Several of you have inquired as to the story behind my October tickers. Well, I will tell you. getupnow had it right when she said
Do you have something special going on in October or is it just a general goal? I can’t remember if maybe you were heading up to see your friend and the band you mentioned or something.
Yes, I am heading back to Rochester for Halloween and my friend and I are again trying to drop weight for the big day. Partly so we can get a kick-ass halloween costume. We were “bad 80’s prom queens” last year and I guess we fit the bill since prom queens never weigh over 200lbs. We aren’t sure what our costume will be yet, but we are working on it. Another (very silly) reason is becuase we both have major crushes on 2 of the guys (mine is the electric guitar player, her’s is the bassist) and we just want to look good and make their jaw drop. It’s silly and girly, but still… whatever motivation you can get, right? And it could actually work. She is friends with the band so it’s not like we are just random people to them. They actually know us and talk to us. So now my big girly secret is out.. You guys should be honored. I don’t have a lot of girly secrets.
So anyway, I have a goal to lose 20lbs by then, which I think is a very attainable goal. 3 months/ 20 lbs, totally doable. My exercise ticker is just a motivation to do SOMETHING every day, whether it is the gym, or a walk or just playing with the kids. I need to do something active every day. Like the other day I counted playing with the kids in the pool as activity… because, well, it is. I know I can lose weight by just dieting, but I have found that I plateau really fast if I’m not exercising and just sort of stop losing weight.
On to other things… it’s a good thing I don’t have a NO SODA ticker because I TOTALLY blew that today. I got about 1 hour of sleep last night. Actually, I haven’t gotten more than 3-4 hours a night for the past two weeks since we’ve been home from Dallas. I think the baby has come down with HUGE separation anxiety because we were gone for so long and she won’t sleep unless she is right next to me… like TOUCHING me. This is bad because she was sleeping just fine in her crib before we left, and now not so much. I think it is a mixture of my mom NOT watching them at our house like we asked her and taking them to her house where the baby was totally out of her element and slept with my mom and the whole separation thing. What I’ve had to do lately is have her fall asleep with me, either on my bed or holding her and wait until she is in deep sleep, which takes about an hour or so. Then I move her to the crib. The problem is that she wakes up a few hours later and is like “WTF, how did I get back here” of course not really saying that, more just like screaming at the top of her lungs. I’m waiting for our downstairs neighbors to call the cops on us and me having to say “I’m not hurting her, she’s just mad because she’s in her bed!” Anyway, when that happens, I bring her BACK into bed with us and try to move her if she falls back into a deep sleep, but that doesn’t actually happen. I tried twice last night to move her and she woke right up. I’m a very light sleeper and a borderline insomniac, so it takes me a long time to fall asleep. Adding a baby to that mixture is not good. I can’t sleep because I have someone TOUCHING me and I can’t get comfortable, and if I do end up falling asleep, any movement she makes wakes me up. I just don’t know what else to do except bite the bullet and just let her cry it out. We’ve done that before with her (and with our son when he was little) and it works, but it takes awhile (ducking so the flames don’t hit me) and I’m just TIRED. The problem with that is she has learned how to say “mommy” so instead of crying, she really just screams “mommymommymommymommy” at the top of her lungs while crying and that is really really hard to listen too.
That was long and rambly….sorry. Didn’t mean to get totally of topic. If you’re still reading, you’re a trooper. Like I said I’m tired. I have a training session tonight at the gym so I will be forced to go, which is fine. I need to keep exercising. I have a 5 hour energy drink on my desk to shoot around 1:00 or so when I start to feel my eyelids drooping.
Okay, back to work…. 
**EDITED TO ADD: another reason to lose the weight by Halloween: my belly button peircing should be healed to the point I can change the jewelry by then. I would love to be able to get a new one and have it in at halloween. I feel a little foolish with it now since I have some weight to lose before it looks good, but I think 20lbs should do it. It would be nice to have a new one… a cool one.
I am not really worried about eating out of control today becuase not much is going on.
I walk out of there shaking. Oh well, it’s all for a good cause, right. One day the flab under my arm will be a thing of the past.
