So today’s weigh in was not a pretty sight! I am UP to #189.6 this morning. UGH. I know that I did nothing this week to think that I wouldn’t gain… but to see a number SO close to #190 again just kills me!  I have to deal with this emotional stuff big time!  I need to stop reaching for the chips when I’m having a moment and get my butt outside to walk - put in a yoga DVD or something! I HAVE TO GET CONTROL OF ME!

I’m sure that my sister is going to win the Christmas contest unless I really get everything lined up and going! I have a lot of catching up to do! I could really use that $150!

Mostly I’m frustrated with myself, and with life.  It sucks! It’s time to stop making excuses, and get myself together. I could kick myself right now!

I just read another 3Fatchicks Blog - and I was inspired.  No it wasn’t one  of those “I lost a bazillion pounds in 6 months” ones… it was a real woman, with real struggles.  The subject of her blog - Why she’s going to keep blogging.  Despite the backslides, despite the lack of time, etc.  she’s going to keep going!

I’m going to join her in her quest… i’ve started and stopped and restarted this blog I think 4 times now… and everytime I stop i gain.  I don’t have an outlet for the emotional stuff.  I quit my blogging, i eat like crap, I avoid exercise like the plauge and I shy away from the scale.. It’s time to fix that.  So not matter what I’m going to keep blogging. It may not be everyday, but definately more frequent then in the past!