butterfly emerging soon

Going into church I felt knots in my stomach . We got there and only one of the three were there. WHEW relief.  I had a few people come up to me and ask how I was, how our vacation was, and one came up (knowing something was going on , but no details) hugged me and said she was so glad to see me at church. Sooo sweet and so nice! The lady who sits in front of us turned and chatted with me for a bit. Another woman (my age) came up and we really got into a conversation and she said she wanted to talk to me more about WW. I could sense that she is going through what I did. Isolation a tad lonely. I am going to e-mail her this week and see if she wants to sit with us at the church dinner next Sunday so we could talk more. I feel WONDERFUL.  This wont change even when ’she’returns. I will rise well above all of this. I forgive her, my door is always open, I am willing to talk and work through this however if she wants to continue this childish nonsense I will not participate anymore. I am too old, too mature, love life too much, love church too much to waste one more second on all of this nonsense.  I got some of my strength for you ladies. Thank you soooooo much. Some of it also came from my dear friend ‘V’ . I am so grateful to you all helping me through a bump in the road of my life. Thank you!

I am 206 this morning!!!! I am so gratefull and humbled because I was not patient enough to let it come off when it was good and ready.  DH put the scale away and I am not going to weigh myself until Septmeber 30th.  I think I can do this. I had the days where i stalled and hit a plateau I was so close to going off of plan. I do not want numbers to make me frustrated enough to come that close to binging again. Thank goodness I did not binge but I was close. So until I mature enough to have that not be an issue I will only weigh once a month. It will be locked away and DH will hide the button batteries for the scale. Man I am sooooo bad. I mean locking up a scale like its in fort Knox!  

I had such a high carb day. I was bad. I had 1/2 everything bagel with light creme cheese for breakfast. For lunch I had a turkey on wheat from Subway and  a bag of baked chips. Waaaaaaaay too many ding dang carbs!!!!!! I have got to stop that!!! I am well within my points but still.

My dearest BF “V” is coming over Monday with her BF “K” and her cutie DS “M”. I am soooooo excited!  DH will be grilling steak and chicken , and hot dogs. I will be making tabulee salad, and black eyed pea salad. BF is bringing her yummy pasta salad. I used to eat at her house alot when i was younger and she is one good cook. She makes chicken paprikash to die for!!!!!

Well sisterchicks that is all for now. I am off to rest, relax, make a light dinner later, read, play with my DS’s, talk to DH and go to bed early!

Toodles

Can you hear the foghorn????  It is so thick out there you cannot see further than a few feet. DH had to go to the airports  (at 5ish in the morning) in this pea soup. It is not bad enough that he has to deal with all of the military planes and personel that come with this yearly air show. Poor guy I feel bad for him.  Oh well he does not have to work Sunday or Monday.

I have some good , great, fantastic news!!!!!  The scale has finally submitted to the TRUTH. I am down to 207 flat. Woooohoooo. Happy girl has finally gone through two weeks of weight standstill heck and come out of the other side in VICTORY!!!!!!

Thanks Pat, I have been using the calc. you said to.  While I will admit that WW is a good healthy way to eat normal foods, they had tasty products, and a wonderful support/accountability system they have you eat too many calories. Not as many as I first though (thank goodness). I am glad I was off on that. However that being said their calorie allotment that they give you for daily points, weekly extra points and exercise points can really stall out a person and have it take much longer. Plus it does not watch carbs like i really really really need right now with my diabetes.  Sooooo that being said I am going to stay on it a tad longer while i buy my own little calorie/fat/carb counter to carry everywhere. I need to research how many calories I need for my height/goal weight/activity level/diabetes.  I think I just gave myself a research job. LOL I am challenged and LIKE it!

Well today is clean, clean, clean day. Sunday is into the lions den day. Monday is see my dearest sweet friend day. wooohooo!!!

I am wearing these OLD NAVY chinos (olive green) to church on Sunday. They never fit me. I bought them second hand and they could not even go up my hips all the way ((way back at 263) . THEY FIT and make me look skinny. Well as skinny as I can look at 207 pounds.  

I am off to see Mr. Treadmill and then visit my weights and yoga ball. I think you ladies are right. I need to find some way to stir up the exercise pot so to speak.  It would be nice to add a bike ride every once in a while, or some extra out of door walks?? For now Toodles

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   12:30 pm

First please let me clarify that i DO think that WW is a good program. I am so sorry I did not mean to make it sound like a bad program.  I agree with patty that it is healthy helps you do it at a healthier pace. I soooo agree with that.  I just think that it is time for me to take more responsibility for what goes into my body. WW has done well for me so far however it does not count my carbs which I really need being a Diabetic. I admit that I am very impatient about my weight loss. I get frustrated when I go for a week or two not losing an ounce when I am doing what I am supposed to. LOL  That is so my weakness! 

I am soooooo peeved! I spoke to DH on the phone who is EXHAUSTED! He has been dealing with the airshow people, the military and now secret service because Hillary/ Bill /Obama showed up for the Tubbs/Jones funeral.  DH was absolutely disgusted that Hillary used this time at a DEAD WOMANS freaking funeral to call Obama the president!!!!!  OMG! I do not care WHAT party you are have some FREAKING respect for the dead and the REAL mourners!!!!!!  So classless!  Now to top all of this off DH relief agent ‘R’  called in sick AGAIN!! I mean the money will be nice but DH is dead on his feet right now.  Poor guy!!!  I am glad he has two days off to rest.

Well I Saturday cleaned the house, did some laundry, played with DS. MAN alive  LOL  he was soooooo determined to be naked today because it was hot!  LOL  I did not mind the shirt and shorts but I drew the line at the diaper! Man did he throw one heck of a temper tantrum. It took 5 minutes in time out for him to calm down, WHEW!  I am pooped and glad my DS is down for a looooong nap.  

Well I am off to eat lunch. Toodles sisterchicks

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 9:25 p.m.

Yes , I am still up and awake.  Whenever DH pulls a double so do I.  I do feel bad for him. On top of everything else he had a TLS or a TSL I forget the code. He had to go lead on patrol with the Coast Guard because they had an emergency crash transmitter go off and headquaters (in another state) called to say it was activated. Well looking for a plane crash is not a fun task for him. Thank goodness it was turned on by accident and not by a crash.  RELIEF!!!!  He is gonna be one tired man when he gets home (after midnight)!

I did not eat dinner until 7:30 p.m.  I just prefer to wait until the kids are done, had baths, and are relaxing for the night to eat (when DH works OT). I had three chicken legs, raw carrots, and fat free pringles, oh and about 1/4 cup hot sauce for dipping the legs in.  LOL   I am sooo glad hot sauce is about calorie free. Plus it has a HUGE amount of vitamin c , when you use it as much as I do.  LOL

Hey sisterchicks thank you so much for your sweet comments. patty you have inspired me and I will go in strong! My being there to worship with a smile on my face is victory.  Thank you all again for the support, kind words, prayers, and good thoughts. It means the world to me! You all have a wonderful Sunday and I will update you all Sunday afternoon.

toodles

It is official I am in plateau HELL-o!!!!!  The week we left for our vacation I was at this weight. I lost 2 pounds ON vacation. Gained two pounds back even though I never went off the plan. I have been stuck here for two weeks now.  ARGH!!!   Sooooo frustrating/.

Okay, enough!

Stay the course, no matter how pissed off I am at my own body for holding onto weight IT DOES NOT NEED.   I just need to hold on.

• Keep within my points
• Maybe eat more raw fruits and veggies
• cut the salty foods like pickles and jar jalepenos to normal portions
• drink waaaaay more water
• exercise every day except Sundays
• take my vitamins

 I cannot give up, lose heart, or give in to being full blown discouraged. I wont! I am too stubborn and this time my stubborness will be for good! I cannot stay at this weight forever. My body will get IT eventually. It will come off again. I wont be this weight forever. I will get on that treadmill again and work my butt off! I will lift weights, I will do my situps, I will record every drop and morsel that goes in this Gobb I call a mouth & stay within my points , I will drink my water, I WILL conquer this!!!

Well sisterchicks i am off to workout, teach, do some laundry, clean a tad, teach more, and BE POSITIVE!

You all have a wonderful day and be strong!

Toodles

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 1 p.m.

You know I was looking at something in my weight watchers book. What made me look was a comment that DH made the other day. He said something true and more profound than he knows. They may be a a good support sytem and a healthy way to eat but in the long run they are a business and they will run it as such. That clicked with my not losing weight. Is it possible for WW to make the points low enough to lose weight but to make the points HIGH enough to make it take A LOT longer than it should so that we stay with meetings and products longer?  Meetings here are $12 a week and lets face it their products are good but REALLY costly!!!! Then I thought how would it hurt to record a couple of days of normal WW eating (I started recording today) and then get a calorie counter book and record how many calories it really is. I have been paying no attention to that until now. After all WW did it for me.  For the most part 1 point is 50-100 calories. I am told to eat 27 points plus bonus weekly points that i never eat.  That means I might be eating  1,350 - HOLY CRAP 2,700 calories??????!!!!!!!!   With bonus points can ADD up to 100-600 calories a week!!!   OMgosh!!!!!!  1,350 is do-able. All the way up to 1,500 I would think. What the holy heck 2,700??????  I want to get a calorie counter to be sure of this. NO DING DANG wonder!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Am I counting this wrong. Any other WW people out there with calorie counters????  I have got to look into this!

Well that is just great. I may be eating too much thinking i was doing well!!   sigh

Oh well at least I might have figured out what is causing my weight to stall all of the time when I was sticking to my points.  I will get a calorie counter book and see.

Toodles!!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  5:50 p.m.

 We just got back from the library in town.  I love going there.  Looks like a storm is coming our way. I am relieved to be honest, it will cool things down a tad from this very muggy warm weather.

Dinner tonight will be: Thurkey burger(no bun for me)/fat free cottage cheese/apple/fat free pringles

Dessert will be: a peach, 100 cal pack fruit dip/ 100 cal bag popcorn

HUNGRY day but well within my points. I am shopping next week for a calorie counter. Will not have time to do it earlier.  Toodles

Well I got on the scale again this morning son of a B^&($#@!)*!!!!  I am up to 209.4!!!!!!  W T HELLO??!!!!!!!!  I am still slightly UNDER in my WW points, I am working out, drinking more water, taking my vitamins, W T HELLO!!!!!!!!!!!!  I am so pissed but not discouraged. Being mad at a situation is an emotional response being discouraged is a CHOICE. I am NOT going down that road.  I started to go down that road with the awful situation with them women at church. I am NOT going to be choosing to be discouraged. Because I REFUSE to give in or give up and that is what that emotional choice does!!!  But I can be pissed enough to workout harder, drink more water, take my vitamins and throw the scale into the corn field accross the street!!

There I got that off of my chest!  This will not set the tone of my day except to make me even MORE determined to eat and do well! Just like the treatment by these woman make me MORE determined to GO to church. They would like nothing more than for me to go away and never come back. NO SIR-EEEEE! I may feel sick from the though of facing this pack but I am DETERMINED to take my place in church BACK.  I will rise above all of this crappin high school nonsense and claim victory by persevering. Isn’t it the same for losing weight and reclaiming our health?????  I have gone through my life being afraid of my emotions and ATE (and a loooong time ago purged) because of it. I have also spent the better part of my life allowing people like my mother, and this one woman from church have too much negative power and control over my life. NO MORE!!!! I am far too ding dang old to live like this anymore. Gosh this is sooooo freeing!  Now lets see if i can go to church without getting sick from tyring to walk in courage when i m scared to death!

Well that is waaaaaaaaay off topic is it not???  LOL  sorry

I am off to get on the treadmill, lift some weights, do some sit-ups, teach, do some laundry, play with toddler and then read some more of a new book I got  “Where The Heart IS”. A movie was made a few years ago from it. The book is better.

Toodles all of you wonderful sisterchicks!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   1:15 p.m.

Good afternoon sisterchicks!

I have been thinking about my eldest DS today. he turned 19 today. It is so hard to believe that my little boy whom God brought into our lives at 7 years old is a grown man off on his own. What a blessing it has been to call him son.

I have had such the hungry, hungry day. I ate a light breakfast of:

1 light whole wheat eanglish muffin/1 egg white/ 1 slice WW 1 point cheese /3 glasses of water w/ all vitamins.   I soooo dont get it. I ate breakfast and I am HUNGRY!!!!! I do not eat breakfast and I am okay. Go figure!

I am so hungry that I plan on eating a plate full of raw veggies, a veggie/soy  burger, a ton of jalepenos, and some fat free pringles with a TON of water and a diet pop.

Some sisterchicks wrote some comments , thank you (I will answer you on todays comment page) You sisterchicks are great!

Toodles

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6 p.m.

Hello sisterchicks!

I am so stuffed and for only 6 points!!  I made pasta with ground turkey sauce and garlic bread for the guys here. I had eggplant, with tomatoe sauce and a touch of romano cheese, raw carrots, cucumber and one small baked whole wheat pita with garlic salt (my version of garlic bread). I am stuffed. It was only 6 points total!  I forgot to tell you all I worked out BUT good this morning. i was soooooo peeved that I gained that I did 45 minutes on the treadmill starting at 2% incline & 2.6mph all the way up to 10% incline and 3.6mph. I cannot go any faster without having to run and lets just say there is no bra in the world that can stop my boobs from assaulting me if I run!    :lol: 

Well I am going to watch some trash t.v tonight (BIG Brother) I know I am so bad!  I heard Survivor and The Biggest Loser will be starting soon. I am such the realty t.v. junkie.  

toodles

Well after my big bold speech on how I am going to be so strong and not put one toe upon my scale. Guess what I did this morning? I got on. Was I rewarded for my inate curiousity?   NAAAAAAAW I am still at 208.8!  I find though that this does not divert me in the least. I will still stick with my plan. 

 I find that the further that I go on this quest that has turned into a long journey is this “the numbers on the scale are what they are”. It does not change my path in the least. The OLD Joy would have used the bad numbers on the scale to binge like it is my last supper. The old, old Joy would have binged and then threw up . Now I have not done that in well over 15 years but I still binged. Hence my massive weight problem. I am still finding it hard to grasp that I am finally getting ‘it’.   This by no means makes me the perfect eater. HA! That is funny.  Even though I have not binged in a few months I am NOT perfect only God Himself is perfect. So I know I will have days where I will eat more than I should or I will eat within my WW points but eat too much junkie points. That’s okay, life goes on after bad choices . I also am learning that life goes on if the scale does not show all of my dedication and hard work. Soooooo that being said 208.8  we both know that YOU wont be here for long. As much as I want to be a good hostess you must leave soon. I will not be too pushy and allow you to leave when you see fit. But understand this 208.8 you WILL leave!

LOL

I get far too weird with too much coffee!     

“V”  wrote me and they are coming over Monday!! I am soooooo excited!! Wooohooo!  This will be the first time they have come out here. It is not a short drive and they have a baby so this means a LOT to me.  It looks like the weather will be nice. woohoo

Well I am off to my day.  I have to teach Math, English, and reading in the morning (as well as baby hooked on phonics with DS toddler). Then a tad of cleaning and laundry. After the kids lunch and DS goes down for a nap I can finish my teaching and then have my own late lunch and maybe even get in some reading.

So I will talk to you all later. Have a great day sisterchicks! Toodles

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   12:30 p.m.

I did a killer workout this morning before the younger DS’s woke up. I only have time for 30 minutes on the treadmill so I kicked it up a few notches. I did a 10% incline which is the max and i started at 2.6 mph and every 2 minutes I put it up 0.1 mph until I reached 3.6 mph and stayed there till cool down. I am down from 100 to 80 situps because I skipped two weeks and got out of shape quick. I did only 2 sets of bicep, arm press, bench press on the ball, pushups off the ball, and flies. Man do I get out of shape fast!!! It stinks that it takes forever to get in shape and days to get out of shape.  BLAH!

Well I finished with morning school , did a few chores, am in the middle of afternoon school and then it is RESTING time till DS toddler wakes from nap. Wooohooo!!!

I had one egg white for breakfast for protein and ZERO WW points.  For lunch I will have a veggie burger on a whole wheat english muffin, a ton of raw veggies and some fat free chips OH and about 1/2 cup of jalepenos.   LOL

I got out my old WW book and realized that i was eating under my points. At 208 I should have 27 points a day. I was keeping it under 25. No wonder my weight loss stalled I am starving it and my body went into that starvation mode. So back up to 27 points. Yahooooo! That means an extra peice of fruit or some hummus and raw veggies.  Yummooo!

Toodles for now sisterchicks!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  6 p.m.

Hello sisterchicks! I hope you all had a wonderful day!

We just got back from the store (WalMart). I wanted to go in and buy some things for Monday. I wanted to make a wheat salad and tried to find Tabulee there and could not find it.   Crud! I was really in the mood for it. I will look for some when we go to church on Sunday.

YESSSSS you all heard me right.  I am going to church on Sunday.    :cry:

      DH called the pastor and talked with him in length and went into a bit more detail (without giving any names). Pastor was kind, and respected the fact that we were honest and came forward in all of this. He said it was good that I tried to open the lines of communication. he also advised not to let this person keep me from church and hearing the word or God.    SIGH     He is right   DOUBLE SIGH   I just do not do well with conflict.  It makes me feel sick to my stomach.   I just do not like dealing with people who are like this. But I want to do this for me and for my family. they love this church (as I do) and I wouldn’t want to take that from them for the world.  I am just not sure if i am brave enough to face ‘them’ and deal with the shunning from ‘them’ and the mean cruelty from the one.   sigh    ENOUGH of that.

positive thoughts. My dear friend is coming over with her boyfriend and adorable little baby. I have that to look forward to.  

I had veggie burgers again for dinner, a ton of raw carrots, jar jalapenos, some low fat ranch dip, and fat free pringles. I LOVE those things (pringles) they are made with Olestra which is a fat they are fried in that cannot be digested by our bodies thus they become fat free. They bother some people but not me thank goodness because they are what gives me the feeling of eating chips without any fat.  I am low on points again.  Maybe I ought to start eating another snack. I have got to get my body out of this starvation mode it went into.

Well I plan on relaxing tonight, reading, and spending time with hubby. I hope that all of you sisterchicks have a great night.

Toodles

GROGGY, sleepy, tired, Yaaaaaaaaaawn.  Man alive I have to get used to waking up at 5 a.m. again. My whole body is rebelling against the loss of the extra hour I got over vacation.  I am going to drink that whole entire pot of coffee!

Stupid scale! I know don’t say stupid.  However that thing still says i weigh 208.8!  I am NOT going to weigh myself until Sunday. This will be a true test of self control. I have got to break the habit of allowing that stupid machine set the tone for the day. To do this i need to stop using the machine. Can you go through scale withdrawal?????  Patty you are right, stay the course my body is resting and it will realize once again that it can let go of more FAT. I could understand the constant standstills if i were closer to my goal. But man alive I am still over 200!  Okay I am letting go of this bad funk from an irritating peice of machine. However that being said this machine better remember I OWN HER and SHE can be thrown in the closet and REPLACED!  HA take that scale!

Well I am going to get my sorry excuse of a tush on the treadmill. I am afraid he wont remember who I am it has been so long!  

Then it is day one of teaching for me.

and the toddler, catch up on cleaning, laundry  whew,   toodles sisterchicks

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  12:30 p.m.

Taught math, English, did 2 loads of wash, ran the sweeper, cleaned toddler smears off of windows, cleaned the bathroom,  did Hooked on Phonics for babies with toddler, fed kids lunch, put toddler down for nap, DS is reading to him, I am HERE 

After this I must still introduce history and science. DS can do spelling and more reading on his own. Then I am DONE , finished, wooohoooo! Day one almost under my belt. It only took 3/4 of a pot of coffee!   LOL

I ate breakfast. I had a 1 point WW peach yogurt with 1/4 cup bran flakes on top. I drank a BIG glass of H2o  with my 3 vitamins  YUCKO!!! Now i am going to rush and get the toddlers diaper changed and put laundry away before I teach afternoon class. Then i eat lunch. I am HUNGRY!!!!!!

I did some research and if I take a COMPLETE mulit vitamin/mineral, my fish pill, and BIOTIN with a meal and water it should help the hair loss. I was taking my vitamins wrong! You must have “some” fat in the meal because many vitamins and some minerals are fat soluable. I did not know that. the spicy cravings could be a lack in vitamin c and beta carotene (would explain my huge consumption of carrots as well).  Well DS is here. Must dash. Toodles!

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  8 p.m

I feel like my guts are being ripped out. 

sorry too graphic???   I am ovulating and when I do it hurts like HELLO for about 12 hours and then poof goes away. I am not waiting for it to go away and took 2 pamprin.  Too much info????  

Dinner was a wonderful plate of romaine, with tomatoes from our garden, onions, jalepenos, ground turkey, (they had cheese , not me), and taco chips.  YUMMO taco salad!!!  I love eating a massive plate of salad greens with a small amount of toppings because i really get full and the benefits of fiber.  LOL   sorry I am giving waaaaay too much information tonight. I better stop before I say something really bad.

Toodles sisterchicks!

That describes my day exactly. I woke up and had one cup of coffee while I got my first month of class planning under my belt. ((DS made it VERY clear he wants to wait till next year to go into building school. He wants to start when we move to new school system. he does not want to make friends just to move within a few months. Plus he wants to try and get one grade ahead. That in itself will take ALOT of one on one teaching.  I guess I understand where he is coming from))   sigh  I am soooo lazy.  The lazy me wants to put him in building school now but we will respect his feelings and what he wants.

I had a wonderful visit with my dearest friend “V”.   It was so nice to go and see her beautiful little baby “M”  he got so big and has the cutest little face you will ever see. It was so nice to sit and visit and catch up.  She an I have known each other forever. I am sooooo glad I got the chance to go and see her.  I am really hoping that she and her family will be able to make the long drive out here in the middle of no-where on Monday for a visit and a bbq. 

Well now for the ‘other’ news. I am back up to 208!!!  Dang, blasted, son of a gun!!!  I am being so good on my weight watchers points. Maybe too good. I am eating too low on my points, skipping meals, not eating enough ‘whole’ foods, and not drinking enough water.  SIGH   I mean for years i put on weight because I ate and ate and ate and did not lift a finger towards any exercise at all. Now I keep going up and down like a ding dang yoyo because I am not eating enough???!!!  ARGH!!!  Sooooo I was bad again and skipped breakfast. NO MORE!!!! I am changing it all starting today, right now, this second. Well at dinner anyhow because I am not eating till then.  LOL           

• I am eating breakfast every day.
• I am drinking at least 8 glasses of water every day  BLECH!  I will do it!
• I will try and eat raw fruit and or veggies at every meal .
• I will no longer eat UNDER my points
• I will take all of my vitamins every day.

I hope that does it. Well sisterchicks today was our last day of vacation.  sigh. Back to the grindstone Tuesday. I also have to get my cushy tushy back on that treadmill. Boring or not I need to workout!

Toodles!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~    6:20 p.m

We just finished dinner. I have been eating the weirdest things for meals. Tonight I had a cold leftover bbq chicken breast , about 1 cup raw carrots, about 1 tlb. light ranch veggie dip, about 1 cup jar jalepeno’s, and one serving of fat free pringles with hot sauce on them. WTheck??? I have been craving really hot and spicy food  (((jar banana peppers , jalepeno peppers, hot sauce, hot curry powder and dill pickles)))  . I eat so many jalepenos that I am afriad I will get second degree burns in my digestive track.  LOL   I have to look it up and see if I am acutally deficient in something that those have. In the meantime I am going to have alot of heartburn for a while. 

toodles

Oh my gosh I have a hangover from two light wine coolers! Two!  Thank goodness they were those Mikes Hard lemonade/cranberry light ones. They are under 100 calories each. I make a huge glass with a ton of ice, slice up a lime and lemon and add them to the glass and then add the cranberry lemonade. YUMMO!!!  I drank one and then said WTheck I have enough points so I opened up another. I could only finish half, I was so half drunk by then. I am such a lightweight when it comes to alcohol. I think it may be my diabetes.   Oh well it is only a few times a year.   It was soooooo worth the WW points!

We are trying to figure out what to do today for some fun. We already took the boys to the county fair, to the movies, and to the island. It might rain today so it may have to be an indoor activity. hmmmmm   I need waaaay more coffee to have to think this hard this early in the morning.  

I am 207 flat!  woooo hoooo!  That is after alcohol!  I notice something weird with all of this weight loss. When I cut my points way too low my weight loss will stall or even stop. At times I may even gain a pound. When I eat more (not over points ) I tend to start losing again. You would think it would be the other way around you know?  I also notice that when I have some things I retain water like a freaking camel.  I think what I need to do is take this eating to another level. maybe eat more whole foods most of the time and packaged stuff maybe for the weekends?  I eat fat free Pringles (I love those things!), 100 cal pack cookies, and DQ sugar free/fat free frozen fudge bars. On pizza night i get diet pizza, and pasta night I eat Lean cuisine pasta. Those all have a ton of salt. I need to rethink some of these eating habits. I knew my weight loss would slow down and I am fine with that. However i do not want to hamper my weight loss by eating too many salt laden foods.

OUCH!  My brain hurts from thinking far too much with so little coffee. i am off to get more!  Toodles!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~   5 p.m.

Well we just finished an early dinner of hot and spicy bbq chicken, corn on the cob, raw carrots and I had about 1/2 cup jalapeno pepper rings. I know a really weird craving. My DS toddler was being Mr. picky picky again. I am sticking to my guns. he did not eat the chicken nuggets, or the bbq chicken so he got a few crackers and can go without ((he did eat his fruit sauce which i give him at every meal)). I am sick of all he wants is chips, pretzels, junk, junk, junk. I created part of this problem now i have to fix it. He eats what I make or he gets a few crackers and can go without. i am not a ding dang short order cook!!!   

WHEW!

sigh

sorry

venting moment there.     

deeeeeep breath  

exhale

better

We went shopping at Target and Walmart because i have no pants that fit at all and had to buy some in case it got cooler out. I cannot believe it I can fit into a size XL!!!!!!!!!  A freaking EXTRA LARGE!!!!!  I have not been this size for over a decade!!!!!!   WOOOOOHOOOOO!!!!!!!  There is a style that is in this year young and old (me). It is leggings with a long sweater or long top and sweater or jacket. I bought leggins and a long (almost to the knees) top . I also bought very snug (I want them to for longer than a month) stretch, straight leg jeans in dark gray and autum brown.  XL! I cannot believe it!!!        Pinch me!!!!     

Guess what????  We are very seriously thinking of putting DS into ‘building school’ this year. We want to talk to the school board and the teacher to see what would need to be done.  I am such a nervous nelly. My baby has not been away from me ever like this before. Who needs the security blanket him or ME????   DH and I will be doing some serious talking tonight and some serious praying.

Toodles!!

Dh has three more days left on his vacation for the summer. Then it is back to the nose grind for me and into the fire for him (he goes back to dealing with the airshow and tons of meetings-poor guy)   Today we are taking the kids to see that Star Wars Clone wars movie ~I should say DH is, I will be in a neighboring theatre seeing anything but  LOL     

We caught a little intruder. This little guy was so smart I almost felt bad about his demise. He managed to eat peanut butter off of two traps without setting them off! He also got loose from a sticky trap. Well DH tweaked the snap traps and at 3 a.m. ish I awoke to hear SNAP!  I got up and found the little guy who went  very quickly. This was one chubby field mouse , well fed on a ton of our food before we got wise and put everything in containers or glass jars.  Moment of silence for he who moved on…..

LOL  sorry I could not resist. Jeesh and I wonder where my 9 year old gets his really awful humor  ME!

So guess what???

I got on the scale this morning!

and….

it said….

207.8!!!!!!!!

I will take it!!!!!!!

wooooohoooooo!!!!

I knew that 3 hour walk and eating 5 points under would pay off. My feet are a tad sore but it is sooo worth it!   I am skipping the treadmill today because we are taking a family walk this morning while it is cool. I am also going to skip  my deep cleaning that I normally do on Saturdays!   GASP!!!  Call the papers Mrs. OCD-clean freak is putting it off till Sunday!!!!   ;)                  Okay it is only one day.           

Well sisterchicks I will talk to you later. Toodles!

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 6:30 p.m.

Hello! what a great day we all had. we went to a second hand store and found a desk, some shoes for the boys, and a top for me. Then we all went to the movies. It was 95′F outside and nice and cool with AC in the theatre. very relaxing, and the boys just LOVED the Clone Wars movie. I went to see the Sisterhood movie. It was okay. I was more into the relaxing, not being ‘on’, and just plain vegging out.

When we got home i made leftovers for dinner and DH offered to clean up afterwards. We are trying to figure out what to do for fun on the last two days of vacation DH has left.

Well sisterchicks that is all for now. Toodles!

Home sweet home!  Our little island holiday was wonderful. It was a little piece of heaven on earth. It is good to be home though. It is funny how you see your home, your life, your family, with a renewed freshness and perspective with a sabbatical of sorts behind you.

I will miss getting up at the crack of dawn to take a bike ride along the shores of the island. The fresh breeze, warm air, gulls crying, being completely alone was so refreshing. The time we spent as a family playing putt putt, walking main street by all the beach mansions, taking a short hike on a path in the park, walking the piers, getting ice cream (I was good not a drop for me!), cooking out dinner etc…….  We actually got bored. once we embraced this feeling of not HAVING to run around all busy it was BLISS!

I was able to buy a wonderful little trinket. A peice of lake glass (emerald green) wash by water, sand , and time till smooth and frosted white on top of the green. A artist on the island takes these and makes jewlery. I bought my second peice from her. MAN ALIVE have her prices gone up. More than double from the last peice i bought from her a few years ago (shell peice that is black and cobalt blue). She wraps them in gold wire. crystal beads or semi precious gems, She is truly and artist. I like buying necklace pendants from her.

We took the ferry back into out old lives but refreshed and with a new perspective and appreciation of what we are gifted with ~each other~

I am making this part bright red. I weigh 208.4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I lost weight on vacation! Woooohooo! I was happy to maintain or lose 1 pound I am down to 208 from 210!!!!

We unpacked, I threw some wash in, and we drove 10 minutes to our county fair. I must have walked for 3 hours. My feet are SORE!!! But it was fun seeing the kids have a great time and i got to exercise to boot! I did not have any fair food. I came home and had a nice healthy sammy with fruit and a diet pop.

I am glad to be back sisterchicks! Toodles for now

 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  6:45 p.m.

Just got finished with dinner. We had a ton of ripe tomatoes in garden so I made an Egyptian salad (strawberry tomatoes, garlic, parsley, red onion, and olive oil salad dressing, cracked black pepper). With the salad we had some grilled chicken breasts, and corn on the cob. I ate well within my points but I am stuffed! It is so nice to have so many fresh veggies to eat in season like this. I can eat so much more for far less calories. I am going to eat corn and tomatoes , and cucumbers till they are coming out of my ears!   

Since we came home a day and a half early we will take the kids to the movies Saturday.  I am not going to go to church on Sunday. I know, I Know I am avoiding the whole issue at hand at church by not going. I just do not like hostile or nasty situations. sigh  I know I am being a total coward, but at least I am not eating out of stress from this for once in my stinking life!

Well enough of that crap. I cannot wait until Monday , I get to go and see my dearest friend in the whole wide world “V”. I have not seen her since March!!!  I was 263 then ! I am now 208. My dear friend has known me skinny in high school and fat as an adult. She is wonderful and such a support to me in this. i am blessed to call her friend even if i cant see her often.

Well sisterchicks that is all for tonight

toodles