Fighting the Dark Cloud of pudge!!

Well we made it through Thanksgiving dinner. I bought an Opera cake www.alacuisine.org/alacuisine/2004/10/opera_cake_1.html (sorry if that makes you hungry) which is sooo delicious BUT I sent Mom home with about 1/4 of the cake.  I put another 1/4 in the freezer and have the remaining bits for me in the fridge.  AND when I saw Mom today she actually complimented the meal and the condo.  (we moved in June and only because of hosting this dinner is it in reasonable order).  Has an alien taken over her body??

This morning I walked the dog and had another fatt chat.  Really I am trying to work through issues I have always wanted to work through.  But with these dialogues it is a more structured manner.  Does it all stem from the chocolate as reward as a kid?  Does it relate to the fact that even at 5 pounds over waitte I was made to feel huge when I was young?  Or is it a host of other insecurities?  I will say this, after walking the dog for 1.5 hours (ok add in the 15 minute visit with Mom as the dog walked over to her place (only about a 5 minute walk but he took me all over the place before getting there) I came home and made Irish oat bran (how it is different from other oatbrans I am not sure) and was still hungry.  I heard the cake calling me from the fridge.  My husband suggested I have turkey.  Well we all know that 11:30am is too early for turkey but not too early for cake!

So, what did I do?  I put away the dishes from last night and got out the ingredients to make the stew we are having for dinner.  Then I logged on here.  Is the cake still calling me?  You bet.  BUT I know I will nosh while cooking the stew, so I am going that route instead. Maybe it is the talking…

Oh and another revelation?  I was lifting the box of my good china yesterday.  I have come to realize that when my abs feel good, I feel good.  Maybe I should be writing this all down….

Cheers!