I’ve been this way all my life…
Like seriously, I’ve ALWAYS been the fat kid from as far back as I can remember. I was a small baby, but then my grandmother couldn’t get me to stop crying when my mom went back to work and would feed me to keep me quiet. So I became the chubby kid. Where I’m from, Fat = ugly and that’s what I thought of myself. My sis was super skinny and stylish…back in the late 80’s early 90’s. If you saw pics of her, she looked like an extra on the Cosby show, like she was one of the kids or one of their friends. She had the best clothes and all these boys calling her. So to me, that meant Skinny = pretty/happy/popular. I had an ugly duckling/swan complex when I was younger; I thought I would hit a certain age and become something else. And since this never happened I spent ALL of my teen years thinking I was ugly. I have finally grown out of that, but I’m still faced with the problem of thinking that because I’m fat it makes me unattractive. I’m still thinking that once I lose this weight, I’ll feel better about myself but I sometimes wonder if that won’t be enough, like I’ll lose this weight and I’ll find something else wrong with my skin…my hair…my height….
I can understand what you’re saying, however my story is a bit different. All I can say, is after having only lost 12 lbs and toning up a lot, I feel much better about myself already. Once you get the complements about how great you look, everything will fall into place, I PROMISE! I know everytime I said I was going to start making life changes, I always failed, so to have actually done it and stuck with it, it’s amazing. You can do it, don’t give up, think positive and surround yourself with positive people. Remember you’re beautiful inside, and that will bleed out as soon as you see it outside. Good luck, and God Bless.
We women are never happy, are we? That’s probably a good thing. Otherwise, we’d all end up looking like all those unshaven, beer-belly men. LOL!
You know how someone is always telling you there’s a raving beauty inside fighting to get out? I’m betting there’s a beauty already out there that you’re not seeing. Is it possible you’re only focusing on the things you don’t like and missing all the beauty you already have? Take a look in the mirror at that gorgeous chick staring back at you!