i’m having a minor situation. just thinking about finals and trying to stay on track with trying to lose weight is daunting, at best. i eat when i’m bored, sad, stressed, anxious….i can’t really deal with emotion without food. hopefully by packing healthy snacks to take wherever i go this week i can avoid bad choices. i guess the fact that i have no money to buy bad food will also help me avoid crappy food 
ah well, c’est la vie.
i’ve been surrounded by holiday treats, and haven’t indulged, so that is a step forward. i also haven’t binged in over a week, so there is progress as well. i was able to control my portions at the thanksgiving dinner table, and have a small slice of apple pie *yum* and no other desserts.
while this seems like phenomenal progress, and it is quite amazing for myself, i have a problem in that i am not losing weight. i am so incredibly stressed with school, finals, and lack of money, that i am psyching myself out and not allowing myself to be super healthy. i’m not making time for the gym either. that, i believe, will be the biggest difference in what works and what doesn’t. i just have to make time. unfortunately there honestly isn’t much time in the next week and a half.
until after christmas, i’m concentrating on not binge eating, and not eating food that is crappy for me. that is halfway to a really good place as it is. after the holidays i really want to start eating mostly whole unprocessed vegetables and fruits as well as other foods.
i’ve recently found out i’m lactose intolerant, and have to find a way around that without it costing an arm and a leg. i’ve had lots of financial problems lately which i’m surprised haven’t driven me to break when it comes to binge eating. when i get stressed is usually when i’m at my worst. i guess in a way i can’t afford to buy more food so i know if i eat everything i have i’m going to have to starve for a week until my next paycheck gets here. yeesh.
i’m here. and it’s my first day, and my first blog. hopefully this will be the first of many. it certainly feels different than all the other times…all the other diets. only time will tell for sure, but i think it’s safe to say i’m here to stay for at least the time being