My Quest in Losing 50 lbs

Yeah, I have DEFINITELY fallen off the wagon.  Last night I pretty much ate all my points by 830 or so, and then I went to a party and drank.  No big deal because I don’t generally count points when I drink, even though I know I should.  THEN…I went to Jim’s Steakout.  And, I can practically guarantee that I gain this week.  If I do not gain, then it means that I will remain the same.  I had the Diavlo, the best sub ever.  The whole thing, which is probably close to 30 points.  And, since I have been out of flex points since Friday, that is not a good thing.  I certainly enjoyed the sub in my drunken stupor.  I knew what I was doing.  It’s not like I was shocked to find out that I ate a whole sub at 230 in the morning, but still…Now, I definitely regret it. 

On the other hand, however, the fact that I am showing remorse about eating something is a good sign.  When I was not watching what I eat and doing Weight Watchers, I pretty much ate like that ALL the time and didn’t even care what I ate or how many calories it probably was.  I just dove in and ate like a starving homeless person.  Even though I was certainly far from that.  Lol.   Small NSV for me, even though the scale will be saying otherwise on Wednesday. 

This week, I hit the almost 15 lb mark.  Well now that that has happened, my motivation seems like it is lacking.  I ended up making a goal of activity points for my one Weight Watchers message board that I am on, but I still haven’t done much towards that goal.  I had pizza Wednesday, then had some leftover pizza Thursday.  Then yesterday, I ate the last of my weekly flex points.  So I don’t have any extras until next Wednesday.  Yes, I can work out and get some activity points, but even when I earn them, I don’t get that many all at once.  I did the 30 day shred again today and for some reason it sucked worse than last time.  Gets easier my ass!!!  I have been on track today with following the plan, but I really just need to stop wanting bad food.  In addition to feeling off track, I think I am about to get my period which makes me crave salt like no other.  So, I’m pretty much fucked right now.  Lol.  I know that I can control it, but sometimes, ya just gotta give in!

I can’t stop eating junk!  I think that time of the month is lurking which is not good for my weigh in or my eating.  My food diary definitely has the signs of that.  It looks like I ate a pound of salt yesterday.  Lol.  I am starving, so I am going to go make my breakfast.

And the verdict is…I am down 2.4 for a total of 14.6!  Yay me!  Longer post later.  I deserve a nap.

I have run out of creative titles for my blog posts.  Lol.  Not much of anything going on today with my life.  I am tired and my glands feel swollen.  My weight was 173.4 today when I weighed myself, but I think that was due to the fact that I bought bite size tostitos last night and had quite the field day.  I ate 2 servings which didn’t put me over my points or anything because I had a LOT left, but I think the sodium and the night time generally mess me up in the morning because I don’t drink as much water at night because I don’t want to get up a million times in the middle of the night.  Other than that, I actually exercised yesterday.  Unfortunately though, that damn 30 day shred (all 5 minutes that I did) really messed up my quad muscles and getting up and down is quite a chore, so I am going to start doing it again my leg muscles stop hurting!  Yeah, I’m a baby.  Lol. 

If anyone who reads my blog has ANY idea how to add a weight tracker, like the tickers from the ticker factory that people use on the 3fc site, will you PLEASE leave me a comment and tell me how to do it???  I signed up for one and got it, but now I can’t add it to my blog.  Thanks in advance!

Thank you Thank you Thank you!!!!

No reason for the title…Just the first thing that came into my head!  Lol.  Weighed myself today and am back down to 172.6.  Thank god.  I almost cried w/ joy.  I haven’t had a gain yet at my weigh-ins, but if I had one that was 3.0 lbs I wouldn’t be toooo happy.  A small one I can deal with.  Today I plan on going for a walk with my BFF (haha I still love that) and I think I am going to do 8 minute abs and arms before that to get a little strength business in.  That Jillian Michaels is the devil.  I barely made it through the first circuit (man am I out of shape!!!) and my legs are sore today and so are my arms.  Apparently I have no done a push up in a VERy long time.  So, I thought I would give Jillian a break and go back to my tried and true 8 minute series.  Even though the guy is more annoying than a clown on crack, the exercises really do work and I can deal with 16 minutes of him today. 

I did really well yesterday with the eating and only ate my 24 points.  Man, am I not looking forward to going down more points, but once I go into maintenance I think I will probably have that many again.  Other than that, nothing really to say.  My allergies are OUT OF CONTROL today.  My nose is perpetually stuffed up and it sucks. 

Quick note…Why is it that rainy days make me want to do absolutely nothing and eat my brains out!?!??!  It is sooo crappy out today, dreary, rainy, humid, just blah and even though I know I have a lot of stuff to do, I just want to sit on the couch and do nothing.  Booo.

Weighed myself today…175.6.  Of course, last night I went a little crazy and ate a LOT of junk.  And I am sure there was a lot of sodium in what I ate (damn movie popcorn).  So, I really need to get BACK ON TRACK!  I think there is a slight possibility I am PMSing but I’m really not due for that for a little bit, so I don’t know.  My cycle has been a bit out of whack since I started WW again, so who knows?  I will be drinking a lot of water today and NOT going over my points at all so that I can see how I am doing tomorrow morning.  I am thinking I will have to be drinking gallons and gallons of water from now until Wednesday.  I know I don’t weigh in until Wednesday but I always have such anxiety about the scale and I am already stressing about it.  And its Saturday.  Lol.  I did get my 30 day shred so I am going to try that after I clean the crap out of my squalor ridden apartment.  Hopefully it goes well. 

The odd thing about my binge last night was that I ate a bunch of healthy stuff.  I guess it wasn’t really junk (unless you count the movie popcorn..and sno caps.  Lol.)  But when I got back I ate a small bag of freeze dried fruit, a potato and an onion sauteed in low fat butter w/ ketchup, some black beans cold…it was weird.  WHo knows???

So I know this will sound like the craziest thing ever…But, when I was sick yesterday I went to Wegmans and got some Tylenol Cold stuff and saw these bottles of juice called Cherry Pharm.  So, I looked at them and it was cherry juice and claimed to restore your health, etc.  And I thought, I like cherries.  Why not??  So I bought a small 8 oz bottle (a little pricey, but it was good) and brought it home.  I drank it and I SWEAR I almost felt instantly better.  I don’t know why, nor do I think I will find out, but wow!  I was quite impressed.  It was as if it just cured my throat instantly, which was weird because when I first drank a sip of it, it was tart and kind of HURT my throat…Weird, but I’m not complaining!!!

Since I am a freak and weigh myself every day, I also think that my sickness has actually messed up my weight.  I am up 2.4 since weigh-in on Wednesday, but I am attributing that to two things…1)  I didn’t drink barely any plain water yesterday and 2) I ate like 20 saltines and 4 cups of chicken broth, both of which have atronomical amounts of sodium.  So I am back on track today and drinking water like it is my job.  I WILL lose this water weight.  Mofo… LOl