Fighting the Dark Cloud of pudge!!

I was reading an article that binging is an actual eating disorder that WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY  outnumbers anorexia and bulimia.  Ironically Binging Eating Disorder’s acronyum is BED (so is bachelor of education, or that place we like to sleep). Now, if we do not sleep enough apparently we can gain weight- so there is another bed reference.  Somehow in this fog it should all make sense.

So, I have been binging.  I wonder why.  I try to analyze this.  Is it because when I was a kid “getting fat” was the worst possible sin in my parents’ eyes?  Am I still rebelling at 47?  Did it start that way and snowballed?

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Is it that I just like chocolate?  or is it PMS (I am sure I have had that nonstop for 5 or so years- ask my Mother who is stuck with my arguments and abrupt comments!)

I wonder if we, as a species, are simply meant to be getting fatter - well in the Western World (and esp in North America).  We have so many devices to make our lives easier, we generally sit on our ever expanding butts at work, and now we blog, which is not exactly an aerobic exercise!  As more and more countries are emulating us, their populations are getting bigger.  Used to be I couldn’t even shop in England  as their size 12 was our size 10 and as I was a 14 here I had no hope of anything. Last year, however, I saw the sizes were bigger. Makes one think.  Makes me wonder why I spend so much time analyzing this- maybe because action rarely seems to do much.

I think the reason I do not lose weight  is because it takes soooooooooooooooo long to get results.  Two years ago I worked out almost daily - at least 1 hour on the bike or treadmill and weights etc. I was losing and so pleased.  It would be my first time back in England in years (decade perhaps) and I wanted to look good.  Well, by some twist of fate three days before I was due to leave weight found its way back to me!  I have no idea how it happened.  I had not done anything “wrong” yet the pounds I had painstakingly lost had returned.  Perhaps they missed me!  Ok,  it does take me ages to lose weight so it was not 20 pounds or anything- but more like 7 or 8.  Still, how upsetting is that?!!

Yet sometimes I just gorge on chocolate and lose.  I think when I binge on chocolate I do not eat my regular meals so it actually balances out.  Ok, maybe my arteries are not happy with my food choices, but I don’t do it every day.

Why oh why can’t  Dietac come back on the market?  I loved that.  You took one pill a day and felt so full you couldn’t eat more than one meal a day!  OK, it made your head feel tingly and you had enough energy to climb Mount Everest at a run,  but it worked!  And the weight stayed off just as long as it did with WW.

Any another thing.  Is it really true that if you lose it slowly you gain it slowly? I mean really?  Where are the studies- and who did the studies?!!  Let me lose 20 pounds fast, and then we can talk!

Cheers!
Shari