Learning to embrace the animal I am

I LOVE the 3FC forums. They get me thinking and I’ve realized its time to start defining my plan. I’ve sort of been coasting since I discovered Eat Well, Move Well, Think Well. I’ve been spending time getting my mind around the Think Well part and I’m getting there. I don’t think I’ll ever be at some magic finish line, but I’ve made big progress. I grew up in such a negative environment and it’s so easy to go there. I’ve been working really hard on positive thinking and being less judgmental. Getting myself out of a place of anger and fear.

And it’s been easy to make some minor healthy eating changes. At at the weight I was at, even minor changes made a pretty big difference. I’m down 35 pounds from March of 2007. And another 10+ pounds from my all time high. But really I’m only down 14 pounds since March of 2008. I already feel a big difference in my overall health from the changes I’ve made, but I’ve stalled.

So it’s time to be more defined in my plan and my goals. I’m going to join the September points challenge on 3FC. I need to make it the challenge meaningful for myself - like actually a challenge - but I also need to make it attainable.

I’m off to the bookstore in awhile to pick up the Insulin Resistance diet. I’m hoping to get some good help there on how to combine foods. I also had a long heart to heart with the man last night. I’m worried about him. I know I can’t make him change but I’d love to see him make the changes he needs to make too.

This is all relatively easy in my little bubble of a long weekend. The real test starts with the workweek and pms and all of that. It’s kind of like housework - easy when I’m home on the weekend to keep the place tidy, but all hell breaks loose during the workweek.

But it’s one step at a time, one choice at a time, and it takes a good long time to relearn how to live.

Oh ya, so the “Downsizing” I realized today that I’m doing this in a lot of ways - physically getting smaller, but also around the house. Getting rid of excess. Every garbage bag/give away bag I fill makes our small house feel so much more open and organized and yes I dare say it, healthy. Goodbye to clutter - mental and physical!