficient) and he won’t be able to take the baby to daycare. Did I mind? Hmmm… I didn’t get to the gym yesterday morning and I really didn’t want to miss 2 days. So I told him no, as long as he didn’t mind me going last night once the kids were to bed (nothign on TV anyway except the debate) He said no so once I got my son to bed, I hit the gym.

I wanted to run, but it had been almost a week since I had run and knew it would be difficult. I decided to jump into week 5 of C25k to get some structure and motivation. And it worked. I ran the three 5 minute intervals without any problems. I also ran once the whole thing was over. I had put the treadmill to go fo 45 minutes, I just wanted to see how far I would get. I finished a 5k in a little over 40 minutes so I used the remaning time to slow my heart rate down. I ran a few times at over 6mph too!! Not for very long, but just to see. I think I might continue with the program to see what happens. See if I can increase my endurance. Plus, the music was MUCH MUCH better on week 5 and that was my whole hangup with week 4.

So I burned up 450 calories on the tready plus I did a circuit of arm weights so I’m sure I burned more off there. See, redemption. I did not let the horomones beat me yesterday. Yesterday was a lunch from Tijuana Flats sort of day and I did not let it become that. Progress.

Okay, so now a rant. I hate this: I’m at the gym last night. It’s 9:30pm so the gym is pretty empty. There is a WHOLE ROW of EMPTY treadmills just waiting to be used. What does this one guy do? He gets on the one next to me and starts running away at like 8 mph. Really? Why the one right next to me? Number one, there were plenty of other ones to be had. Number two, he really was not that good looking and I may have been able to excuse it just a tad if he was. Number 3, I felt as if he were suffocating me (I have personal space issues as you can see) Grrrrrrrrrrrr.

And now I leave you with some insight as to why I go to NY as often as I do. You would too if this is what you were going to be looking at on stage:

I really should look into therapy

THE DEVIL!! Homemade cupcakes… chocolate with chocolate frosting. UGH!!! And I am hungry!! I ate breakfast (my usual oatbran with blueberries) but I am already hungry! MUST. RESIST. CUPCAKES.

QUICK — where’s my gum?!

***Getupnow is right. I do have a trip for Halloween to NY to see my guys. I have resisted cupcakes thus far. The cupcake craving is over, but I am still hungry. I pinpointed my problem though and it’s the fact that it’s once again that time of the month. Ahhh… I love being a woman I have eaten a pear and no matter how hungry I get, I will force myself to wait until lunchtime. I only have so much food that I bring with me each day. I have my water and my gum and that will hold me over!!!

I hope bigprof really isn’t holding her breath because I don’t want anything bad to happen to her. We definitely are not closing on Friday but only because the sellers will still have repairs being done. We are getting a whole new A/C unit (inside and out) since the other is probably as old as the house and full of mold and yuckiness. They are doing all the roof repairs and some of the electrical repairs as well. The main electrical repair we were going back and forth about will not be done so that will be out of our pocket. We are okay with that because we are getting a NEW A/C UNIT!! We will have to do the electrical repair because it will significantly drop our homeowner’s insurance once we do.

Hopefully we will be able to close sometime next week. I found out I can get a discount for the flooring so I will actually pay less than cost, which is good. One of our best tile installers is back in the country for awhile, so I asked him today what he would charge me since he is in love with me. He said he’d give me a price tomorrow. Hopefully it will be cheaper than what I would pay at our rates.

And the results are…… DOWN 5lbs!!! WOO WOO!!! I decided to bite the bullet and weigh myself today at the gym. I figured it would be where it normally is (between 207-208) because of my weekend and of course I’ve only been tracking calories for 1 week now. NO, I am down 5lbs!! The scale read 202.something (I hate not having a digital scale).

I told my trainer today that I want to start targeting my butt area. I have all these pants that I think would fit around my waist now but I can’t get them over my butt!! (Really, getupnow, I’ll trade) So we are going to start working on that.