butterfly emerging soon

SW:263

GW:155

TW:194.8

breakfast Points:0

Lunch Points:10

Dinner Points:10

Snack Points:6

Workout:15 min on Elli & 1 set of arms and 75 crunches

DS Jacob had a late night last night with his Awana. He and his younger brother DS Ethan share a room. Now we have enough rooms in our little farmette for each child to have their own room. However Jacob and Ethan are so close they would not have it any other way. I went in early this morning to make sure they were tucked in and warm (cold night) and their little faces (one 9 and one 2) were like little angels. How I love those moments in time where you know  that specific memory will remain in you as long as you live. I seem to notice things like that a little more now that I am not using food to self medicate and at times numb my whole being. I am FEELING more and have to come face to face with my emotions and fears much now that I am not hiding from them in food. On the good side of all of this though is I get to FEEL the good moments more as well. No ice cream , chip, or pasta can compete with a childs laugh or sleeping face. No chocolate can even come close to matching a sloppy jelly face kiss or a embrace from DH.  I am learning to face it emotionally good, bad, wonderful, heart wrenching.  It is real and there is no more hiding if I want this to be for good.   OHHHHH jeeeeez I have to look at the calender. I tend to get this wordy when I am hormonal. Sorry sisterchicks.

Patty to answer your question I  took some whole wheat bread crumbs and 1 tlb. each of Old Bay, Garlic powder, and Onion powder. I put it in a container and shook the fish in it one fillet at a time to lightly coat it. Then I baked it till it flaked. I had it on light whole wheat bread with one serving of baked fries and an apple. My big regret it that I had no malt vinegar. I LOVE fish and chips with Malt vinegar. YUMMO! It was good. I have you to thank for telling me about this yummy fish. It is so cheap at WalMart. My kids prefer fish sticks   ~go figure  LOL   So I make them those while DH and I have Tilapia.

Well my plan is to workout on the Elli. and do a set of arm weights, some crunches, and maybe some push ups. Later since it will not be raining I am hoping we can get in a walk. For the next WEEK it will be  GROAN sleeting/raining. No walking in that crud!

~~~~~~~7 p.m.

Well no walk for us tonight. We just did not have enough time. Oh well such is life. I am sure we will have at least a handful more of walking days before OHIO winter sets in for a while. I had to clean out our upstairs storage closet this afternoon while Ethan was settling down for a nap. I needed to organize all of the Christmas gifts that I have been slowly buying for a few months now. It is the only way we can afford to get gifts for 4 kids. Now all I have to do is buy some things for DH and a few things for his family and the kids stockings then I am alllll done! Well let me tell you that storage closet was a HUGE mess! It took almost 1 hour to get it manageable so i could find stuff. I am such the control freak and always function better in a uncluttered environment.  LOL  I know I have issues.  LOL

Patty, thank you for sending me the poem. You should have that published it is so beautiful and really speaks of the love of being a mother. You are very gifted with your words! Thank you for sharing.

Toodles!

This is what I am hearing right now. I guess up here in Ohio we have been getting the remains of the storm, or what is left of it.  It is now down to a gentle soaking rain. My boys are not happy with the timing (weekend) however such is life.

My DS (9) is on his way to the work withDH. He does this about  once every month or so. He LOVES going in so much he got up at 5 in the morning!      :)               He has his little backpack , his lunch is packed, and he brought a movie for the car trip (hour long).  DH made sure he has change for a treat from the machine.  Soooo cute.

DS (2) has taken to biting.  sigh           What is with my DS?  I mean they say “children repeat what they see or experience”  That is a load of crap in this case. I mean we do not go around throwing ourselves in the floor beating the floor, kicking and yelling WAAAAAAA!!!  We do not go up and just bite down like vampires. We do not throw things because we were told no . We do not melt down over waiting more than one nano second for a sippy cup, or pacifier withdrawal etc……. I do not always react in the right way. At times I give in  BAAAAAD MOMMY!  Other times his reaction is so off the wall I try and smother a laugh and turn so he doesn’t see me. Others i just stare like who is this little human being acting like BAM BAM (Flinstones) and TAZ at the same time???  You would think that this being my 4th child and my second experience with my child as a baby/toddler that I would have some answers. NOPE old age must have set in because I am clueless. I am glad that with my last son I am older because with age for me comes a tad more patience and the attitude of being more willing to choose my ‘mom’ battles (Dr. Phil quote).  sigh  but being an older mom also makes you have waaaaaaay less energy.    It is all well worthit though.  The old me would have eaten up a storm in “well deserved so I would say” chocolate, cheese crackers, ice cream, etc……  Now I use a prayer journal, write here, and e-mail  to my BF “V”.  If all else fails DH will here my whole long ‘mom’ day when he gets home  (poor guy).  I guess LOOONG story long I wonder where all of this strength &  direction comes from? All of this new strength?

 All of this finally seeing myself as having value as a human being and I am not really human garbage. Does it come from me, GOD, experience, a mix of it all???  I dont know, I may never know or understand. I do not care, I am just soooo grateful to be HERE where I am right now.  We ALL can do this. I may break down and binge again once or twice in my life. I am human and not perfect. However I found MY VALUE, I found my voice, I am finding myself. I was buried for so long under food, binges, regret, guilt, that I almost lost Joy for good.

Why is TOM the “time” when I get the epiphanies?????   

Off to workout, and Saturday clean, have some fun with my DS (2), and then relax and enjoy the rest of my day.  Toodles for now.

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 12:30 p.m

I have  had such a wonderful productive day. I worked out on the treadmill for 45 minutes. Sunday will be my day off from the treadmill. Although a walk out of doors will not be out of the question.   I did my Saturday cleaning. I actually finished really fast. I am even almost finished with my laundry! That almost never happens.  LOL  I even had some extra time for Bible study, my prayer journal, flash cards with DS, story time with DS, stacking blocks with DS, and he helped me make the bed . Which made it harder but was so sweet to see a 2 year old try and work with queen size bedding.  LOL  I talked to my 9 year old on the phone and he is having the time of his life. He was able to do a runway check, a bird sweep or two, and so much more. 7th heaven for my 9 year old is spending time with daddies co-workers Charlie pop  (police), ARF (airport firefighters), tower chief, etc……  Mom is just sooooooo boring compared to DH.   LOL

I forgot to eat in the rush of the day. I will eat lunch soon. Then i have a movie alllll picked out and ready to go. wooohooo relaxation time!   I am so looking forward to church this Sunday. It is strange that in all of this ugliness and turmoil that has happened over the past month I am at peace. I have a tranquility I have not had in a long time. It feels so wonderful!!!!!

Toodles

Good FRIDAY morning all of you sisterchicks!  I am so glad that it is Friday!

I have to share this wonderful experience that happened yesterday. We were at WalMart and I needed a pair of simple black slacks. I did not want to spend a lot of money because I fully intend on keeping with the healthy eating and exercise and therefor getting smaller in size.  You could of knocked me over with a feather. I HAD to go over to the NORMAL side of the store for pants. Size 16/18!!!!!  Now do not get me wrong I still have to wear a larger size for tops (bigger tummy and boobs). The whole way home I am like I can’t believe I could shop on the normal side!!!  I have NOT been able to do that for two decades!

I do NOT know what my weight is since last weigh in. I can not weigh myself until the last day of September. There are days when I am going bonkers not knowing if I lost more weight and I just itch to go and get that scale and see where I am. Then the other part of me says naaaaaaw wait until You get and finish your TOM. Then hop on and see. I am sure that before that I will have water weight .

All in all I am having a good week even though I have had a few mini disasters to avert or contend with (all normal ones). I am grateful for each day that goes by and I am a tiny bit stronger in my resolve for better health, a longer life, diabetes control, and lets face it a thinner me. It does get easier overall. I still have my days of struggle and days where i am tempted to binge out of emotional response. I often learn so much from all of you sisterchicks and at times am humbled by how strong and wonderful some of you really are. I am so grateful to have this new chance at life and be blessed daily in it. You all have a wonderful day, be strong, know you are worth the journey even if hard.

Toodles

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   10:00 a.m.

DS flew like a bird through his English, Math, Language Arts, and writing. He woke up early to get started. FRIDAY fever must be catchy for my 9 year old DS as well.  LOL  I’ll take this go get up atittitude over the grumpy student anyday!  

Soooo that being said I had a quick 10 minutes to hop on now that I am finished with flashcards/story time  with my other DS (2). I worked my tush off on the treadmill. 45 minutes /300 calories and over 2 miles!   I cannot wait till I get my TOM over with because I want to weigh myself in the worst way! I am still not due for a few days. It has been one of those exhausting but wonderful weeks. Well except for my little temper tantrum the other day.  ;)  Well lightening just hit REALLY close by I am outta here. Toodles

~~~~~~~~~~~ 1:00 p.m.This place is so wonderful! I have to say that it is so unique that we all are in essence strangers yet are sisters in this journey. That we support each other and are cheerleaders for each other. I want to say thanks to all of you sisterchicks because YOU are a part of the reason I am losing weight and finding better health and some self esteem.

DS is done with school today.  He could not finish fast enough today!  :lol:      He is so excited that  he is going to work with DH on Saturday. He loves going to airports and spending time with DH. 

Well that is it for now. toodles!

My poor DS woke me up with his teething again. Does a-n-y-o-n-e  know when they are supposed to be finished with their second molars?????  It explains his runny nose and his more picky than usual eating yesterday. I gave him a half dose of infant Tylenol and some teething gel on his nookie (pacifier). That seemed to work and after rocking him for a while he fell back asleep.  sigh   relief!!

Back to the daily grind. Today DS (J) has a home school class at the library so that is the plan for today. I am hoping to maybe go for a  family walk after my other DS (P) gets home from school.  My eldest DS (T) called last night. He is doing well and is having the time of his life learning the art of cooking.  He is also having the time of his life going out with the guys, meeting girls, dating  sigh I am too YOUNG to be this OLD!

Well that is about it for today. I need to prep everything for today. You all have a wonderful day.

Toodles!

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:30 p.m.

What a day. I am so pooped! Had a long day taking DS to a special class that a library offered where we used to live. He had so much fun. My other DS (toddler) had a blast on the swingset while we waited.

I ate well within my points. ! cup low fat chilli with a single serving of tortilla chips for lunch. Dinner was leftover chicken, a chopped tomatoe, corn on the cob and a diet pop. I plan on having a WW 1 point ice cream bar for a snack.

I never took a walk today. It got into the 90’s and that is waaay too hot for walking. So in the morning I will be getting on the treadmill.  I must be getting close to my TOM because my back is KILLING me big time!

I plan on popping a nightime tylenol and going to bed early.

Toodles

It is O’dark in the morning. I am up , have 1 cup of coffee under my belt. I went to weigh myself and the scale was gone. Crud, I forgot.  Repeat after me Joy “I have to wait till the end of the month.”  I really need to do this. I need to just focus on staying on plan with healthy eating, portion control, and the treadmill daily. I too easily let the numbers of the day dictate my success. I need to focus on just living it for a while and weigh once a month to see where I am.

Well off to see Mr. Treadmill, then shower. clean, make a few salads, go get some fruit for dessert, then wait for my BF and her bf and son to come over for the afternoon. I am excited.

Toodles for now sisterchicks

It is official I am in plateau HELL-o!!!!!  The week we left for our vacation I was at this weight. I lost 2 pounds ON vacation. Gained two pounds back even though I never went off the plan. I have been stuck here for two weeks now.  ARGH!!!   Sooooo frustrating/.

Okay, enough!

Stay the course, no matter how pissed off I am at my own body for holding onto weight IT DOES NOT NEED.   I just need to hold on.

• Keep within my points
• Maybe eat more raw fruits and veggies
• cut the salty foods like pickles and jar jalepenos to normal portions
• drink waaaaay more water
• exercise every day except Sundays
• take my vitamins

 I cannot give up, lose heart, or give in to being full blown discouraged. I wont! I am too stubborn and this time my stubborness will be for good! I cannot stay at this weight forever. My body will get IT eventually. It will come off again. I wont be this weight forever. I will get on that treadmill again and work my butt off! I will lift weights, I will do my situps, I will record every drop and morsel that goes in this Gobb I call a mouth & stay within my points , I will drink my water, I WILL conquer this!!!

Well sisterchicks i am off to workout, teach, do some laundry, clean a tad, teach more, and BE POSITIVE!

You all have a wonderful day and be strong!

Toodles

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1 p.m.

You know I was looking at something in my weight watchers book. What made me look was a comment that DH made the other day. He said something true and more profound than he knows. They may be a a good support sytem and a healthy way to eat but in the long run they are a business and they will run it as such. That clicked with my not losing weight. Is it possible for WW to make the points low enough to lose weight but to make the points HIGH enough to make it take A LOT longer than it should so that we stay with meetings and products longer?  Meetings here are $12 a week and lets face it their products are good but REALLY costly!!!! Then I thought how would it hurt to record a couple of days of normal WW eating (I started recording today) and then get a calorie counter book and record how many calories it really is. I have been paying no attention to that until now. After all WW did it for me.  For the most part 1 point is 50-100 calories. I am told to eat 27 points plus bonus weekly points that i never eat.  That means I might be eating  1,350 - HOLY CRAP 2,700 calories??????!!!!!!!!   With bonus points can ADD up to 100-600 calories a week!!!   OMgosh!!!!!!  1,350 is do-able. All the way up to 1,500 I would think. What the holy heck 2,700??????  I want to get a calorie counter to be sure of this. NO DING DANG wonder!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Am I counting this wrong. Any other WW people out there with calorie counters????  I have got to look into this!

Well that is just great. I may be eating too much thinking i was doing well!!   sigh

Oh well at least I might have figured out what is causing my weight to stall all of the time when I was sticking to my points.  I will get a calorie counter book and see.

Toodles!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  5:50 p.m.

 We just got back from the library in town.  I love going there.  Looks like a storm is coming our way. I am relieved to be honest, it will cool things down a tad from this very muggy warm weather.

Dinner tonight will be: Thurkey burger(no bun for me)/fat free cottage cheese/apple/fat free pringles

Dessert will be: a peach, 100 cal pack fruit dip/ 100 cal bag popcorn

HUNGRY day but well within my points. I am shopping next week for a calorie counter. Will not have time to do it earlier.  Toodles

Well I got on the scale again this morning son of a B^&($#@!)*!!!!  I am up to 209.4!!!!!!  W T HELLO??!!!!!!!!  I am still slightly UNDER in my WW points, I am working out, drinking more water, taking my vitamins, W T HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am so pissed but not discouraged. Being mad at a situation is an emotional response being discouraged is a CHOICE. I am NOT going down that road.  I started to go down that road with the awful situation with them women at church. I am NOT going to be choosing to be discouraged. Because I REFUSE to give in or give up and that is what that emotional choice does!!!  But I can be pissed enough to workout harder, drink more water, take my vitamins and throw the scale into the corn field accross the street!!

There I got that off of my chest!  This will not set the tone of my day except to make me even MORE determined to eat and do well! Just like the treatment by these woman make me MORE determined to GO to church. They would like nothing more than for me to go away and never come back. NO SIR-EEEEE! I may feel sick from the though of facing this pack but I am DETERMINED to take my place in church BACK.  I will rise above all of this crappin high school nonsense and claim victory by persevering. Isn’t it the same for losing weight and reclaiming our health?????  I have gone through my life being afraid of my emotions and ATE (and a loooong time ago purged) because of it. I have also spent the better part of my life allowing people like my mother, and this one woman from church have too much negative power and control over my life. NO MORE!!!! I am far too ding dang old to live like this anymore. Gosh this is sooooo freeing!  Now lets see if i can go to church without getting sick from tyring to walk in courage when i m scared to death!

Well that is waaaaaaaaay off topic is it not???  LOL  sorry

I am off to get on the treadmill, lift some weights, do some sit-ups, teach, do some laundry, play with toddler and then read some more of a new book I got  “Where The Heart IS”. A movie was made a few years ago from it. The book is better.

Toodles all of you wonderful sisterchicks!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   1:15 p.m.

Good afternoon sisterchicks!

I have been thinking about my eldest DS today. he turned 19 today. It is so hard to believe that my little boy whom God brought into our lives at 7 years old is a grown man off on his own. What a blessing it has been to call him son.

I have had such the hungry, hungry day. I ate a light breakfast of:

1 light whole wheat eanglish muffin/1 egg white/ 1 slice WW 1 point cheese /3 glasses of water w/ all vitamins.   I soooo dont get it. I ate breakfast and I am HUNGRY!!!!! I do not eat breakfast and I am okay. Go figure!

I am so hungry that I plan on eating a plate full of raw veggies, a veggie/soy  burger, a ton of jalepenos, and some fat free pringles with a TON of water and a diet pop.

Some sisterchicks wrote some comments , thank you (I will answer you on todays comment page) You sisterchicks are great!

Toodles

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6 p.m.

Hello sisterchicks!

I am so stuffed and for only 6 points!!  I made pasta with ground turkey sauce and garlic bread for the guys here. I had eggplant, with tomatoe sauce and a touch of romano cheese, raw carrots, cucumber and one small baked whole wheat pita with garlic salt (my version of garlic bread). I am stuffed. It was only 6 points total!  I forgot to tell you all I worked out BUT good this morning. i was soooooo peeved that I gained that I did 45 minutes on the treadmill starting at 2% incline & 2.6mph all the way up to 10% incline and 3.6mph. I cannot go any faster without having to run and lets just say there is no bra in the world that can stop my boobs from assaulting me if I run!    :lol: 

Well I am going to watch some trash t.v tonight (BIG Brother) I know I am so bad!  I heard Survivor and The Biggest Loser will be starting soon. I am such the realty t.v. junkie.  

toodles

Well after my big bold speech on how I am going to be so strong and not put one toe upon my scale. Guess what I did this morning? I got on. Was I rewarded for my inate curiousity?   NAAAAAAAW I am still at 208.8!  I find though that this does not divert me in the least. I will still stick with my plan. 

 I find that the further that I go on this quest that has turned into a long journey is this “the numbers on the scale are what they are”. It does not change my path in the least. The OLD Joy would have used the bad numbers on the scale to binge like it is my last supper. The old, old Joy would have binged and then threw up . Now I have not done that in well over 15 years but I still binged. Hence my massive weight problem. I am still finding it hard to grasp that I am finally getting ‘it’.   This by no means makes me the perfect eater. HA! That is funny.  Even though I have not binged in a few months I am NOT perfect only God Himself is perfect. So I know I will have days where I will eat more than I should or I will eat within my WW points but eat too much junkie points. That’s okay, life goes on after bad choices . I also am learning that life goes on if the scale does not show all of my dedication and hard work. Soooooo that being said 208.8  we both know that YOU wont be here for long. As much as I want to be a good hostess you must leave soon. I will not be too pushy and allow you to leave when you see fit. But understand this 208.8 you WILL leave!

LOL

I get far too weird with too much coffee!     

“V”  wrote me and they are coming over Monday!! I am soooooo excited!! Wooohooo!  This will be the first time they have come out here. It is not a short drive and they have a baby so this means a LOT to me.  It looks like the weather will be nice. woohoo

Well I am off to my day.  I have to teach Math, English, and reading in the morning (as well as baby hooked on phonics with DS toddler). Then a tad of cleaning and laundry. After the kids lunch and DS goes down for a nap I can finish my teaching and then have my own late lunch and maybe even get in some reading.

So I will talk to you all later. Have a great day sisterchicks! Toodles

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   12:30 p.m.

I did a killer workout this morning before the younger DS’s woke up. I only have time for 30 minutes on the treadmill so I kicked it up a few notches. I did a 10% incline which is the max and i started at 2.6 mph and every 2 minutes I put it up 0.1 mph until I reached 3.6 mph and stayed there till cool down. I am down from 100 to 80 situps because I skipped two weeks and got out of shape quick. I did only 2 sets of bicep, arm press, bench press on the ball, pushups off the ball, and flies. Man do I get out of shape fast!!! It stinks that it takes forever to get in shape and days to get out of shape.  BLAH!

Well I finished with morning school , did a few chores, am in the middle of afternoon school and then it is RESTING time till DS toddler wakes from nap. Wooohooo!!!

I had one egg white for breakfast for protein and ZERO WW points.  For lunch I will have a veggie burger on a whole wheat english muffin, a ton of raw veggies and some fat free chips OH and about 1/2 cup of jalepenos.   LOL

I got out my old WW book and realized that i was eating under my points. At 208 I should have 27 points a day. I was keeping it under 25. No wonder my weight loss stalled I am starving it and my body went into that starvation mode. So back up to 27 points. Yahooooo! That means an extra peice of fruit or some hummus and raw veggies.  Yummooo!

Toodles for now sisterchicks!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  6 p.m.

Hello sisterchicks! I hope you all had a wonderful day!

We just got back from the store (WalMart). I wanted to go in and buy some things for Monday. I wanted to make a wheat salad and tried to find Tabulee there and could not find it.   Crud! I was really in the mood for it. I will look for some when we go to church on Sunday.

YESSSSS you all heard me right.  I am going to church on Sunday.    :cry:

      DH called the pastor and talked with him in length and went into a bit more detail (without giving any names). Pastor was kind, and respected the fact that we were honest and came forward in all of this. He said it was good that I tried to open the lines of communication. he also advised not to let this person keep me from church and hearing the word or God.    SIGH     He is right   DOUBLE SIGH   I just do not do well with conflict.  It makes me feel sick to my stomach.   I just do not like dealing with people who are like this. But I want to do this for me and for my family. they love this church (as I do) and I wouldn’t want to take that from them for the world.  I am just not sure if i am brave enough to face ‘them’ and deal with the shunning from ‘them’ and the mean cruelty from the one.   sigh    ENOUGH of that.

positive thoughts. My dear friend is coming over with her boyfriend and adorable little baby. I have that to look forward to.  

I had veggie burgers again for dinner, a ton of raw carrots, jar jalapenos, some low fat ranch dip, and fat free pringles. I LOVE those things (pringles) they are made with Olestra which is a fat they are fried in that cannot be digested by our bodies thus they become fat free. They bother some people but not me thank goodness because they are what gives me the feeling of eating chips without any fat.  I am low on points again.  Maybe I ought to start eating another snack. I have got to get my body out of this starvation mode it went into.

Well I plan on relaxing tonight, reading, and spending time with hubby. I hope that all of you sisterchicks have a great night.

Toodles

GROGGY, sleepy, tired, Yaaaaaaaaaawn.  Man alive I have to get used to waking up at 5 a.m. again. My whole body is rebelling against the loss of the extra hour I got over vacation.  I am going to drink that whole entire pot of coffee!

Stupid scale! I know don’t say stupid.  However that thing still says i weigh 208.8!  I am NOT going to weigh myself until Sunday. This will be a true test of self control. I have got to break the habit of allowing that stupid machine set the tone for the day. To do this i need to stop using the machine. Can you go through scale withdrawal?????  Patty you are right, stay the course my body is resting and it will realize once again that it can let go of more FAT. I could understand the constant standstills if i were closer to my goal. But man alive I am still over 200!  Okay I am letting go of this bad funk from an irritating peice of machine. However that being said this machine better remember I OWN HER and SHE can be thrown in the closet and REPLACED!  HA take that scale!

Well I am going to get my sorry excuse of a tush on the treadmill. I am afraid he wont remember who I am it has been so long!  

Then it is day one of teaching for me.

and the toddler, catch up on cleaning, laundry  whew,   toodles sisterchicks

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  12:30 p.m.

Taught math, English, did 2 loads of wash, ran the sweeper, cleaned toddler smears off of windows, cleaned the bathroom,  did Hooked on Phonics for babies with toddler, fed kids lunch, put toddler down for nap, DS is reading to him, I am HERE 

After this I must still introduce history and science. DS can do spelling and more reading on his own. Then I am DONE , finished, wooohoooo! Day one almost under my belt. It only took 3/4 of a pot of coffee!   LOL

I ate breakfast. I had a 1 point WW peach yogurt with 1/4 cup bran flakes on top. I drank a BIG glass of H2o  with my 3 vitamins  YUCKO!!! Now i am going to rush and get the toddlers diaper changed and put laundry away before I teach afternoon class. Then i eat lunch. I am HUNGRY!!!!!!

I did some research and if I take a COMPLETE mulit vitamin/mineral, my fish pill, and BIOTIN with a meal and water it should help the hair loss. I was taking my vitamins wrong! You must have “some” fat in the meal because many vitamins and some minerals are fat soluable. I did not know that. the spicy cravings could be a lack in vitamin c and beta carotene (would explain my huge consumption of carrots as well).  Well DS is here. Must dash. Toodles!

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  8 p.m

I feel like my guts are being ripped out. 

sorry too graphic???   I am ovulating and when I do it hurts like HELLO for about 12 hours and then poof goes away. I am not waiting for it to go away and took 2 pamprin.  Too much info????  

Dinner was a wonderful plate of romaine, with tomatoes from our garden, onions, jalepenos, ground turkey, (they had cheese , not me), and taco chips.  YUMMO taco salad!!!  I love eating a massive plate of salad greens with a small amount of toppings because i really get full and the benefits of fiber.  LOL   sorry I am giving waaaaay too much information tonight. I better stop before I say something really bad.

Toodles sisterchicks!

Dh has three more days left on his vacation for the summer. Then it is back to the nose grind for me and into the fire for him (he goes back to dealing with the airshow and tons of meetings-poor guy)   Today we are taking the kids to see that Star Wars Clone wars movie ~I should say DH is, I will be in a neighboring theatre seeing anything but  LOL     

We caught a little intruder. This little guy was so smart I almost felt bad about his demise. He managed to eat peanut butter off of two traps without setting them off! He also got loose from a sticky trap. Well DH tweaked the snap traps and at 3 a.m. ish I awoke to hear SNAP!  I got up and found the little guy who went  very quickly. This was one chubby field mouse , well fed on a ton of our food before we got wise and put everything in containers or glass jars.  Moment of silence for he who moved on…..

LOL  sorry I could not resist. Jeesh and I wonder where my 9 year old gets his really awful humor  ME!

So guess what???

I got on the scale this morning!

and….

it said….

207.8!!!!!!!!

I will take it!!!!!!!

wooooohoooooo!!!!

I knew that 3 hour walk and eating 5 points under would pay off. My feet are a tad sore but it is sooo worth it!   I am skipping the treadmill today because we are taking a family walk this morning while it is cool. I am also going to skip  my deep cleaning that I normally do on Saturdays!   GASP!!!  Call the papers Mrs. OCD-clean freak is putting it off till Sunday!!!!   ;)                  Okay it is only one day.           

Well sisterchicks I will talk to you later. Toodles!

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:30 p.m.

Hello! what a great day we all had. we went to a second hand store and found a desk, some shoes for the boys, and a top for me. Then we all went to the movies. It was 95′F outside and nice and cool with AC in the theatre. very relaxing, and the boys just LOVED the Clone Wars movie. I went to see the Sisterhood movie. It was okay. I was more into the relaxing, not being ‘on’, and just plain vegging out.

When we got home i made leftovers for dinner and DH offered to clean up afterwards. We are trying to figure out what to do for fun on the last two days of vacation DH has left.

Well sisterchicks that is all for now. Toodles!