Good mood today. Liked my hair. Liked my makeup. Liked my outfit. Got the boy on the bus w/o too much fuss or rush. Work was fine. Felt ok physically. At very end of my period. Got out of work early, had little gumption at home. Looking forward to the 3 day weekend. Was wishing the man had been able to be home early too. Reading a lot of 3FC. Edited some old posts from last year. Just don’t want to see the weight numbers. Like the new tickers - goals in pounds to lose w/o the numbers from the scale.
Oh it’s Saturday. A day full of possibilities. I crashed on the couch last night - nothing new for me. Just got up about 9 am. The man is still sleeping. He probably won’t be up until noon or so. The boy is on his computer. I SHOULD do dishes and laundry and I SHOULD do some sort of exercise. Feeling ok - sinus headache as I continue to fight off this cold. We’ll see if any of my SHOULDS happen or if I am feeling too lazy!
So I got the gumption to do crunches. Then to do housework. But as always fought with the man. Stupid fights. We’re both such asses. My head hurts and my sinuses are worse because of the dust. I want to nap but if I do I’ll either be up all night or wake up too early b/c my back will hurt from lying in bed for too long.
We’ve both been through so much. Too many deaths on both sides of the family. We are both so worn out. We are walking separate paths. I am trying to do things to make myself healthier. He seems stuck in doing the minimum he needs to do for himself and spending most of his energy on work, the boy, and those in his family he feels need him. Nothing much left over for me/us. But then again I haven’t been putting much energy into him/us. It just doesn’t feel like a priority for either of us.
Ok so far today. Got a little grumpy at work but not as bad as I often do. Don’t feel like biting anyone yet today and physically I feel pretty good. My legs hurt but it’s a good hurt cause I know it’s from exercising.
Headachy. I’m wondering if I’ve had enough carbs today?
A little sore from exercising but it’s a good kinda “oh ya I forgot about THOSE muscles” of sore.
Yesterday I was really bummed about my blood sugars. I let my mood take over and used it as an excuse not to do things I know I need to do.
Today I’m more optimistic that if I continue to lose weight and continue to need/desire less intake I will get them under control.
My first tests of stress and PMS since starting these big changes:
I’m doing ok. I haven’t eaten some “extra” but it’s been w/in plan. I fell short on water one day. Exercise seems to take the hit the most. I’m still losing steadily and most importantly my blood sugar is doing so much better. I’m optimistic about my A1C in January.
I have been tired and more grumpy the last few days and I have found myself doing more grazing and unplanned eating but at least I’m keeping it in check.
Overall I feel good about what I’ve accomplished and how I’ve stayed on track. A’s support is a huge help and also the support of KB and KD.
August 29th, 2008 at 9:50 pm
Good mood today. Liked my hair. Liked my makeup. Liked my outfit. Got the boy on the bus w/o too much fuss or rush. Work was fine. Felt ok physically. At very end of my period. Got out of work early, had little gumption at home. Looking forward to the 3 day weekend. Was wishing the man had been able to be home early too. Reading a lot of 3FC. Edited some old posts from last year. Just don’t want to see the weight numbers. Like the new tickers - goals in pounds to lose w/o the numbers from the scale.
August 30th, 2008 at 9:01 am
Oh it’s Saturday. A day full of possibilities. I crashed on the couch last night - nothing new for me. Just got up about 9 am. The man is still sleeping. He probably won’t be up until noon or so. The boy is on his computer. I SHOULD do dishes and laundry and I SHOULD do some sort of exercise. Feeling ok - sinus headache as I continue to fight off this cold. We’ll see if any of my SHOULDS happen or if I am feeling too lazy!
So I got the gumption to do crunches. Then to do housework. But as always fought with the man. Stupid fights. We’re both such asses. My head hurts and my sinuses are worse because of the dust. I want to nap but if I do I’ll either be up all night or wake up too early b/c my back will hurt from lying in bed for too long.
We’ve both been through so much. Too many deaths on both sides of the family. We are both so worn out. We are walking separate paths. I am trying to do things to make myself healthier. He seems stuck in doing the minimum he needs to do for himself and spending most of his energy on work, the boy, and those in his family he feels need him. Nothing much left over for me/us. But then again I haven’t been putting much energy into him/us. It just doesn’t feel like a priority for either of us.
August 31st, 2008 at 10:22 am
This am - mood is ok though still headachy and didn’t get enough sleep and don’t want to go “up north” today.
The man and I were up very late having a heart to heart. Not sure how much we accomplished but we weren’t angry anymore which is a bonus.
September 2nd, 2008 at 5:47 pm
Ok so far today. Got a little grumpy at work but not as bad as I often do. Don’t feel like biting anyone yet today and physically I feel pretty good. My legs hurt but it’s a good hurt cause I know it’s from exercising.
September 3rd, 2008 at 7:10 pm
Headachy. I’m wondering if I’ve had enough carbs today?
A little sore from exercising but it’s a good kinda “oh ya I forgot about THOSE muscles” of sore.
September 5th, 2008 at 6:53 am
Tired. Was tired last night too.
September 6th, 2008 at 12:54 pm
Bumming about my blood sugars. Trying to figure things out.
September 9th, 2008 at 7:27 am
Yesterday I was really bummed about my blood sugars. I let my mood take over and used it as an excuse not to do things I know I need to do.
Today I’m more optimistic that if I continue to lose weight and continue to need/desire less intake I will get them under control.
September 21st, 2008 at 7:51 am
My first tests of stress and PMS since starting these big changes:
I’m doing ok. I haven’t eaten some “extra” but it’s been w/in plan. I fell short on water one day. Exercise seems to take the hit the most. I’m still losing steadily and most importantly my blood sugar is doing so much better. I’m optimistic about my A1C in January.
I have been tired and more grumpy the last few days and I have found myself doing more grazing and unplanned eating but at least I’m keeping it in check.
Overall I feel good about what I’ve accomplished and how I’ve stayed on track. A’s support is a huge help and also the support of KB and KD.