Fighting the Dark Cloud of pudge!!

After the shock of learning how much I eat yesterday, I still lost a pound.  Go figure!  Praise the Lord!

I am making somewhat better choices today, although I am going out with the Girls tonight and there is a chocolate martini calling my name!

Baby steps…that is all I can do.  And all I want to do.  Small changes are less painful.

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Hi there!  I thought I was doing well.  Ok, I had a few nibbles of chocolate, but that was all.  Ok, and a SMALL slice of chocolate cake after dinner.  Lo and behold I must have used 42  WW points!  Who knew??? And that was after I opted for broiled fish instead of a meat pie!!  *sigh*

So, perhaps the tracking will work.  Now that I had that slap in the face of reality…. (oh the sweet potato curry was pretty good, Leelee but I couldn’t guess the points after I made some changes so guessed…oh no, maybe that was even more!!!)

So, I am now off to the treadmill to try to repent for some of my sins.  (it was too cold and windy to walk home).

 I am beginning to see WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cheers!
Shari

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OK, I have had a few bad days.  More than a few- mainly since my Dad died.  Don’t all chunkys grieve with chocolate?  Alas, chocolate is not able to raise the seratonin it used to for me.  So, I am back at square one, but starting again. 

I am starting to do things for myself.  Thinking back to when I was younger/slimmer, I spent a lot more time relaxing.  Studies of late show that stress can cause obesity.  There might be something in that.  So, assuming we do not have a storm tomorrow I will walk home from work (5km) - walking helps me reduce my stress.  I have just made a sweet potato curry to take for lunch (recipe in vegetarian times magazine).  It is my goal to make something vegetarian for lunch whenever possible.  I am also off to make a salad.  Really, when you look at what I like to eat, there is no reason for this “muffin top” on my body. 

 So, let’s see if I can reduce the muffin!  Still writing down what I eat, Leelee!

I heard on the radio that there was some study showing that diets do not work.  After 20 years of dieting, hmmm….  maybe there is something in that.  In fact the article said that dieting was bad for you.  I am sure there is something in that.  What does make us over eat?  Why do we have such a hard time stopping?  How do we unwire the wiring we created in our brains concerning food?

 I have simply started to write things down that I eat - per a previous comment to my blog. Today I was down .5 of a pound.  Well, I just started on Tuesday and I had to lose the “fake” pound I had gained over the weekend.  If you add that in I have lost 1.5 pounds.  Not shabby, in my opinion, for the non-diet. 

Today I did overeat.  I admit it.  Maybe hormones cry out for chocolate.  Maybe it was the day to day stress we all live through.  I am not happy about it, but I am not beating myself up either.  Enough of this guilt!!!  Instead I will assess what I did and how I could improve my eating tomorrow.  One step at a time, one day at a time.

It is cold out.  My eyes tear to the point of almost blindness, so I did not walk home.  I was freezing so took the transit.  Not that I am looking for an excuse, but it was a reaonable idea.  My streetcar was a short turn one so it stopped one stop away from home.  I did not take a transfer.  I did not wait for another streetcar.  Instead I walked the distance of the last stop, freezing all the way.  WHEN WILL SPRING ARRIVE?????????????

Well I did write EVERYTHING down yesterday, and I did walk partway home from work.  Hey, it was cold and I had a migraine two advil couldn’t kill!!!  I lost the one pound I gained over the weekend.  Still, we all know those easy come easy go pounds are not REAL fat after all,  They are just hitchhiker  pounds waiting to jump onto the next innocent person who overate at dinner!  Still I will take my victories where I can!

I can’t help but notice that as soon as I get the idea of “diet” into my head I immediately want to eat all the chocolate in China!  (ok, the saying is  all the tea in China, but no one ever got fat craving tea!!)

I wonder how many out there have that same phobia?  Once the word diet comes into your head do you suddenly think that all the fat foods you love will vanish if you hold off for a few weeks, or months?  Do you run a path to the nearest drug store screaming “give me those 1/2 price Lindt easter bunnies!!”?

HI there:

I am actually away this weekend. My boyfriend lives in the US so I am the victim of a long distance relationship. (singing) “the things we do for love…”

Thank you for your comments.  I think I will try the (pain in the butt) recording of what I eat, once I get back.  On May 6 we are having the unveiling of my Dad’s headstone.  I will be seeing people I have not seen for years and people who worked for my Dad waywayway back.  For this event, I would like to be a bit thinner.  OK, I want to be able to fit into something other than my jeans and not have to buy anything.  Don’t get me wrong, I am a great fan of Addition Elle’s clothes, but somehow it is a bit disheartening to see my sizing going up, or the requirement of pants which have lycra in them!!

So, from now until then, I will monitor what I eat via the record and try to walk more.  It is my goal to walk home from work at least 3 times a week.  That is a 5km (3 mi) walk.  Over the next few weeks I will post my trials and tribulations.

All in all, my aim is to become a healthier person.

Welcome to my Blog!  Not sure how many people will find my journey particularly interesting, but perhaps this is more therapeutic than anything else.  First and foremost, I typo at about 100 words a minute!!! So, I hope you are good at readythat!

 How did this happen???

 Ok, all my life I have been somewhat overweight.  Not grossly overweight (like now *sigh*) but a bit of a butterball.  I remember when I was a kid, my doctor putting me on diets.  When we went trick or treating at his house (just my luck he lived on my street!) he gave my sister chocolate and me a piece of licorice.  Is this like Charlie Brown getting a rock??  Ironically enough he was obese!  In my childish mind that did not even occur to me.  Now I wonder about the weight loss properties of licorice!

  Somewhere along the way I gained WEIGHT.  I mean pounds crept on without me being fully aware.  How can that be when I weighed myself regularly??  I don’t know.  I guess a pound here or there didn’t concern me and before long it was 10 pounds, 20 pounds!  They say you can boil a frog by raising the temperature 1 degree at a time.  Guess that is what happened to me.  *ribbit*

So, here I am at 200 pounds and wondering where did this come from?  I eat reasonably well.  OK, Chocolate should be considered a food group, but surely I did not eat 200 pounds worth!  I even work out.  Last Sept I did a 1/2 marathon..yes you read that right.  A 200 pound woman did a 1/2 marathon.  Ok,  I walked it.  But I did it.  It took me just under 4 hours….but there were quite a few pit stops in there!

How can one train for a marathon and not lose any weight?  That is another story I don’t know the answer to…but there were quite a few of us 200 pounders out there training and we are all still 200 pounders.

So, I decided today to see whatever happened to those 3 fat chicks whose site I looked at so many pounds ago.  And I found this blogging device.  Well, it is really therapy I suppose.  This is the start of my journey to figure out how this happened.  I swear I wasn’t in a coma and it crept up, but perhaps I was in a mental coma concerning this???

If anyone has any ideas….please let me know.