I’m here, (at work) and I just have so much catching up to do that I just can’t handle it all, except in small doses. I’ve been hopping in and out of 3FC all morning, had lunch (last night’s leftovers – chicken breast, sweet potato and asparagus) and am now facing a long, long afternoon wishing I could just go on home.

I did very well with my eating yesterday – ate about 20 WW points, which translate loosely into a thousand calories. Today I may end up with a bit more, but that’s okay, actually. I should be between 22 and 24. I made a nice bag of frozen asparagus – all nice, slim young spears – to have with dinner last night thinking that DH would at least TRY them, but no, he opted for a salad out of a bag, so I had plenty left to take with me today, which was fine with me. I have never seen anyone so limited as to the vegetables they will eat as my danged DH! He claims that his mother was a poor cook and served everything way overdone and flavorless, which I understand of course, but the man is sixty-one years old! You’d think he could get past his mother’s cooking by now! I love broccoli, asparagus, cauliflower, eggplant, turnip, and all he will eat is green beans, spinach, corn and potatoes. I love zucchini squash & summer squash cooked together with a little onion & garlic, and of course that’s not anything he’ll eat, so I’m always making us separate vegetables. Now he probably WOULD eat acorn squash baked with a lot of brown sugar & butter, but I’m not about to make that….that would probably use up a whole day’s worth of points for me!

Anyway, who cares about food, anyway?

I heard something on the radio today about some research findings where they’ve discovered that choco-holics have a different sort of bacteria in their stomachs or in their intestines or some place than people who don’t crave chocolate or sweets. Wouldn’t I just have to get the BAD bacteria?!!?? I swear, one piece of chocolate, and I will eat it until I have a stomach ache. That’s why I just CAN’T keep sweets in any quantity in my house. I’m like an alcoholic when it comes to sweets and especially chocolate. I’m doing MUCH better lately, though. I’ve been buying those WW chocolate ice cream sandwiches (2 pts apiece) and if I have done real well with my points for the day, I allow myself one of those. And one seems to suffice, which is progress, to say the least.

You know, I realize how mundane all of this sounds, but at this stage of my life, I can only be philosophical in spurts. Whereas I frequently advise you-all to take a break from trying to figure out your lives, the older I get it seems the less I have figured out, and the less I care…or the less time I seem to spend thinking about it all. It occurs to me that I used to want answers to everything – and GOOD answers, if you know what I mean – good, logical, evidence-based answers, and I wasn’t satisfied with anything less. But now, more and more, I know that there are things I’ll never know – until I DO know them, maybe long after I’m gone from this vale of tears – and it’s getting more and more okay with me. I have to say that I’m quite fascinated with quantum physics, and have read – and attempted to understand – as much about it as I possibly can. I’ve watched “What the Bleep…” a number of times, and each time I watch it, I seem to “get” a little more of what they’re talking about. The trouble is that while it’s all really fascinating and intriguing, it doesn’t do much nitty-gritty EXPLAINING. Nothing seems to do that very well, so I’m pretty much convinced that every single one of us from the very beginning onwards has been seeking answers to the same questions. Some people would have us believe that THEY know the answers – many have written books of philosophy, of religion, of psychology and mythology, and I’m afraid that at least in my opinion, we’re ALL just feeling our way around and trying to understand our own purpose for being where we are – them, those authors, those mystics, those religious leaders and philosophers included.

Me? I dunno.

LOL.

I plan to get myself some rest this weekend. That I DO know.

Hugs all around,

E! (aka Z)