Fighting the Dark Cloud of pudge!!

a journey into the psyche of weight gain

 

Chocolate doesn’t love me anymore

Yes, it seems that chocolate is abandoning me.  It is giving me indigestion - well some does; enough brands do.  What to do?  What to do?  Perhaps this will get me eating properly?

Other than that, the students are doing well.  In fact it is so quiet in the classrooms that I keep checking to make sure they didn’t tie up and duct tape the teachers!!  So far, not even one teacher!!

Meanwhile the problem teacher keeps at it.  We keep unearthing new problems.  I just sing “How do you solve a problem like Maria?” to the Principal and VP.  It’s a shame as it is only a one year contract, but it is a whole year!!  I hope not too much damage is being done to those kids!  So far not one person seems to be passing.  I have to ask at what point, as a teacher, do you not question “why is this happening?”.  Midterms come out next week (remember we started Aug 18) so that should prove interesting.  Right now, kids just skip his class. *sigh*  It really made me realize I had no desire to become a VP at this point!

Other than that, Mom’s memory is going - and she is forgetting it is going!  Today she assured me she does not leave the oven on!  Even  before she started getting dementia she left the oven on!!  That is the main reason I make dinner for her.  Now she has meals on wheels bringing her frozen meals (5) once a week.  She wants to heat them up in the oven rather than the microwave.  OY!  When she was in hospital this summer she agreed to go on the waiting list for a home.  I have to find where she hid the papers and get them completed.  It takes 2 years to get to the top of the list, but at least that is a light at the end of the tunnel.  IF she is even alive in 2 years, she will bloody well need a home!!!  Between her lungs going and the brain going…AGAIN I say “OY”.

Have a good weekend all!

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By canadianchunky
On September 12, 2008
At 6:41 pm
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Ode to a size 12

Thank you for your comments.  Obviously I had some superbug as I still have a touch of a sore throat and a bit of a cough from that darn cold.  And now DH has it.  Poor DH, he is stuck in CT.  Not that being in CT is a bad thing at all, but his flight was cancelled due to the weather and he was moved to a second flight.  Then the second flight got cancelled and he is waiting in Bradley Airport as I write this for his flight to take off.  Add to that, not feeling well.  I can only imagine what he will feel like when he lands here in wet cool weather at 9:30pm.  He may stay home tomorrow.

School is actually improving.  Right now the biggest problem is one of the teachers.  He has managed to antagonize the students.  Granted he did such things as (gasp) expect them to be on time; expect them to do their work; expect them not to swear at him!  (You get the gist of the kind of kids we have?!!).  We are dealing with kids who have so much baggage that this is actually too much for them!  In part it is the way he says it.  So, he is back pedalling right now to develop a rapport with the kids, and asking me for help such as books he can read etc on dealing with these kinds of kids.

To give you a snapshot of what these kids are like.  Some actually live in the streets.  We are considering bringing in AA to run weekly meetings in the school AND we would have to give the kids volunteer hours (they need 40 to graduate here) just to attend.  We have Student of the Week assemblies where each of the 4 teachers nominates a student (so we really have students of the week ot student) and they get a certifcate and a movie coupon.  They save the coupons so they can go to a special movie.  I opened a corporate account with one of the big movie houses so I get the coupons at a discount.

You may be shocked and alarmed that we basically bribe kids to go to school and do their work.  Keep in mind that I have 17 year olds with NO credits.  I have students who dropped out in grade 8 and are, at 16, coming back to try school again.  We become their parents and their role models.  When I first started teaching I taught kids who actually dreaded Christmas break because we were the most stable adults in their lives and they would be without us and with their parents.  One kid, at 13, went to court to be legally removed from his parents.  I teach kids who when I meet their parents and see how they interact with their kids I want to encourage the kid to run away from home (no, I don’t say it, but I want to!).

Apparently the person previously in my position did not have the easiest personality to work with.  (not that I am any great shakes) so I have also worked on being supportive of the staff.  I believe that if the staff know they are appreciated, then they go into the classroom with a better attitude and can focus on the kids.  I think we have all had bosses who were so awful to work with that we spent the afternoon rehashing arguments and not really working?!  Not an option when teaching these types of kids, so I try to make it as pleasant a work environment as I can.  Sometimes all that takes is buying a dozen donuts for the staff meeting so people get a treat while there.  I think it is a small price to pay.

As for the title of this posting.  I went to my favourite Goodwill on the weekend.  I should comment that this is the Goodwill that a fair chunk of wealthy women in Toronto drop their barely worn stuff in.  I tried on about 12 pairs of dress pants for work.  A pair of Ralph Lauren pants fit but they were pleated so not a great look.  A pair of Bob Mackie pants fit but didn’t look great.  I settled for a pair of Liz Clairborne pants.  The price for any of these?  $6.99.  They look practically new.  So, you see why I love to shop there.  And there is my constant dream that I only need them for a few months before I lose waitte so why spend a lot of money?!!  During my quest I found soooo many great pairs of pants, and suits but in a size 12.  I am a 14 - 16.  So, you can understand my pain!

I will try to be more faithful with my postings!

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By canadianchunky
On September 9, 2008
At 7:05 pm
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new school

Well, my new school isn’t exactly what I expected.  When I was told we did not accept behavioural students I did not realize that was limited to those designated in spec ed as behavioural.  So, my first day I spoke with a parole officer who informed me that we have MANY of her students.  OY!  And she was right.

Aside from the constant fight for school domination, I now have a cold!  My second day off (and only week 2) and tomorrow I am seeing a dr.  It is getting better, but I can’t talk so I can’t take charge of an already unruly school.

Staff is great, on the other hand.  Just never thought I would find kids even more clueless than the last group I taught.  Perhaps some will surprise me here as some did there.  These kids are on their last chance in the school system and yet they still think they can have a school their way.  (showing up up to an hour late for class etc).  Quite the battle ahead of me.  Good thing I took that theatre voice training!!

On a brighter note, my DH is taking very good care of me, and my faithful dog is by my side - unless someone calls him for a meal.  At that time I am dumped like a hot potato!!  *sigh*

Hope all is well with my sisterhood here.  Will check in on your blogs.

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By canadianchunky
On August 27, 2008
At 1:59 pm
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oops

Seems in my desire to rid myself of Spam I may have deleted all comments!  This new format is soooo confusing.  Soooo, nothing personal if I accidentally deleted something you wrote! I really did love it at the time!  I think I went way beyond recent comments.

Yes, the dog’s waitte loss has surpassed mine. Perhaps it is because his only stress is the timing of his next walk?  Or maybe because we regulate his food more than our own!  Or finally, it could be that he is on thyroid meds and I am not!

My last day of freedom.  47 spams today.  I am thinking of opening a new blog and cancelling this one just to escape them.  How much longer can I get comments on various drugs, porno and other such things.  I recall when my email accounts were flooded with spam.  My favourite being Russian women who wanted to marry me.  I am just not that type of a girl - not that there is anything wrong with being that type of a girl.

As I said, my last day before I return to work.  Today I have to fit in everything I did not do in the past 6 weeks.  Can I do it???

Rented DVD 21 last night from Blockbuster but it is scratched and did not work.  So I started watching Mad Money.  I bought it previously viewed as it had looked cute when I saw the trailers waaay back.

There was a huge propane explosion in Toronto a few days ago.  Not sure if you read about it but I know it got far reaching coverage.  Not my part of the city but it is where my Maid of Honour lives with her two little girls - and her parents are nearby.  Fortuantely, when I did get her, she was at the cottage.  So, she is safe.  Not sure what her place will be like though.  Apparently there is asbestos in the air in parts too.  Winning situation!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you are all doing well.  I have hair colour on my head right now that needs attention.  I use the wash out kind as I gave up dying about a year ago.  I am aging somewhat gracefully.

Looks like a nice day so it should be good for running errands.

Cheers!

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By canadianchunky
On August 12, 2008
At 10:37 am
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Sunday

DH is driving back to CT today.  He is just going for a few days but the dog and I will be in a bit of shock without him.  Hard to believe he has only been here for 6 weeks!  So much has happened.  I would have gone but I am back to work on Wed.

It is a rainy day here.  And i cannot get a handle on this waitte issue.  Seems I eat well, gain weight.  Eat poorly lose weight.  Eat normally, lose or gain weight.  Two steps forward, one , two or even three back.

On a brighter note, the dog is losing waitte!  Perhaps he can give me pointers!!  The vet is thrilled!  He is due to start thyroid meds so should be at normal waitte in a few months!

Just ordered a pair of lovely shoes from Neiman Marcus online.  Got them sent to my mother-in-law’s address in CT as it is much cheaper than mailing them to TO.  Also Tomboy construction boots are on sale online at Home Depot.  Great for walking the dog!

Cheers

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By canadianchunky
On August 10, 2008
At 3:49 pm
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More with the spam

OK, 56 so far today.  Is there anyone we can contact at 3FC to deal with this??  They are spamming every blog I have written in the past 1.5 years!  OY!

Well, the MK business is puttering along.  I actually made top 10 in sales in my unit last year. More due to the lack of work of anyone in the unit than my great achievements, still, a prize is a prize, right?!  My goal this year is to win prizes.  Hey, I may as well have  fun!

Painting the hall is coming along.  I finished the walls and will now do the floorboards.  Ok, I have to touch up where in my impatience I pulled off tape too early and took a chunk of paint from above the door. No one will notice but me, but I will notice it every day!!!  Now my hall is a cheery yellow.  Not everyone’s taste, but I like it.  It is the same colour as the kitchen.  In fact, the only colour I am not overly thrilled with is the one I chose for the bathroom.  Someone before me had painted/stenciled a shell motif along the top and I decided to try to make the wall look like sand to match.  It is more a nude skin tone colour than sand, but c’est la vie.  Hey, it is a rental after all.

Still slimfasting but TOM must be approaching as I was starving and craving yesterday.  Funny how we can overindulge that once and actually lose 1/2 a pound and work so dilligently other days only to go up 1/2 a pound.  I think the former is to lull us into a sense of thinking we can eat it all and still lose.  Somewhere there is a fat god/goddess just having a blast at my expense!

OK off to paint floorboards.

Have a good one!

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By canadianchunky
On August 7, 2008
At 10:46 am
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waiting game

OK, is it TOM or is it not?  This peri - menopausal thing is such a pain.  Not sure what is going on with my body so how can I figure out my waitte?!!

Stayed the same today.  I have been using slimfast for breakfast and lunch and then anything I want for dinner.  Lost 1 so far.  But I am impatient and want to lose more!!!  Seems patience was never my virtue!

Painted the front hall - second coat this morning.  Am off to run Mary Kay errands this afternoon.  Hard to believe I am back to work a week today.  OY!!  I am not ready!!

Oh and so far 37 spams today!

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By canadianchunky
On August 6, 2008
At 11:20 am
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Spam - a lot!

Is anyone else being bombarded with wordpress spam??  Seems I get 40 or so a day!

But onto other things.  My rant of the day is “Give up skim milk”!  I believe that all these low fat products are taking the sheer enjoyment of food away from us and the constant search for fulfillment is making us eat more.  Anyone have any ideas on this one??

Other than that, I painted my front hall finally.  Ok, I was waiting until the sofabed arrived figuring that the delivery guys would bang the walls.   So I did coat one today.  Tomorrow’s excitement?? Coat 2!  And then I move onto the floor boards.  Is there anything or anyone who can beat that for excitement??

This month’s challenge is to put MK on 30 faces.  Cheer me on!

Live the dream!

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By canadianchunky
On August 5, 2008
At 2:39 pm
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Challenges

We all face challenges. How is it that some of us eat our way through them and others do not?  In my case, I am so overloaded that I am eating on the run and fast items are full of calories.

It seems the more successful I am at work, the less time I have to organize my eating and the less likely I am to find time to exercise.  I know, put it in my agenda book. Treat it like an appointment!  Well, between moving (we are STILL unpacking),  the wedding, Mom’s illness and teaching it seems the summer has got away from me.  AND I go back to work on Aug 13!  Where did my summer holiday go????

I want to thank everyone who has commented on my blog over the past few days.  Although I must admit I was overrun by SPAM so I just did a group spam and deleted 55 postings.  I hope none of them were from “real” people.  They all seemed to be from one source.

Bree (the wonder dog) will never go on the long 5km walks he went on with the dog walker again, but he is recovering otherwise.  Walking is just a bit difficult for him.  Running after squirrels, however, is always possible!  Since we moved and his “grandmothers” are not around as often to give him treats, he has lost 4 pounds!  That is more than I have lost!

Mom is home and recovering.  She will also never be able to walk 5km however she didn’t do that before hand either.  Her breathing is laboured at times but she is managing.  I go over and make dinner for her most nights, and then come home and make dinner for the DH and me.  He gets home around 6:30 and she likes to eat at 5pm.

I just wanted to check in to let you know I am no further ahead on my journey, after a year of blogging.

G’nite

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By canadianchunky
On August 3, 2008
At 8:22 pm
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To Bree…

Happy to report that the pup is doing well.  Turns out it was an under the skin cyst.  Still cost a small fortune but at least it wasn’t life threatening.  Speaking of life threatening, Mom is coming home from the hospital tomorrow.  She has severe COPD.  Although one day I was told she would be on oxygen forever and the next day she was walking down the hall, with a walker but no oxygen.  I was told “she recovered more than we thought!”.  Reminds me of the song…”what a difference a day makes..24 little hours..”.  Who am I to complain?!!  I took the opportunity to toss all her cigarettes and lighters while she was away.  So, if you heard a scream in your neighbourhood - it was coming from Toronto!!

DH started his new job.  Seems to like it and seems to be adjusting to life in Canada.  I attended some of the annual Mary Kay convention. I really do want to try to make this thing work for me, so if you know anyone in the Toronto area who might like to try it, let me know.  Or anyone in Canada who wants to buy products.

I appreciate all of the support you have given me over this period.

Diette wise, I am pretty well stable at 198 or the infamous 197.5.  I need to unpack more to locate my Reno Tosca book on Eating Clean.  DH and I are taking turns  cooking dinner.  We both have diet restrictions so cooking is a challenge for us.  We both can cook but modifying our recipes to suit the other one’s needs is a challenge.  Still, I seem to live for challenges!

Hope you are all doing well.

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By canadianchunky
On July 30, 2008
At 8:38 pm
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