it’s hard to believe another year has come and gone and it’s Halloween again. Well, I slipped and had two cigs… from a friend (menthol) I didn’t like them much. Really. I am a non smoker. really. This is day four. Please God help me have strength. I am drinking lots of water, I LOVE COFFEE , STILL. even without cigarettes. Well I shall blog more later, I am meeting a friend for coffee at 8AM ~ must get ready… cutejeans.
I am still smoke free! have found that I really enjoy coffee in the morning, still!
this morning - 1/2 cup pure oatmeal with honey
lunch -
dinner -
unsure -
will blog again later.
It’s going to be a brand new day, first day giving up smoking
I feel great! just a little hurt still, meaning over an old boyfriend, and an old life, but that’s all. it is a big deal, yet, I am truly singing in my heart now that I know it’s all in the past now and am placing my faith in God. I am also working to overcome my losses through positive actions. I am going to the gym today and finally it is sunny outside. Yeah!
breakfast ~ pure oats 1/2 cup with a little honey and coffee.
lunch ~ nothing
dinner ~ two small lean burger patties, small scoop scallop potatoes, corn. (in honor of my neighbor I made dinner)
late night - rest of scallop potatoes, can of green beans with spray butter, and pepper, and 3 tiny fit n active fruit crackers, baby carrots with light ranch dressing.
I feel really bad about the late night eating, yet I am not smoking either.
exercise! 40 minutes on elliptical.
will blog later! hope everyone is having a great day being true to themselves in who they want to become, (like exercise, eating healthful and me not smoking) and in who they already are on the inside (course I could work on that too) cutejeans
well I am feeling a little down and lonely, honestly. I am really going to focus on healthful choices like quitting smoking ( I only have one pack left after this pack is gone) and then no more taking the anti - anxiety medicine. I feel in tears. so the best thing to do is to work on myself and to feel better about myself through exercise and making it almost a hobby to eat healthfully again with really no cheating. I began cheating more so, because I had already lost some weight. But it is again back to my goals at becoming the best I can be. My initial goal was to quit smoking and taking the other medicine on November 20th, but that I have changed now. Wish me luck. I almost feel bad for not just dumping these cigarettes and pills down the toilet today, but well… cigarettes cost money, and I have already made my decision. It’s better than my initial date of November 20th anyway. When these are gone, they are gone! And I am not buying one more pack, ever! So I am going to blog more here. I don’t this instant feel the motivation but feel depressed. But hopefully will come out of it. I am 39 years old and not getting any younger, and I truly don’t want to feel fat on top of all I feel already.
this morning I am eating 1/2 cup of pure oats
coffee and drinking water.
I weigh about 187 — my goal is still to reach the solid 170’s by the end of November.
lunch - 1/2 cup non - fat free re-fried beans with onions and 2 eggs/hotsauce
dinner - my neighbor and I are going out for subway - I am having a blt… with extra vegge’s and low fat mayo… maybe I will make it into a salad? and lotsa water.
no exercise today ~ felt a little depressed and it’s very cold here. I shall see about going for exercise tomorrow.
today I ate:
breakfast - 1/3 cup strawberries and cream oatmeal
lunch - mustard/catchup on 2 egg sandwich ( I could have done without the bread)
snack - fruit crisp fit n activ
dinner - healthy choice italian style wedding soup
water & coffee
(well I blew it in the evening and ate two pieces of bread with butter on them, and two pieces of cinnamon toast.)
No exercise today
watching a movie now “the holiday”… I am single and live alone, tomorrow morning I am planning on attending a new church at 10:30 and perhaps going for either a walk with a girlfriend, or to the gym again. I am quitting smoking after these last three packs. Exercise will be my medicine. I am trying to gear up for this. In the meantime I am weening myself off of the anti anxiety pills which also slow down my metabolism and cause weight gain. This is taking away from myself two things at once, the smoking and the anti anxiety medicine, but I must not procrastinate any longer. If anyone can relate let me know. If not, write anyway for support. smiles. I picked up some onions and light mayo for light tuna bowls… and some light soups - healthy choice, and light request. It’s cold where I am at and soup just sounded good. They are not big chunky ones! They are really light.
Well my scale says 184 so that means 187 I need to get back to the gym… Oatmeal this morning. Salmon and eggs I guess for later ~ I have been blowing it on my eating … and a good recipe is apples with lemon and cinnamon on them… for snack. striving to keep on keeping on… my quit smoking day is November 20th.
I ate today:
breakfast - oatmeal
lunch - fresh salmon with two eggs
snack - rice cake with peanut butter
dinner - salad with light ranch
snack - fiber fit n active bar
coffee and water….
worked out at the gym 40 minutes on the elliptical, I am planning on quitting smoking after this carton is gone. whew and am getting a kitty cat! I am so happy about this. 
Well I ate very healthfully yesterday…
banana in the morning, bananna for lunch… (don’t want them to go bad) and for dinner I ate a big bowl of vegetables … cauliflower, snow peas, and carrots which I steamed those, and put some teriaki sauce on them with pepper. Taste quite healthful. Today I am planning to hit the gym now that my weight is back down to 184-185… my home scale says 181 but I always add two to three pounds for the doctors scale adds two to three pounds on there when I weigh at the gym. If I go to the gym today, I will jump on to the elliptical for a 40 min. ride. I use a Zune player, so could not use grabthebulls Ipod tricks. I need to get some of the songs off of my Zune though.
I have been striving to motivate myself to exercise as well at home on the carpet with my ball doing sit ups and stuff and also more weight training at the gym, but after 40 min. on the elliptical I feel I jump started my work outs again. Haven’t been to the gym for about a week. 
today I will blog what I eat:
banana in the morning - maybe with cream of wheat, again! with coffee. unsure about lunch, but for dinner, I am planning on salmon with broccoli and sweet onion and carrots in olive oil, and water or cranberry juice to drink. I will blog if I go to the gym. O’ I hope I do. I feel encouraged, now that I got those couple pounds off of me.
i did a boo boo… I weighed in. I am amazed because I gained weight! I have not even eated that much lately at all, however I have been taking anti - anxiety pills which lower my metabolism. sooooo… I am going to lay off those for a while until i feel triple stressed, and eat very healthfully. My goal is to reach mid 170’s by the end of the month. I know I can do it! I get discouraged to exercise when I have put on weight. I always feel I need a “kick start” or something, like a day without pills and eating completely healthfully with lots of water, or tea. I have a doctors appointment on November 19, the day before I quit smoking and I want to impress the doc with my weight loss. I know that may sound so silly ~ but my blood pressure seems normal now… and am hoping to have my cholesterol re-checked! I won’t place my weight on today’s blog… I will place it later on next mid-week and go from there. I just feel too discouraged! This morning I ate a bananna… went shopping and got lots of snacks.. healthy ones. I don’t want to see them go to waste. I like to get can corn and eat that with spray butter and pepper. It lasts long… for last reserve snacks and meals.
today I plan on stretching…. and not taking pills… drinking lots of water/cranberry juice….tea, making dinner of vegetables and fresh salmon, and for lunch apples with lemon and Cinnamon for snack. I’m telling you it is the best most tastiest October seasonal snack and treat…. I have lots of apples! smiles. I might also have some oatmeal or cream of wheat later. I got some rice cakes which are a good boost with peanut butter on top for snack… not that i am saying I will eat those today because those will last me. I need to eat all the vegetables so they don’t go bad on me.
we can do this ‘grabthebull” … I need to get to the gym soon too!
cutejeans.
I put on a little weight , been eating junk food lately to cope with some depression. There shouldn’t be any excuses. My goal is to hit the solid 170’s within this month. I am not going to weigh myself now. I think I skipped a period, but I cannot be pregnant. No way. I need to up the work outs and get back on my eating only healthfully plan. Fruit and veges, and fish… It’s been difficult lately. I am quitting smoking on November 20th and I don’t want to gain weight back, but lose even more by using exercise as a tool. This is so important to me. I will get back to blogging on my weight soon. My focus now is just eating healthfully, no more junk food, and sipping tea, and being more productive in my life. Let’s see how it goes.