New stress path is a comin’
OK, it has been a few days. Last weekend the b/f was up from CT. (We have managed this Long distance thing for almost 1.5 years.) This weekend he asked me what kind of engagement ring I wanted. We looked at some. I am heading down a new, and exciting, stress path. BUT as he reminds me, he has not asked me anything yet. Do you think maybe he is waiting until we are in Paris next month?!!
The day after he left I had ballooned back to 202. Any stress is stress for me, as you can see. Today I was back to 200. I started looking at wedding dresses online. Who ever thought to make them white?!! One of the least flattering, or should I say most fattening, colours. No wonder so many look like cakes! Anyway, I was on one of those charity project wedding dress sites. Really, I can barely justify spending hundreds (most definitely not thousands) on a dress I will wear once. I am way too practical for this, I can already see this.(BTW the charity is the money you spend goes to charity. Although I am a teacher, so by definition do not have a HUGE salary, I can afford a dress!)
Anyway, I noticed that in the photos where the Brides modelled their own dresses, even the size 10s looked BIG. I am a size 16 (I am talking street sizes not bridal sizes which are inevitably two sizes larger so I would be an 18 or 20!). Women who wore those white frilly size 16s…well, I do not even want to go there. I do not want that photo haunting me for the rest of eternity. So, the pressure is on…as always fueled by me and no one but me.
good thing he hasn’t asked yet. I have more time! 
Cheers
Shari
Hey, Shari. I’m new around here and clicked on your Blog at random
I felt that I should comment because I, too, have a long-distance boyfriend from CT, who I’ve been with for a little over 1.5 years (it’ll be 2 years in October). I just thought that was interesting 
Good luck on the wedding and finding the perfect dress (me and my boy are WAY not at that point yet!)
I wasn’t sure if I should reply to your comment in my blog over there or here–so I decided to reply here! I live in MA–and I met my boy through a girl I met at a CT Community college (I live just over the border). He had been friends with -her- boyfriend for a long time. A group of us went out for sushi one night and we just clicked. He lives about 2 hours from both home and school (when I’m back at UMass).
lol - I was pregnant when I got married and wore something that looked like an ivory sack! In fact, I got the exact same dress in red for the reception the next day…if i ever get married again I always said it would be in Vegas and I would be dressed as a showgirl and the groom had to look like Elvis.
All kidding aside, this is so exciting, and the most important thing about your wedding is that you know you are loved and you feel beautiful. Which I know will be true!
Whoo Shar - looking at rings. He’ll probably ask in Paris, you can’t resist that sort of thing in Paris!