Confessions of a Bulk Eater

Okay, maybe not EVERY bad thing, but most of them! He did the BEST thing today!! He got BOTH of us gym memberships!!! We have talked about it in the past, but never did anything about it. This afternoon he went and got us memberships and then went and bought me an IPOD since he wants his MP3 player back!! YAY!!! So now I have a place to run if it is raining (which it will be soon since hurricane season starts tomorrow) AND a place to do some weight training. I want to get rid of these chicken wings that have taken the place of my arms. I have never had a problem wearing tank tops until this year. I have the boobs, but my arms have dissappointed me this year. All flabby. Which is sad. I mean, I carry my kids around and do all sorts of stuff, but they are flabby flabby flabby. Blah… I want to become a HARD BODY. At least in the arms.

So… here’s what happened at the party. I was STARVING. I hadn’t eaten since breakfast and it was almost 3 when we finally ate. Jase’s friend’s mom had made turkey burgers with jalapenos, red peppers, and cheddar cheese in them! YUM!!! I ate one with a whole wheat bun. The cheese made the burger not core, but I don’t think there was enough in it to even equal 1 point, so I am going to say the burgers are core. The bun - obviously not. Corn on the cob - core. The butter not so much. And LOTS AND LOTS of watermelon - core. I did have a piece of double chocolate pie **blush** but it was a small peice and it was SO good!!! I am still proud of myself for what I ate. It could have been a lot worse.

I did go running when I got home. Started week 2. It was a lot easier than I thought it would be (and a whole lot easier than when I did it last week by accident) On the running parts I kept listening to the beat of the music and saying “push”, “push”, “push.” It seemed to help.

I ate a few bites of dinner when I got home and cleaned up. Leftovers from last night. I wanted something sweet afterwards, but instead of eating a peice of cake that was sent home, I ate some watermelon that was sent home.

So my husband wanted to go to breakfast this morning (which we do just about every Saturday) I was a little skeptical since I am doing WW Core plan and I get nervous eating out. But I was bound and determined to stick to plan. We went to Denny’s (with 2 little kids, you can’t be picky) and I got:

Veggie Omelet NO CHEESE
Grits NO BUTTER

WOO HOO!!! That was all core!! As far as I know. Now I don’t know how they cook the eggs (if they cook in butter or whatever) but if that’s the case, I’m sure it didn’t add many points. Not as much as the cheese would have! I am proud of myself. I actually went to a restaurant and stuck to plan.

Now I have a volleyball game at noon and then I’ll run this evening since I wasn’t able too this morning. I still have a challenge. My son is going to a friend’s bday party this afternoon. I’ll be hungry when I get there, and I’m sure there will be chips and snacks and things to munch on. MUST. BE. STRONG

Breakfast: shredded wheat, fat free milk - core

Lunch: salad with broccoli, caulflower, tomatos, onions, sprouts, mushrooms (all core), shredded mozzarella cheese, raisins, sunflower seeds and sweet and sour french dressing — 8pts (weekly total 22/35)

Snack: a few bites of Chicken Picadillo from last night core I think this is where part of my problem lies.. snacking between work and dinner. But by the time I get home, I’m starving and I need something to take the edge off until dinner is done. If not, I’m like a raging ravenous lunatic.

Dinner: whole wheat couscous, veggie-casserole bake (kidney beans, chickpeas, tomatos, corn, peas, onion, green pepper) core

I have done well. I even went to the movies tonight (Indiana Jones AGAIN!!) and didn’t eat anything there!

I’m jumping in on the bandwagon uninvited. Gate crashing. getupnow and bigprof have started a challenge to lose 10lbs in the next month. I am jumping in with them.

Back in March, my goal was to lose 30lbs or so by mid July when I went back up to NY. Well, I’ve only lost 4 since then and I am now going to NY in June instead. I’m a little behind in my goal here. SO, it’s hardcore until June 27th when I go back to NY. I would like to lose 10lbs by then, but I don’t think it will happen — that’s over 2lbs a week. As much as I can though and staying on track until then. Also, I am doing a 5k on July 4th, and i would like to be able to run most if not push myself to run all of it. I won’t quite be to the end of my C25K training, but it will be close enough.

I can acheive both of those goals by sticking to my eating plan and not diverting to stuffing my face with junk and exercise. Exercise being running 3 times a week and either walking or doing Slim in 6 on the off days.

I don’t have a fancy little ticker on my page like they do, but I am going to do it. Hope you don’t mind the company, ladies!

Is it tacky to bring one’s own salad dressing to a restaurant? I am going to lunch today with a friend, and I have been there before and know what they have. I am getting the Nature’s Salad chock full of good things, BUT they do not have any fat free dressings at this restaurant (it’s a small diner). They have a “Lite Ranch” but I don’t really want ranch, and it’s probably low cal, not low fat. Anyway, I brought salad dressing to work with me today and am going to bring it with me. I don’t care one way or another. This is my body and I am trying to take care of it.

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UGH, so I totally forgot the dressing at work! I was so excited about seeing my friend (she used to work here and came by first) AND the fact she said she had a magazine with Harrison Ford in it for me, I totally forgot!! BUT, I still got the salad. I thought about forgetting the whole thing and getting something else, but I kept to the original plan. Salad with broccoli, cauliflower, tomatoes, sprouts, onions, mushrooms, raisins, sunflower seeds, and a smidgen of shredded mozzarella. The only things not core were raisins, sunflower seeds, and the cheese. I don’t know how many points, but there wasn’t much of them so can’t be too many. The dressing though was what killed it… Sweet and Sour French - it’s SO good. Eh, so maybe 7 or 8 points, and that is probably exaggerated.

Breakfast: a DISASTER!! I took fat free plain GREEK style yogurt and mixed in vanilla extract and some splenda. That would have been okay, except I then mixed it with some shredded wheat. Now I have done yogurt and cereal before, but this was just bad! I think the thickness of the yogurt combined with the fiber in the cereal and basically made a thick paste. I could have given it to one of our tile installers to set tile with. I think I ate about 5 bites or so before I gave up. Still all core.

Lunch: salad with lettuce, grape tomatos, and fat free Ceaser Italian dressing; leftover eggplant lasagna — all core

Work Snack: 1 Alternative Bagel — 1 pt (33 weekly points left)

Home Snack: 1/4 of an apple — core

Dinner: brown rice, Chicken Picadillo (w/w recipe), sauteed zuchinni (no butter or oil), salad with lettuce, grape tomatos, chick peas, f/f french dressing — all core

No exercise tonight. Boo But we went shopping, so I guess I got some “walking” in. We did end up at Sports Authority and I got one of those shirts that keep the moisture off of you. I thought I would try it for running since it is summer and the bowels of hell have moved to Florida.

Evening Snack: I try not to do this, but I was hungry. I think it stemmed from my disasterous breakfast. SO, in order to stay core, I ate a few chickpeas, a few bites of the eggplant lasagna, and some fat free milk. I didn’t want to do it, but I was hungry (okay, I am whining) BUT, it was all core and I didn’t fall off the wagon. Husband wanted to go to Steak and Shake to get a milkshake on the way home from shopping, but I refused (and I was driving, so he was out of luck)

All in all, a good day. I’m proud of myself.

Okay, so it’s only day 2, but it’s all about the encouragement, right. Postive self-talk? And that is huge for me. Yes, I know the day isn’t over yet so I am being proactive in telling myself I am back on track to keep myself on track. Still following the Core Plan. I get 35 extra points during the week if I eat something that is not Core, but I haven’t used any yet.

Breakfast: this brown rice cereal thing I made last night… I won’t make it again. It wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t something I would want again.

Lunch: salad with lettuce, corn, kidney beans, tomatoes, salsa, fat free ranch dressing. Oh, and a short 5 minute nap.

Snack at work: apple

I still have to make it home, make dinner, and go running. I’m sure I will eat something while I cook dinner — one of my biggest problems — but I have celery at home, so I’ll probably crunch on that. Maybe put some PB2 on them. It’s only 1 points — or maybe 2, but not a lot. And it tastes just like peanut butter to me, so it’s like cheating but not.

I’m making Eggplant Lasagne tonight. If it’s good, I’ll post the recipe. I’ve never made it before — well, I’ve never made THIS eggplant lasagne. And I must go running again to stay on track. That way I can start week 2(again?) on Saturday. I’ll update later.
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I did it again… stayed on track. The only thing I cheated on was garlic bread with dinner, but it was only 4 points but that’s okay because I still have 31 of my extra points avaliable

Dinner: Eggplant Lasagna again from the Fat Free Vegan Recipe Database. Again, if you are looking for something healthy and yummy that is the place to look. Anyway, it was good, but not really lasagne… more like casserole. No pasta obviously, but it was “soupier” than other eggplant lasagnas I have made. Maybe too much sauce? It was good though. I also had a salad with lettuce, spinach, grape tomatos and fat free Cesear Italian Dressing. Plus the garlic bread. I was HUNGRY though since I ran before i ate. Totally worth it.

I ran again.. I don’t know if I should have or not. That’s two days in a row with no rest, but I did okay. I tried to focus on the music during the running part, not the fact I was dying. It seemed easier today. I am wondering though if I am ready to go to week 2 on Saturday or if I should do week 1 again. Maybe I’ll try it (I mean, I did it the first time out accidently). I don’t know. Someone may need to talk me into it over the next few days. My legs are a little sore. I’ll definitely be taking some ibuprofin before I go to bed. Man, I feel so old. That’s the 3rd time I’ve done that this week.

Two days of rest coming up though. I want to do something during those days.. not just sit on my ass. I’ll probably do Debbie. That is if the kids let me……..

Seriously, it’s time to buckle down. Time to stop screwing around, stop making excuses and just DO IT. I’ve sabatoged myself for almost 6 months now and it’s ridiculous! How many pounds could I have lost in that amount of time? I could have been to my goal by now.

Okay, enough looking back… time to start looking forward. I started again today. I have decided to do the Weight Watcher Core program. I’ve done it before and it does seem to work. There is no counting points, just basic “rules”. And you can eat as much as you want until you feel SATISFIED!! That’s the trick. I’ve done this before and gained weight, but I ate too much. It’s as much as you want until you are SATISFIED. So that’s what I did today… so far at least. I have awhile to go until I get to the end of the night.

Here’s the breakdown so far though:

Breakfast: mini shredded wheat cereal (NOT FROSTED) and f/f milk: all core. I didn’t even finish my cereal. I was still feeling full from last night’s slaughtering of the cow but had to eat before i left the house for work. I ate a few bites and was done. Didn’t push myself to finish the bowl.

Lunch: salad with lettuce, tomato, kidney beans, corn and fat free ranch dressing: all core.

Snack: pear - core

I’m doing okay so far. I have an hour and a half left before I leave work and that is usually the worst time. I am chewing gum though to try to keep the munchies away. I do have an Alternative Bagel in my drawer if I can’t hold out. It would only be 1 point. I MUST run when I get home, or at least while everyone else is eating dinner, since I didn’t go last night.
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So I did it!! I stuck to plan ALL DAY and I ran. I came home and made dinner for the fam and when hubby got home, I hit the pavement. Then I ate when I got home. I sort of feel bad about doing that, but really, no matter when I decide to exercise, it’s never a good time. And I’m feeling like I’m not getting support from hubby because of it. He has never said anything, it’s just the vibe I pick up from him when I do go exercise. It’s always been like that. I’m like “Dude, your dinner is on the table.. what else do you want from me.” Ugh, men.

Snack when I got home: banana, 2 celery ribs

Dinner: Skillet Gardener’s Pie from Fatfree Vegan Kitchen. If you are looking for something healthy and delicious for dinner, I wholeheartedly reccommend Susan’s site.

Well, really only yesterday was bad. I’m not going to go into it, but we went to a cookout at someone’s house that we didn’t know. There was so much food, and I ate so much… didn’t want to be rude! That’s just an excuse… but I felt sick afterward.

Didn’t get to run yesterday. I was going to run with my friend last night, but when I called her yesterday afternoon she backed out. UGHH!!! If I had known that, I would have gone that morning before it got hot. It was 1:00 when I talked to my friend and way too hot to go then. My original plan was to run that night, but since we were at the cookout MUCH later than I wanted to be, that didn’t happen. It was 9 when we got home and by the time I got the kids bathed and in bed, almost 9:30. Too late to go then, plus I think I would have puked (although that wouldn’t have been a bad thing)

So here is my dilemma… yesterday was my day to run. I can go today AND tomorrow and be back on track OR just start over with today being day 1. Either way, I would still have Saturday as a running day, which I want b/c that is the one day I can do it first thing in the morning and get it over with. Not sure what I’ll do. I brought clothes with me to work today though. If it’s not raining on my lunch break, I am going to go for a walk (can’t run on lunch break, no where to shower afterwards). I have decided that it’s time to start screwing around and take this seriously. If I am going to be serious about the running, I have to be serious about the weight loss.

I did it girls! I did the first day. I figured if I didn’t do it today, I wouldn’t start. I would just keep putting it off and putting it off. So, I got out of bed and did it. I wanted to do it before it got brutally hot outside… yeah, it was already brutally hot.

So anyway, I figured I’d walk down to the lake by my house and walk the trail there. From the driveway of my apartment, around the lake and back is 2.22 miles. So I walked down there and started the program once I got to the lake. I was doing really well… even during the first run. Right before the second, I ran into my group leader and 2 ladies from my group walking around the lake too. They were on their way back but were going to turn around and walk with me, but I told them I was doing a program and I’d catch up with them. It was kind of nice because every time I passed them, they would shout some encouragement. Halfway though, I started to hit the wall. It was getting harder and harder to run, and my brisk walk was no longer brisk. But I kept going. I found that I would have to stop running before he said too, but it was only a few seconds before. I kept going though. I was wondering why it was so hard to run for 60 seconds. Then when I was done, I figured out why…. I WAS DOING WEEK 2!!!! NO WONDER!! I had actually been running for 90 seconds. And I had heard him say 90 seconds each time, but never thought anything of it! I felt better after that. I actually CAN run for 60 seconds.

So then I had to walk back to my house… slower and slower with each step I felt. Then I got home…. AND REMEMBERED I HAD TO CLIMB A FLIGHT OF STAIRS. Ugh. I got in and collapsed on the floor.

BUT I DID IT!! I am very proud of this. And my feet didn’t hurt and I didn’t get shin splints. THANK YOU NEW SHOES!!! So Monday I will do it again… using week 1 this time.

I have a few things to figure out though… maybe someone can help me:
1. I have to figure out the best way to deal with the wires from my MP3 player. The left side kept falling out of my ear, which was sort of annoying. I put the wires under my shirt, but I’m not sure what to do yet.
2. I get “sausage fingers” when I run (or walk) My fingers swell up and only feel better if I raise them over my head. It doesn’t hurt, they just feel tight.
3. What to do on the resting days. I’m afraid if I don’t do anything I’ll not want to run on the days I’m supposed too. I may walk, or I may do Debbie Siebers for some weight training. What do you other ladies do?