Confessions of a Bulk Eater

I had a bad day at the gym yesterday. It wasn’t bad in the fact that I got injured or anything like that. I just wasn’t feeling it Not only that, I didn’t make it through my second day of week 4 in the C25k program. I had to stop at the second 5 minute run. For some reason it was really difficult yesterday. I couldn’t find my groove yesterday. Not only that, my legs were still sore from Saturday. Now I’m wondering if I just used that as an excuse. The music for this week is just killing me. It’s too slow! I know the point is to take it slow - it’s not a race, it’s about building endurance - but I need a back beat to push me along. Either that or put the words on the freaking instumental guitar songs so I’m not racking my brain trying to figure out what song it is!!!! Sorry… I got a little off subject there. I’m wondering if I should just do week 4 to my own music. But I don’t want to watch the timer the whole time on the treadmill. It makes it worse I think. Once I stopped my sad attempt at running, I did do some weight machines - abs and legs. Then I left. I could(should) have stayed longer, but I just wasn’t in it.

My food was good yesterday though:

Breakfast: shredded wheat, blueberries, fat free milk, splenda

Lunch: Salad - lettuce, homemade chili pinto beans, fat free cheese, tomatoes, fat free sour cream, salsa; watermelon

Dinner: w/w vanilla smoothie with blueberries and fat free milk; salad with lettuce, tomatoes, green pepper, fat free french dressing

Snacks: grapes, watermelon, banana

All core foods yesterday! YAY!! Just wish I could have done better at the gym. Hopefully I’ll snap back into gear either tonight or tomorrow when I go.

Would you like to know what I ate yesterday….

Breakfast: shredded wheat with some sort of fruit (I don’t remember) — core

Lunch: Black Bean and Mushroom Chili — core
1/2 grilled cheese sandwhich

Snack: some chocolate peanut butter POPS cereal that I bought my son. WHA!?! Let me tell you, it was SO good. I don’t even like cereal that much but I can tell this one will be hard to stay away from. This will be the last time I buy it, I’m sure.

Dinner: I let hubby choose dinner location since it was Father’s Day. I would have cooked, but couldn’t get ahold of him before I went to the store. He chose Tijana Flats. Now remember, I had just been there Saturday night and did well. This time though I didn’t want to be good. I had black bean nachos. Ugh… I paid for it though. I felt sick this morning when I woke up. I used to feel like that just about every morning. That sick, full feeling from eating too much and then going to bed. I’m glad I don’t feel like that much anymore. And when I do, I know I have brought it upon myself.

I’m sure there was other stuff I put in my mouth yesterday, but I can’t remember. I seem to remember grazing through the day.

So I’m back on the wagon today. And I’ll be hitting the gym tonight too.

There is no longer anything resembling healthy food in my house. I have to buckle down this week since Friday is weigh in night. I’ve had some slips this past week and have to rectify them somehow. Lots of exercise and keeping on track!!

Happy Fathers Day to all father’s out there. My husband got to go diving for Fathers Day. He’ll be home sometime today. Works out because I don’t have to get him anything or take him out for dinner I don’t think we’ve actually celebrated a Father’s Day together for about 2 or 3 years now. Something has always come up on that weekend that one of us is out of town. Oh well.

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I am still spaghetti legged. My butt still hurts from the seat. Spinning is definitely NOT my cup of tea!!

Went to the gym this morning and did week 4 day 1 of C25k. Results are on my C25k page. Read them there. Then I decided to try the spinning class. BIG MISTAKE I felt like I was going to throw up half way through. There was one other new “spinner” in the class. I’m glad I wasn’t the only one. I wasn’t able to do everything. I couldn’t stand up when everytime she wanted us too, or stand up only a little bit. But I kept spinning the whole time. I was SO glad when it was done. I wanted to quit part way through but I didn’t want to look like a wimp. I kept thinking to myself “I should have done the step class, I should have done the step class.” Next week I will be going to the step class.

After the gym, I took the kids to the pool. It felt good to get into the cool water. Then we went to lunch and came back and took a long nap. Then we went to the library and then dinner. Now we are back at the house just hanging out. I have laundry to fold, but I am putting it off.

Food has been not that great today, but not totally out of control either. Dinner was my only downfall:

Breakfast: 1/2 a W/W smoothie with strawberries and blueberries before the gym

Snack: 4 cantelope melon balls afer the gym. A handfull of goldfish at the pool

Lunch: 3/4 of a whole veggie sub from Firehouse Subs (no mayo); jalepeno potato chips

Dinner: Taco Salad from Tijuana Flats: lettuce, black beans, cheese, sour cream, jalapenos, salsa. And of course…… chips and queso. I am proud of myself though for getting the salad. I have never had one of their salads. I normally get tacos or nachos. But I opted for the more healthy choice. Baby steps.

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Ugh, today wasn’t a terrible day, but I made a few bad decisions. I resisted going out to lunch but then a few people wanted to go get ice cream after lunch so I went with them and got that AND onion rings (I didn’t eat all of them though). Then for dinner I ended up with a veggie sub (no cheese) and ate chips and salsa. I am hungry now and really want some pizza bagel bites but I am blogging instead of eating.

Breakfast: shredded wheat, strawberries, blueberries, splenda — core

Lunch: salad-homemade chili pinto beans, lettuce, red pepper, fat free cheese, fat free sour cream, salsa — all core

Dessert: 1/2 diet coke float; 3 onion rings — so definitely NOT core

Dinner: footlong veggie sub with fat free mayo, NO CHEESE — core except the bread; chips and salsa — NOT CORE

I am going to go to the gym first thing tomorrow morning. I have the kids all by myself and the kids klub (I hate that they spell it like that) is only open from 8-11. Even though it’s midnight, I know the kids will be up that early. There is a spinning class at 9 that I am sort of interested in trying. Burn 700 calories in 45 minutes — yeah, I’m there!! I plan on running first though or else I’ll never get on the treadmill after the bike.

That was my mantra last night. Get my booty on the floor!! After feeling blah all day, I decided to go ahead and go to the gym. I figured if I went and at least played one game, I might be in the mood to keep playing. So 10 minutes on the elliptical machine, 3 hours of volleyball and some weight machines later, I went home at 10:00. So much for getting to bed early. But it felt GOOD! And once I started playing I definitely wanted to keep playing. The skill level was great. From what my husband told me last week, I was a little nervous going in. I consider myself a fairly decent player but there are always those better than me. But I was fine. I shouldn’t have been nervous. My skillz were totally up to par!

Oh, and dinner last night ended up being a few peices of cantalope. I didn’t eat before I went to the gym, but had played so hard that I didn’t feel like eating anything heavy or hot when I got home. Plus, that sandwhich stuck with me a long time!! So I cut up a cantalope and ate a few pieces of that.

Today is becoming an off day. Everything is off. I think it stems from taking a day off in the middle of the week. I did not want to get up and go to work (well, I never want to do that but today is worse). I ate breakfast just fine, but by lunch I was jumpy and had to get out of the office. Even though I had been gone for 2 hours at the doctors already. So a co-worker and I went out to lunch. We went to Roly Poly which is a wrap place. I could have been good and gotten a veggie wrap as I have in the past, but instead I got a whole cuban wrap. Definitely not core and set me back 620 calories. Plus the Jalepeno chips I had with it. That was probably another 300 or so. Oy! Not sure what the problem is. I’m tired. I think that’s part of the problem.

Want to know the weirdest thing: today is open volleyball at the gym and I DON’T FEEL LIKE GOING!! That is very bizarre behavior for me. I want to go to bed early though since hubby is leaving to go diving tomorrow and I’ll have the kids on my own all weekend long. I know they will wear me out. I want to go to the gym though and do something! Like the elliptical machine or something to move my lard butt. Maybe I’ll go for a walk after dinner around the lake if it’s not raining or too hot. Maybe try to run on my own (without Robert Ullrey moving me along that is) and see how I do.

Someone come and kick me into some motivation for today.

**sigh** Tomorrow is another day.

Today is my son’s 6th birthday. I can’t believe I have a six year old. I took the day off and he and I went to the beach. Hubby took the baby to daycare so we didn’t have to worry about her. It was fun! I can’t believe how much difference a year makes. A year ago I couldn’t even get him in near the water when we went to the beach. Today, we were in the water for 3 hours!!

Can I mention a pet peeve of mine? This happened at the gym today and I’m not sure why it bothers me but it does. It was 9am so the gym was EMPTY. There are all of 4 people using the 25 or so treadmills that they have. This girl comes in and picks the one RIGHT NEXT TO ME!!! Wha! It’s the same as when you are in a parking lot and it is empty and you are parked way out in the middle but someone has to come and park RIGHT NEXT TO YOU!! Wha?! It’s just a pet peeve, but it bothers me. Like there are plenty of other places to park or plenty of other treadmills to choose. Why the one right next to me?! And of course she was running much faster and longer than I was. Grrrrr….

Day 3 of C25k. The details are on my C25k page. I can’t believe I’m a third of the way through. That’s all I did at the gym today. I wanted to get to the beach before the rain. I still felt good though.

Food today has been a little dicey. Only because I was on the go all day and not at work.

Breakfast: pumpernickel bagel with very little jalepeno salsa cream cheese from Einstien Bagels

Lunch: 1 chipotle bbq grilled chicken snack wrap and 1 honey mustard grilled chicken snack wrap from McDonalds (I avoided the fries! Didn’t even take my son’s! YAY ME)

Dinner: making Chicken and Potato casserole — core

We are having my grandparents and mom over for cake and ice cream. I bought myself some of the weight watcher ice cream cups so I can indulge guilt free (I’m not a big cake fan so that’s not a problem)

Breakfast: shredded wheat, fat free milk, strawberries, splenda — all core

Lunch: salad with lettuce, fat free cheese, homemade chili pinto beans, hot sauce, salsa, fat free sour cream — all core

Snack: watermelon/cantalope ; frozen grapes — all core

Dinner: it went down hill from here. I was SO SO hungry. My feeling of just wanting to eat had not gone away. We went to Sweet Tomatos for dinner and I sort of overdid it. Lots of salad and lots of bread. Could have been worse I guess. There are so many other foods out there I could have over indulged on so I guess salad and bread isn’t all that bad.

Whew… now that’s over. I don’t feel like eating my weight in food (which would be an awful lot!). Tomorrow will be a challenge because I am taking the day off of work and taking my son to the beach.

I was wondering about this the other day and today I see an interesting article on MSN about it. If you are interested in reading the whole article, you can see it here.

Basically, it’s what has been mentioned here. Outside there is scenery, inside is tedious. Indoors is air conditioned, outdoors is not. I think that’s what keeps me going back to the treadmill. Running outside in Florida in the middle of the summer is not my idea of a good time. I think I’ll stick to the treadmill until mid fall when it cools down a tad.