cuteoldjeans

my original quit smoking day was for November 20th, 2008 and I did not want to procrastinate what I can do today. Soooo, I was ‘practicing’ quitting last week, and now I am quit again. I am within my first 24 hours as I quit yesterday at 1:30PM. I got the munchies late last night, so I ate two cans of fruit.

Now as for my healthful eating and exercise ~ it’s been difficult for some reason for me to get to the gym. I did go last week a couple times, but I used to go sometimes twice a day ~ I feel the depression has me a little overwhelmed and wanting to stay cooped up in doors, yet i must get out of this feeling. Is it possible to reach my goal of a size 7 when I am now a size 13-14? I wonder sometimes if this is even possible. I have not been a size 7 since high school! I have been a size 9 though and maybe that is more realistic. I’d be pleased to be at a size 9. I believe I can do anything I set my mind to, and for now it’s quitting smoking, so at the same time being a little gentle with myself, yet motivating myself in exercising. The eating isn’t as much of an issue for me. That is easier for me to tackle right now. I do love exercise! I really really do enjoy it! There is just something, something, holding me back now ~ maybe it’s psychological, and the drive I have always had to ’sabotages’ my self goals. Whatever it is , I hope I can get over this hump… and become all I can be…. through quitting smoking, exercise, healthful eating, breathing, etc. praying….

cutejeans.

today so far (it’s only 5pm) I have eaten without smoking:
- a frozen chicken breast filled with broccoli and cheese (it’s small) with little calories. I will write them next time I have one.
- apples with lemon and cinnamon
- rice cake with peanut butter
- spinach with fake spray butter and spice (no salt)

dinner - ?